Go play in a microwave, Susie.

2010-11-26T00:22:00.004+08:00

oh by the way,

ifonlywefartflowers.blogspot.com

;)

2010-11-05T23:46:00.002+08:00

"Happy are those who trust in the Lord." -Psalm 84 :12

yay productive day today.

it's nice how God speaks verses like that to make me reconsider if i'm really trusting in Him.

cos if i am, i'm supposed to be joyful in every circumstance, and not worry or feel discouraged or wonder if He's ever gonna answer my prayers.

cos sometimes i guess we dont mean to not act what we say, we just dont know we're not doing it right.

but yeah i guess from now i'm gonna remind myself to be strong cos as long as i trust in Him,

i have every reason in the whole wide world to smile. B)

seeyalllllllll 20days or smth yay :P

2010-10-16T19:10:00.006+08:00

ok. i think it's time for my annual go-my-blog-to-announce-my-hiatus-but-i-will-still-use-my-comp-in-the-end.

but yes i think i am for real this time from now i'll touch fb once a week and not touch this blog till As are over. :)

i think i wanna change link after As anw, i thought of a way cooler link alr. B)

i'm slowly increasing my pace since yesterday, after the exhibition hahah.

yay it was so fun and thanks everyone who came downn.

farewell assembly was so nice too i'm gonna miss everyoneee!

but yeah k i'm like growing back my energy by the grams so it's rly quite slow, and i wanted to come here while i was doing math to complain about how it's so useless working for all As.

like i was damn sian this morning.

HHA. see right, cos i wanna go ntu and the cut off is like, ~~CCC?~~ Edit: i just found out today it's DDD hahahha.

and then there are those people who wanna get into medicine and law and they are like OMG I NEED TO GET ALL As OR THATS IT MY FUTURE IS RUINED CAN GO COMMIT SUICIDE

so like, i was talking to mrs tan and yitong this morning then i say maybe i should just slack off a bit, and fulfill someone else's dream since i dont really need the A as much as they do.

ahhaha.

but then, after i finished my math i didnt rly wanna complain about that alr cos i could do those complex qsns i tried.

and you rly feel v happy after you correctly solve a math problem ahaha.

so i decided like ok, i'm sure God put me here to do the best i can for His glory, not to just barely meet the mark right.

so ok i will just work hard and by next week it's gna be peak and i'll keep it at saturation point till the papers start then i can precipitate the answers.

(get it cos when you go over the saturation point IP > Ksp and you will precipitate.)

maybe i know like when i grow up i am not gonna ever need to know the dot product in my life or need to have complex numbers in my fantasy worlds of cartoons, even though they arent real numbers (get it cos SHIT WHY AM I MAKING SO MANY LAME JOKES OVER MATH AND CHEM IT IS NOT EVEN FUNNY LAH)

but i still need to work hard! because if not i might fail and i have to go and sell tissue paper.

which is gonna be way worse in terms of fun-ness compared to studying even.

and like i will be spoiling market for all the old people.

i think i've just been restless the past few days cos i when i sit and bury my face in the books for hours trying to squeeze information into my peabrain, i just wanna go draw or dance or sing or smth.

all of which i honestly suck at right now cos i havent done in so long.

but YES.

i can do all that after As! PLUSSS CAN GET A DOG.

so yes i shall make sure i do this well then i can enjoy even more :D

and besides, i think i act like chem math gp lit anw ;)

YAYE SO LETS HAVE FUN STUDYING KIDS BYE I AM OFF TO MAKE SOME NEW BEST FRIENDS.

2010-10-04T21:56:00.005+08:00

OKHAIPEOPLE.

i am here because i am quite sad, that it's only monday.

at the same time, it's already monday, and i've exactly 5 WEEKS TILL A LEVELS START AGUHG1?!?

YES. so!

do i like today, or do i not like today?

welllll..... >: ) >: )

HAHA. i am so mysterious and you are totally loving it.

btu yes i really want sat to come cos then i can go out cos i am gonna be a hardcore muggerbutt for the next few days.

it's my first week of muggerbutting please give me a round of applause!! :D :D

k no you can save it for friday actually when i complete my full never-play-ness.

i think i should just pulverise my phone to commit to studyign fulltime.

it's probably a sign.

like abt a wk ago i took out my phone strap and apparently by doing so i offended the gods and it's super inauspicious LOLOL THE TALKING DEER HAHAHAHAHA ok no actually it's just that i have nothing to hold on to when i msg and i just drop my phone EVERYWHEREE.

on sat i dropped it down an escalator.

and i was going up = i cannot run down to get it cos i'll be running a never ending stairs.

hahahah heng ravin was with me so it was less embarrassing.

and some guy picked up my phone for me.

AND TODAY I DROPPED IT FROM THE 2ND FLOOR DOWN HAHAHAHA.

AHAH OMG I THINK I'M JUST GLAD I DIDNT KILL ANYONE.

anw i'm here cos i'm getting the email from jasper to fwd to the guy at the print shop to find out how much out vinyl letter stickers are gonna cost! :P

im so excited for our exhibition pls like super duper.

IT'Z GNA BE AWESUMMM. B) YEAH.

yes anw i'm off to do be hardworking! 5 weeks moreee stop reading my bloggg >:))) lolol k not that anyone reads this anw.

2010-09-28T22:50:00.004+08:00

i have a lot of things to be thankful for.

JUST WAIT H2 CHEMISTRY YOU'RE JUST A PRELIM GRADE AND IM GNA OWN YOUR FAT BUTT AT A LEVELS B)

2010-09-24T20:27:00.008+08:00

actually, i am rly sleepy now. ~.~ haha k i dont care i need to write this.

i'm eating b&js. B)

i still cant believe its all over. like 60% of A lvl art DOWNN! X)

celebrated at jap food court ytd with jasper vivien hanyu and jem haha yay and went out with E today X)

ahh it feels so weird now i'll miss all the times we

cried cos of mr k (k lah i think only me and vivien),

got pissed at him,

stayed up late doing our nonsense,

sleeping everywhere at school,

going to the art room during all our breaks,

skipping gp to stay in the art room,

going to the art room after school,

basically being in the art room 3x more than anywhere else in the school,

making stupid jokes,

singing and dancing in the art room,

getting annoyed with the computer cos cannot press the a button,

going places with each other,

and helping each other out.

(OMG SRSLY JASPER I OWE YOU MY LIFE FOR DOING MY LIGHTS HAHA.)

it's crazy i miss it and i'll never regret ever taking art in sajc, even when we found so many reasons to along the way.

+ we've also buried the hatchet alr HAHA cos mr k's act quite nice lah haah!!

except he still scolding vivien and i for not having a boyfriend lolol.

most imptly, i see how God has shown me how He works this whole journey, from giving me so much grace for my prelim papers, to giving me the courage to ask mr kovacs if i could do something i wanted to do on the 2nd last day, and at that, not get rejected by him for the first time or smth. haha.

and that's just the tip of the iceberg i could rly go on about how He's been so faithful to me and for anwswering so many prayers, and just for letting me have so much peace.

anw i think art has let me find some of the nicest people ever, where we go through the whole coursework process and grow so tight haha.

and i've also found that art has all the weirdest people but i like weird people as long as they are nice HHAHA.

omg i think the best nice people are the weird ones i like. B)

and i love how art's kinda the only art form that doesnt make you competitive because we're all unique. :)

like even if you make us do the same thing or use the same material etc, we do it differently and that individuality we create just makes us all feel special, because it's rly not so much about who's better, but just simply how much we choose to outdo ourselves. :)

so right now i just commit everything into God's hands.

whatever grade i get so be it because i know we did our best.

it's been an amazing journey but now it's time to study hard and do well for the rest of our subjects! :)

and as we finish up this v last lap let's stay strong, stay hilarious, and most importantly, stay inspired. ;)

2010-08-14T23:35:00.003+08:00

i feel really blessed.
like everyday God's grace is just magically handed over to me i dont deserve it but like i still get it and im wowed.

but guess it really motivates me :)
to know i'm watched over.

little things.
like how rach's not gonna be coming for cell tmr cos she's got gofest stuff, so i'll have to prepare word + worship by myself.
and like i finished art at 10 and super exhausted and i just wanted a breakk.
and i had no idea how i could prepare like that:(

then i got a msg from claris for captains ball tmr with faith and jodie's cell instead im like OKAYYY!!!! XD hhahah

haha. and i finished one whole picture in one day today, yay.
cancels out my 5-days-for-one-picture over that nat day hols where i was busyyyy as a beee.
haaha.
i need to do one more tomorrow then i'll be on track. X) boxers with hearts on them ftw :B

i'm so tired now.
dont know why im here but i havent been here in ages.

i think a lotttt happened over the last week it flew by so fast.
haha it was really packeddd, mostly with playing, but it's probably the last of fun i'm gna indulge in. hehe.
even gofest dance was really fun despite the bit of stress haha.
was a real success yay and God's presence was with us so strongly. :)
felt so niceee omg i dunno i think i just i really like the feeling when praying and after just one minute later i feel so comforted cos i know He's with me.

think i'm gna sleep now, goodnight i'm starting to type really lazily already haha.

2010-07-30T23:16:00.001+08:00

I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT I CANNNNNN

2010-07-26T22:06:00.005+08:00

i like balloons.

i think we should all live like balloons cos they're always so happy.

i think even when balloons die, they die happy.

cos they know that while they lived, at least they'd held someone's hand before.

and they're usually gifts so it's nice to know you're a gift.

and it's nice to know you made someone smile. :P

and it's nice to know how much you fill someone's heart up with bubbles even though you're so cheap you're not diamonds or gold but you're rubber or aluminium with 99% air in fact.

and all the nice above stuff asideeee, balloons DONT NEED TO STUDYYYYYY. D;

ok i just spoilt it right but i'm just in a moment of i-dont-wanna study-anymoreee.

cos it's fun when you solve a maths qsn/can do a chem qsn.

but when you can't, OMGG IT'S LIKE YOU JUST GOT ON THE STUPID TRAIN THAT'S DRIVING YOU TO FAIL-LAND AND YOU CANT GET OUT:((((((

then art is like fun, but then halfway i will suddenly just think it's damn ugly.

then after a while it looks better and i will think it's nice, but after a while i will think it looks ugly again!!!

so i dunno what is real like why am i lying to myself but if i am being honest to myself then one of myself must be lying cos they keep contradicting. :(

then i cannot write for nuts cos writing is all luck for me.

ie lit/art/gp.

but aughh im gna shut up and suck it up and just continue to work!!!

haha ok just nicely as i am writing this, shane and shane are telling me some really good stuff.

i write for you.

We like to take the blessing from You
Shall we not take the trouble too
You are working all things out
We like to take prosperity
Shall we not take the suffering
You are working all things out

Holy are you Lord
even in the storm
be glorified

thanks sam for lending me i am going back to work NOW work hard too everybody!

2010-07-18T14:53:00.003+08:00

i've sunday tuitions that are never on sundays. haahaah.

anyway i totally feel like sleeping now which is really bad i shouldnt i am supposed to shower then go draw some stuff.

A LOT. of stuff.

kkk gonna do it.

anyway yay cos loudfest was over yesterday it was really fun, and it was quite amazing dancing with a whole bunch of christians for the first time.

and like committing every practice, and the performance into His hands.

really nice.

and thanks to all the cool people who came down for 3 minutes to support us! HAHA B) love you all.

and now this one's for vivien.

for making me find my old pri3 diary.

here's some exerpts from certain entries. i try to pick the funny ones:

(in actual spelling/grammar.

and blanked out names so i will not embarrass anyone else other than me.

and i think it was quite formal cos i was taught how to write essay in primary school and i follow.

and i had a really big vocabulary for a primary 3 ok!! my teacher say one. heheheheh :P :P)

from 2/3/2001:

"Before music lesson, ___ and ____ said that I could join their 'Disney Girls' group. I was amazed because last time when I said I wanted to join their group they said there already too many people in their group. I was delighted too because I always wanted to join their club and it really came true."

- damn funny pls. when we are small our dreams come true when we join disney girls club. later on me and my friends created very cool happening and exclusive powerpuff girls/x-men/huanzhugege clubs too.

from 4/3/2001:

"I woke up early to do my abacus homework because I had not done it yet. When Mummy told Lynn and I to hang the clothes, we went the balcony but all of a sudden I felt..... NATURE'S CALL! I quickly ran to the bathroom and Phew.

After that, I went to the studyroom and told Daddy something. Then, when i went to the balcony, Lynn argued with me and said this and that.

(Lynn - my big sister)"

- I BET YOU DIDNT KNOW WHAT NATURES CALL WAS WHEN YOU WERE NINE. hahahha oh my goodness i dunno why i was journalling about shitting but i think i just learnt that word then i like needed to use it. to show off that i know cheem idioms.

from 7/3/2001:

"Then, it was Maths Lesson. Mrs De Silva did something funny again. I burst into laughter till my saliva nearly dripped."

- OMGOGM I AM HILARIOUS HSHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

from 9/3/2001:

"Today at school, Er... Er.. Oh! Ya! It was the last day of school. I mean school holidays. For one week. Al of us had to sit under the hot sun. My perspire dripped until it touched my uniform. I drank lots of water until i was bloted up. I burped several times."

- I TALK ABOUT SHITTING/BURPING WHY AM I SO DISGUSTING

from 11/3/2001:

"I went to church today. _____ was there too. He was being unreasonable. you won't be able to understand even if I explain it."

- hahahahha this is only funny cos i know who that is.

from 13/3/2001

"Today i went downstairs to buy something like a lollipop but it doesnt matter because it still tasted delicious.

(...skipskip...)

Today, Lynn and I went my cousin's house. No. Sorry. My cousin came to our house."

- HAHAHAHHAHA i am so stupid.

ok i think that's enough laughing to myself for the day gna do art now BYE.

ps i think i still cannot beat vivien's pri 6 diary.

owns the whole world.

and i'll make us our own BP journal any day even if everyone leaves you out k vivi!! ;P ;P HHAHAHAH

2010-07-02T22:22:00.010+08:00

actually rightttttttttttt.

i also dunno why i am acting like A levels is over or smth.

ahha this is bad. MATH FOR THE NEXT 3 DAYS HARDCOREEE (Y)

but still, it was quite shiok being on my guitar since i got back. except dinner.

anw right, i was boiling water in the kitchen just now then i walked past the toaster and it stunk like hell so i looked in,

........and i SAW A SLICE OF PIZZA INSIDE!!!!!

my mum put there like abt 5 days ago i think? and forgot! D;

anw i ran and asked my awesome fearless dad to clear it. :P hHAHHAHA

i think it became alive in there, lucky it's a super old toaster and the window in front is tinted so i didnt see it in like its full rotting clarity.

i dunno if i told you before about how my mum grilled chicken in the oven before, like it's not the toaster it's different.

then she left the bits of chicken at the bottom and after one week cos we didnt use the oven it stunk like hell and i looked inside (the window for this one is transparent) and i saw like grey rotting stuff,

and then i stared closer AND IT WAS MOVINGGGGG HAHAHAHAHHAAH OMG YUCKS RIGHT!!!!!

but yeah i screamed and then my parents went to clear it.

maggots by the way.

grossest thing ever.

i am not scared of like gross non-living things eg hair and dirt i will clean.

but omg if it's alive, cannot.

but actually technically it was dead, like the living maggots were only there because of the decay of the dead thing so yeah this is quite disputable actually.

grey area (literally).

and like it's secretly quite deep,

how it's "alive and dead at the same time".

anw i was happy when i got home so i was playing deciphering me.

(link = it's a happy song. and i like. and brooke fraser is the best.)

then since i was very free (not anymore omg from tmr onwards it's in-a-cave-with-maths) i sat and decided to think, over dinner, about stuff i dunno about myself.

and i figured out some pretty cool stuff i was previously oblivious to. not a lot cos i think i know myself quite well. Or do i. >: )

1) i dont like people talking to me about me.

maybe cos i am interested in people but i think if you start a conversation with me and all you ask me is about me, i will not be very flattered but i will think you are a very boring person.

like, why you got no stories to tell me?!????? D;

i like stories!!

like ask me 2 qsns enough then TELL me something! :)

2) i am proud of being a DCO. opposite of ocd.

credits to valerie loh for coming up with the word.

haha but cos i thought i am just naturally messy, but i am thinking about it, and i think i actually LIKE it. i like my messy table.

eh yknow my sis take psych then she says that people with contrasting mental illnesses generally marry each other.

i should just marry some ocd kid and it's like marying a maid my life settled.

3) i dunno i think there's something wrong with me.

but it's ok lah i guess, cos jesus loves me anyway.

and so do a whole bunch of people who have something wrong with them too HAHAHHAAHHA ok just kidding i love you all but you know as they say, birds of a feather... :P

anyway PECAE OUT YOZ.

im off to elope with maths for 3 days.

and i'm not coming back here till exams end.

goodbye beautiful people eat your vitamins and stay beautiful and dont do qsns on the day of your paper cos it makes you scared for nothing!!

and makes you feel stupid for nothing!

but you are not ok BYE.

2010-06-28T23:30:00.003+08:00

1 down, 8743287460238764 to go.

why does this seem to move so slowly?!?

ps. dont underestimate the joys a fish can bring, however tiny it may be.

2010-06-22T12:39:00.002+08:00

dont break hearts,

and try to shake hands.

let's say nice things to each other ;)

2010-06-19T10:49:00.003+08:00

bummerz. i miss people.

2010-06-15T23:26:00.003+08:00

God really spoke to me like, just.

but it's a secret, so i cannot just tell you like that XD

but i can tell you about the part where i suddenly realised, in the midst of qt, that i totally miss my ahgong.

i remember how he used to hang out with me a lot cos my sis had primary school but i came home v early after kindergarten.

like he'll teach me weird hokkien songs like there was one about a bang4, like mosquito.

damn cute one then like i sing to my relatives and they all laugh at me (but i had some decent applause too k i think ahahha).

and he'll take the top/bottom of the loaf of the bread everytime (cos my mum'll throw them away anw), and let me throw it down 10 storeys from the window, and then we'll watch as the birds eat it.

so cool pls, i think killer litter was invented about like a few years after that so we cannot do it now, people will complain.

and then he always had some rattan fan which he'd rather use than the electric one.

and when we go out he'll wear some v cute tomhat.

HAHA and he always bought youtiao + kopi-o from the market back home, and my ahma will scold him cos it's damn unhealthy (socute pls).

and there was once i wanted to try so he let me, and i was about 6.

then my ahma scolded him again he let me drink coffee at the age of 6 hahahahaha.

and he got like foc massages from me cos he'll lie on his back and make me run around on his back. cant believe i rmbed that.

and he will go out with my ahma and they will buy pyjamas for meeeeeee.

he was the first person i'd ever lost.

i cried like mad, and i was just 8. and i never knew what dying was cos i hadnt lived for very long anyway.

but basically i learnt that the death of someone was never seeing him forever.

which is a pretty damn long time, if you think about it.

i dunno why i suddenly thought of all that, but then i started crying, cos,

i didnt know if he's in heaven or not.

and chances are, he's not. :(

i dont really know about my plans for the future right now, (haha actually it's quite screwed just talked to jasper about it)

but i do know i wanna be part of allowing a kid grow up knowing their dead granddad's spending eternity with God.

2010-06-15T23:20:00.002+08:00

omg, stop spamming my tagboard!!

2010-06-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

proverbs 27:9.

i think every friendship is special. :)

why ruin it?

2010-06-08T16:53:00.004+08:00

i like making people smile.

i think i did that a lot the past few weeks so, yay happy ;P

HAHA.

i think,

if there's something i wanna be when i grow up, it's to have joy.

and if there's something i wanna do when i grow up, it's to love like Jesus loves me.

it's day 2 of going back to school to do art and i alr wanna start on my final NOWW! D:

i went pixar and it was amaaazing i am so inspired plz haha.

anyway.

i havent really said anything about my life since about forever, so i think i should.

hha. so failsauce.

holidays started awesome srsly i didnt study at all for about, the first 5 days. :P:P:PPPP

there was like,

leaders retreat, k mah's 18th, and then a lot of sleep, then going cor for service with rachel ong and meeting many wonderful people i missed since life con HAHA.

yay i cant wait for jem's wedding!! ;D

then baking with cheong and natnat!!

and then chomp with them + shau and marcus. AND YAY TO UNRUINED BIRTHDAY SURPRISES X) X) X) HAHAHHA.

SOFUN.

and apparently the coolest part of my house is the staircase outside:( but i think so too actually hahahah.

last fri, i bought new specs with sneow!

yay to non-metal specs that will not have paint scraped off when dropped on the floor (my specs drop count is 893457385) or growing algae when i accidentally touch water!!!! 8))))))))

and i would like to say thank you to nathanael ps for buying me spizza dinner, and kenneth mah for buying me sakae.

you guys rock my sockz. XD

and i just rmbed kelvin also finally brought me to crawford lane ba chor mee.

with chris and jotham. had lunch at 11am to beast the queue but totally worth it.

i have been eating a lot of damn good food lately heheh. X)

but so yes you see i swear i didnt didnt blog cos my life was boring or what, but rather that it was overly interesting. B) B) B) hahahahaha

but for now, i think i am probably boycotting my computer till school starts.

and do nothing everyday but study and draw and eat sleep breathe fart shit.

so yup full force nerd to the emtremez 2000 for the next 3 weeks is me.

study hard too ohkays all you beautiful people bye :D

2010-05-27T15:57:00.002+08:00

something's not righttttt!! =/

but then again i guess for all the things i know for sure,

You're the only certain one.

2010-05-15T22:40:00.003+08:00

Your love is surprising, i can feel it rising

all that joy that's growing deep inside of me :D

once again, He's seen me through rapture, and i've grown so much from this all and met amazing people, even though it's been so tough and tiring the past few months.

thanks everyone who came, and everyone who gave me cards and flowers HAHA it was really sweet i know i msg alr but yah. wahah loves.

anw not gonna say much because i've got studies to catch up on, but i just feel really blessed, cos i know He was with me the 56455 times i cried, and the 439058 times i felt damn tired in school, the 90349 times i fell sick, and the 4548 times i didnt understand math HHA.

and even when i just quickly read through a devotion and go to bed cos i'm too tired, or fall asleep while praying before bed hahaa vera was saying how her cell leader said sometimes we so tired we start a prayer at night, fall asleep halfway,

and then we wake up in the morning

and say amen.

HAHA. but yes i'm gonna miss dance, but for now it's gonna be a brand new start:

hardcore the books(including the sketchbookkkkk)

yay excited.

and today was great cos i woke up at lunch time and spent a whole hour doing quiet time, actually like proper qt journalling like since 27 april, according to my previous page.

and quite apt it was, cos i journal all my nonsense to God in there i had like 2 pages left, so i wrote a really long letter to God, so very nicely i began i began a brand new phase of life on a brand new page (new journal that is, rachel ong it's the one you gave me k be honoured HAHA and it's the first time i saw the note you wrote on the inside of the cover!)

it said "to capture those God inspired ideas"

haha, so makes me wanna fill up the pages.

and so yay! to a good start to this new race to A levels :)

let's do this friends!! X)

2010-04-28T20:53:00.004+08:00

is it a really that much of crime to just simply change your mind?

2010-04-17T20:27:00.005+08:00

thanks everyone who tried to make me feel better haha you know who you are i love you X)

i opened my eyes, and it was all the same.
this world.
and it's not still moving along so i need to hurry and catch up and ask them to 'wait for me!!!' hahaha harvinnnn. ;)

i cant make the world spin backward,
or make the sun rise slower.
but that's the God part, and He's showing me He's faithful, and He never changes.

but i can choose.
to have faith or not.
and that's the human part.
it's a bit more difficult, even though it makes so much sense, but how about i am going to show i can.

did i make the earth or the sun or every star in the sky?
if not then why should i say the sun's not gonna rise tomorrow, if it has been, since the beginning of time?

i have been so ridiculous, and the sun is totally gonna rise tomorrow friends. ;D

2010-04-17T17:21:00.005+08:00

where's your treasure, where's your hope, if you get the world and lose your soul?

i know You can't stop the rain.

ok maybe You can and will sometimes but if it happens everytime, i'm gonna take You for granted. and i dont want that either.

he's been telling me a lot of stupid things, and it's damn irritating cos i want my best to guard my heart, and it's difficult shutting it all off.

i dont want him to ask me, if i were to say that i give my You the glory, does that mean Your glory worth a pathetic C?

i dont want him to tell me that i shouldnt have come here.

i dont want him to make me angry at my principal. (but after what i heard, i'm srsly disappointed and i've like lost all respect for her. sue me for this, wtv. freakin no integrity.)

i dont want him to tell me that effort is useless, and if i put my best effort like say into art, and totally expect an A, i will still end up with a C and there's no more point in effort.

i dont want him to ask me how come You can make others succeed but not me?

i dont want him to tell me that fell in the rain, all alone without an umbrella, without a jacket, without anyone.

in jesus name, make him go away?

because i know You are holding me through the storm.

and it hurts You as much, to see me sad.

and You can see every tear even though they fade behind the raindrops.

and because You are holding me, i think,

i should start walking.

like pick myself up, even though i've fallen down in the stupid rain, and

just

continue

walking.

cos as long as i move, i'll have a chance of reaching shelter.

You dont want me to stay on the ground and feel sorry for myself, thinking i didnt deserve this.

because that way, there is ZERO chance i'll get out of the rain.

whether i ever reach shelter or not, whether you stop the rain before i get out of it, however long i end up walking in the rain, more importantly, You just want me to get up and start walking right?

His hand is there nette please take it,

get up,

and

start

walking.

He'll be there by your side.

2010-04-13T19:59:00.002+08:00

i wish i was a giraffe.

apart from the fact that i have always felt they are super cute,

i just found out today that giraffes sleep an avg of 1.9 hours a day.

usually 10mins-2hrs within a 24-hour period.

and because sleep is such a waste of time.......

omg, if i was a giraffe, i probably wouldve finished jc by the time i was like 5 yrs old pls.

cos of all the extra time.

and i wont ever embarrassingly fall asleep in art theory class!! D:

hahaahhaa.

but then i guess,

it's not about whether i need a lot of sleep or really little sleep.

what matters is that i have a God who neverrrr sleeps.

and He's there watching over me day and night. X)

"He will not let you stumble; the One who watches over you will not slumber."

- Psalm 121:3

so yes everybody.

gna spam art now.

psalm 121:1-2.

LET'S DO THIS THINGGG!!!

2010-04-10T19:51:00.006+08:00

littering my shore.

i guess all we want, is to be happy.

and to have the strength to live out everyday to the maximummmm.

and to radiate sunflowers and rainbows and glitter.

i dunno if my metaphors are like apt enough cos sunflowers and rainbows fade away, but glitter doesnt stop shining right???

aiya dont care, i am keeping it there, i like glitter. :P

ok actually i dont think i like glitter that much, but i like like, the WORD glitter.

it sounds very very pretty.

whoever came up with that word is a genius. (Y)

it has to be coined right, cos i dont think think there was glitter when God first created stuff.

but YAH ANYWAYY, let's say it does.

but you know what, i believe on days when we lose our sparkle, we can still pick ourselves up, if we start with a smile.

cos smiling releases endorphins, i am not bluffing you go and check internet!

so yah we dont have to be happy to smile, we can smile to be happy :D

and a prayer.

quite straightforward i guess, the power of prayer's often underestimated.

and i guess we all need inner strength, and there's no other source of it. X)

and like, some love.

and cos joy's all about giving love, not about receiving it.

instead of waiting for someone to make you smile, go make someone smile and i am pretty sure you get a smile too.

so yah.

smile, pray, love.

tadah instant recipe for hope for the day. XD

everyday's a spiritual battle..

and I decide who wins.

2010-04-04T07:20:00.003+08:00

it's like 7am or smth now. haha.

i accidentally fell asleep ard 8pm yesterday, woke up super early.

anyway it's been such a long time now!!!

looking back, the past 40 days have been a fight, a maze, a test...

BUT it's was also a victory, and an experience of His faithfulness to me, because of a 101% surrender. :)

so many things, he put in place.

little things/ big things that i felt were impossible the next day, he made possible.

only because i let tomorrow worry for itself.

if God can put the stars in place in the sky,

he can put my life in place.

and whatever i have, i know He's given me, and all that i've given Him, i'm only giving back.

life concert was about Jesus.

so's good friday and easter. :)

i am sooo gonna miss the entire band tooooo D:

and everyone who's made the journey amazing for me srsly hahhahahah we never fail to have fun in the midst of the work.

i'm so proud of all you guys i cant believe we made it through!! X)

but i guess it was all with strength from our Father whom with we have pleased :)

Neh 8:10 "...for the joy of the Lord is your strength."

and no i think i cannot fully describe how amazing it's all been, what i've said so far like, totally doesnt do my God enough justice man!! ahahaha.

but i guess i could go on forever also, and you wont be able to fully understand it also cos it's not you.

so i shall just keep it an awesome secret between me and Him.

oh btw, if you think you've secrets no one knows, He does.

and if you think no one understands, He does, ;)

but yeah, life concert was like whoa until cannot already i think.

i was a bit doubtful and scared of alter call, but He's really proved to us how powerful He is.

I've a God who can move mountains, and a God who can move hearts.

i dont think they decided to believe cos of our work, but because of God's work in us.

and i dont think they saw God cos they saw us, but because they saw God in us.

and yay cos so many people told me how the presence of God was so strong i know He was there, winning hearts over and nehnehnipoopoo-ing the devil.

HAHA i got no other word, i would feel like that.

but anw!

let's all pray for everyone who gave their lives to jesus during extended chapel and life concert. they're in for good stuff haha.

so yeah it's been an awesome easter week and yay for easter service later, i didnt go church last week cos of full-dress rehearsal. haha.

oh and i dunno how i got through BTs but i did, so whatever grades i'm just gonna be thankful cos i worked my butt off.

but for now!

it's back to the books, the art room, and the studio.

i'm gonna do my best at all i'm doing. :)

so, i probably wont be here for a long time again hahaha see you allllzzzzz! X)

2010-02-20T08:49:00.005+08:00

"One thing i have desired of the Lord,

That i will seek:

That i may dwell in the house of the Lord

All the days of my life,

to behold the beauty of the Lord,

and to inquire in His temple.

For in the time of trouble

He shall hide me in His pavillion;

In the secret place of His tabernacle

He shall hide me;

He shall set me high upon a rock."

- Psalm 27:14. ;)

haha first time in dunno how many ages since i've last blogged huh.

probably gonna be the last in dunno how many ages till i blog again also haha.

cos school's starting to get mad.

and also cos monday is first day of easter week/life con 40 days prayer and fast!

i'm fasting msn/fb/blogger so hahhha not rly gonna touch my comp for 40 days baby.

so anyway!

i'll try to recall like the past 2 weeks or smth.

went by really fast super tiring.

oh on the tues before cny the art people we went to rj and hci to look at their A level stuff it was AMAZINGGG omg!!!

like the really good ones.

quite motivated i wanna be amazing too haha.

met joanne and val at rj yay! X)

VALERIE LOHH I MISS YOU AND TIFF CAN WE PLS MEET SOON MUST PASS YALL YOUR SUPER BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENTS ALSO WHY WE ALL SO BUSY :( :(

i miss many people like my entire 4P, cos caroline just uploaded on fb some retarded photos from sec4 and i totally started to miss the old stupid days of dumbness.

i miss rach too she's off in cebu in some prison now HAHA.

many people lah actually sigh =/

but anw basically that week it was kinda just mad cny performance rehearsing but it was really really fun and the performance turned out awesome so yay! :D

i prayed a lot the week and yay to God for helping me out :)

had lunch with larissa yay then i think i went home and ko hahaha.

AND. i learnt that hairspray totally doesnt work on my hair cos it's too heavy and thick and soft hahaha but yeah then i had cui hair into the next day man.

..WHICH WAS BADMINTON! XD

with che'rie, shaunald, nat and marcus.

bad hair day but the fun outweigh so overall good day hahahahah i love you guys.

then the wholeeeeee cny of going to a million houses and everything hahahaha tiring but fun but i had completely no time to do my hw.

which explained staying up the past few days from tues night onwards.

like wed got cca, thurs got tuition, all come back to late sigh.

i'm so glad i've this weekend after that pretty short week otherwise i'll just die.

gonna study already!! bt in like 2 weeks manz.

haha oh later me vivien and jasper gonna visit ms chan haha!

edit:

omg i realised i need to write this so i can remember!

totally slipped my mind.

cos last thurs, cny full dress rehearsal was supposed to end damn late, and if that happened i wouldnt be able to go for tuition, which means i would have to go sat class, which means i wont be able to play badminton!!

and i only realised on wed and i felt super shit like everything's ruined cos it was 90% chance cannot go.

but i prayed then thu morning i felt this peace like i wasnt worried at all strangely!!

so i thought like ok God i'm sure this peace is from You so i'll just put the day in your hands, can make it for tuition or not up to you.

and in the end rehearsal ended at 7 omg even the teacher say it's the earliest full dress ever ended its always 9!

so yeah so cool. God can make miracles happen isnt he amazing! ;)

anw ms chan's house was awesome just now haha and she baked banana bread for us!!

and she has the best food and and best weird but super yum cookies like champagne grape cookies, jap potato cookies that were purple and osmanthus lotus seed cookies HAHAHA she is so cool. her husband also.

the circle thing to walk through lol.

BUT ANYWAYZSZZ.

SEE YOU ALL IN 40 DAYS KIDS!!

2010-02-07T01:37:00.005+08:00

be Thou my vision oh Lord of my heart

naught be all else to be save that Thou art

Thou my best thought by day or by night

Waking or sleeping thy presence my light.

i guess sometimes worship alone is the best cos i know for sure He hears me.

it's difficult but i'm just gonna keep my focus on you and you're gonna give me the strength.

i freaking dunno what i'm doing anymore everyday's a blur but i guess that's why i need to find my peace and joy in you, over and over, day by day.

cos regret looks back, worry looks around, but faith looks up.

i wanna look up and live for you and not for myself, not for my circumstances.

i wanna smile everyday, i wanna live my life so full everyday because i dont invest in the day itself but in what lasts forever.

ps,

thanks, for this week, thank you so much.

damn long year still to come and i dunno why i'm feeling scared.

buttt,

i'm good enough cos you say so and i believe you, every word you say, i'm gonna believe it for life. ok? i promise you, i wont ever let you go i love you.

2010-02-02T18:17:00.004+08:00

thank you cheezels.

you have once again not let me down i am feeling better now.

ok this just made me think of that day i was down cos everyone was being down then i was on my way home and i decided to buy myself a kinderjoy to cheer myself up, but i bought it and when i ate it IT WAS FREAKIN LAOHONG!!! D: D:

so i v sad, like total fail self-cheer up. plus i also wanted to buy a mogu but the mama shop didnt have zzzz.

but if im not wrong i a bit happy from opening the surprise toy so, good enough lah i guess. super cheap thrill right, omg.

anw its been tiring,

i lazy to categorise,

i foresee tangent jumping.

forgiving is tough, but ive realised theres degrees of difficulty even within itself.

it's hard to forgive your enemy,

but even harder to forgive your friends' enemies,

but the hardest to forgive, is probably yourself.

i am zomgttm addicted to the school's chayedan HAHA jasper ate 6 that day crazy guy hahahha.

i hate showing it if im sad when im around people.

if i tell you, i'll probably share you as a person like, 1 on 1 conversation.

i am so not gonna be a wet blanket i'll brace myself and smile cos i dont believe anyone deserves shit from me just cos im feeling like shit.

cos thats not fair the world doesnt revolve around the person with problems.

even if i share it with you, i'll definitely not vent it on you. it's not right.

i think it sucks most when people start taking you for granted.

or when they start doubting your intentions.

i dont know if i've been trying to lie to myself this whole time but i dno i think all i've been doing is probably just praying that this is still like it used to be, but im not sure now i dunno why it just isnt, on so many levels.

and it's like im trying and you're not.

but who am i to say that anw right wtv i'm just gonna continue praying i'm not giving up.

sigh it's been a crazy january, and it's only the first month of the year. =/

to see the strongest person youve ever known (or so you thought) cry for the first time since you've known her 7 years ago and feeling like she's weaker than you when you'd always looked up to her valor.

it hurts and it's scary, and i was so close to crying with you that day but i told myself cannotttt, because i really wanted to be, for once, what you'd always been for me.

and the least i could do was not cry.

but i'm really glad i prayed with you, because i know that He'll never be too weak ever, even if i do or you do.

then you see the happiest most fun loving person you know feel down, and it's so scary because that's not right.

to see bad things happen to good people.

and good things happen to bad people.

to see the good people not being able to get out of their bad situation and all you can do is sympathise and say shit which you're not even sure works.

and then people leaving without even say goodbye like, ?!?!?dfsmgdklsf?!??

but ah sigh i'm pretty much done i guess, i really badly need some quiet time right now goodbye. =/

2010-01-26T23:58:00.002+08:00

AUGHHHH I AM SO HAPPYYYYY MERRY CHRISTMAS SHAUNALD NEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XD XD

2010-01-24T19:10:00.003+08:00

when you see the strongest collapse, it hits you all over again that we're all human.

2010-01-23T18:02:00.004+08:00

chem tuition then lunch and studying with sneow which was a total fail doing of carboxylic acids hw.

nvm i'll try again later but theres so much i dunno how to do man so difficult.

so i left it and went to do my coursework idea more properly haha it's looking better now!

but quite ambitious, i hope it turns out nice.

THANK YOU SAMUEL LIM AND STARBUCKS FOR THE INSPIRATION HAHAHAHA.

i'm gna make a model like later heh.

anyway, i stupidly didnt bring my ipod out of the house so it was just me and the sound of

the wheels of the bus

and the engines of the bus

and the noisy korean kid behind me,

the entire way home.

boring ttm.

anw h1 msa was quite cool, i got the back part wrong but wtv means im not so sick in the head.

the force through which the green fuse drives the flower.

i shall go shower or smth. and then try to do work, or wait till after dinner. haha.

2010-01-22T23:29:00.007+08:00

nobody knows how weak i am, better than You.

maybe it's cos i'm sick, i dunno but i'm feeling mad weak.

like inside and out. :(

sdgndkfjnsjv sucks man. like this never happens when im healthy and well.

and i think of the year that's coming at me like a huge wave,

i just have no

energy

to freakin

run

away.

it's like i suddenly feel like i dont have the strength to pull through this year.

literally.

bo lat.

need

to ride

the waves.

start making lemonade.

aughh so much easier said than done srsly, sooo much easier.

and besides i need a surfboard and a juicer first but

i'm emptyhandedd. =/

sigh.

but then again even if you gave them to me i'll probably be too feeble to be able to carry them up haha yuck loserz is me.

but i guess right now, what i really need something called power.

cos i bet superman never feels demoralised, does he?

2010-01-21T13:53:00.005+08:00

just had lunch and did all my chores and yay to getting through the half week that has gone by ever so freakin sloooooowwwwwwlyyyyyyy. >:/

haha on the bright side, i have 2 days mc!

lawlll.

equals today plus tmr,

equals tmr is friday,

equals long weekend,

equals AS GOOD AS MY WEEK HAS ENDED!!!! :P :P :P HAHAHAHAH

but ok no lah still going tmr cos there's h1 msa.

BUT YESS cos i only left lit msa which is like, no need to study cos it's unseen.

i thank God for getting me through the week with the stupid tests.

cos on monday i woke up feeling like some old woman. got ready everything and i just sat on my sofa and i couldnt move the fever make you weak kind.

super sucked.

but i really really wanted to do my papers well so i prayed and prayedd for strength all the way to school and through first period,

and by gp msa 2nd period i got the paper and i was better!!

and i could do chem msa alrightly also.

felt super miracle.

God really works in amazing ways.

haha then i got sicker the next few days but still went to school cos yesterday got art and math msa.

again they were also ok so yeah. i think back on how i tanked the past 3 days sick, could only be strength that wasnt mine srsly.

but anw last night i dreamt that i got back chem msa.

and i got 11/CO2,

as in carbon dioxide.

then i asked my friend WHAT IS THIS??

and she said 'oh you must count the Mr of CO2 then thats how much the test is upon.'

so i calculated and i was like 'OMGZSTJGBKHJGUY WHAT THE HECK I GOT 11/44 FOR CHEM MSA THATS DAMN BAD!!!' then i :( :( :( :( :( ttmmmmm but then i woke up and realised it was a dream so heng.

v scary please.

so blessed, i cant contain it.

so much, i gotta give it away.

Your love has taught me to live now.

You are more than enough for me.

we sang that during morning worship on tues, and really rmbed that part cos i felt God with me when i sang that. :)

anddd, i think im gonna sleep now so goodbye everybody stay in school.

2010-01-17T22:56:00.005+08:00

im almost done with chem revision like reading tutorials and stuff now but my brain is dead and i think i'm gna wake up with a fever tmr which i so better not i will like box my brain but srsly man i feel like my brain's eroding with time and the more i try to be alive its getting smaller and smaller it's damn compressed now like vacuumed hamster bedding what if i forget everything tmr gahhhhh God help me.

2010-01-16T20:02:00.005+08:00

self denial.

i thinkkkkk,

the worst person you could ever lie to

is yourself.

cos,

*you will know!!!!

i mean you wont even have to like 'find out later' or whatever you know,

you will just flat out KNOWWWW.

but then you will still try to believe your own lie,

but when that happens, [refer back to] *

so yah a stupid cycle repeats.

so as much as you try to believe yourself,

you still faillll and you try and tell yourself you pass but, FAILLLL AUGH BUT IT'S STUPID OMG I'M STUPID THIS IS STUPID BYE.

2010-01-15T23:37:00.002+08:00

this is the day the Lord has made, i will rejoice and be glad in it.

2010-01-10T22:53:00.003+08:00

i was sincerely gonna do my math notes i promise but then i felt kinda uneasy i dunno whyyy so i came here, after this i'll go do qt then sleep.

dont think i'll be coming back here for a while anw, at least till msa1's over.

ok i shall just :D myself a bit first talk about the past 2 days first really quick, then go back to whats on my mind now.

yesterday i met ravin for prata breakfast yay!

HAHA like damn early 815am cos she was going sp open house her uncle fetching her and ruby, cant be late.

hehe you'll be fine dear, omg i'm so excited for everyone getting results tmr srsly hehe you're all gna be in my prayers!

anw it was a good morning i am lazy to write the long story but it's one of those days where you just feel like you dont have the strength to do smth but you do it anw cos God told you to, and it turns out perfect and you know you couldnt have done it on your own.

you know?

but yeappp X) i love God very much.

and then i went home and got all my gym stuff and shower stuff + shoebag + winter clothes char lent me + che'rie and char's xmas presents.

(so as you can see i was carrying so many million things i cannot carry shaunald natnat and marcus' presents. >this is very crucial information and you will see why later in the story)

then i met the 2 awesome girls and we went to the gym hahaha, and then subway and talked till it was really really late AND OMG I BOUGHT EARPHONES WHICH SUCK DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT WHY AM I TALKING ABOUT IT NOW.

haha but anw we so didnt have enough time to talk finish we are going again soonnn ____ ___ suck ttc!!!!! HAHAHAHHA love you guys.

yah then because i really really planned on going to somerset from bishan but how i know right when i left my house, that i really got no hands when im holding the million and one things.

HAHA then i gekiang thought can go home put down my rubbish, then take presents and go out again but i ended up maddd late HAAHHA BY LIKE, AN HR AND A HALF.

but it so wasnt my fault you see you guys couldve gone without presents man but i made sure i went and got them. :P :P

but yay to rooftops and i had an awesome time love you guys! ;D

AND 25TH MAY IS THE DAY I KILLED MY CACTUS COS I PUT IT IN THE FRIDGEEE HAHAHAHHAHA.

andddddd,

today.

haha i had lunch with charlene after soo long so yay! X)

anw.

back to my completely different tangent now.

you know sometimes i feel like i can discern, then at other times i just feel like i just dont freaking know what is right, and what is wrong.

how come if i've to make a decision which doesnt obviously spell out right or wrong, it just ends up to be secretly one that is?

like it's out to get me what the heck. i didnt ask to do something that's not politically correct, i got asked to.

but whatever i'm just gonna go with what i believe matters more, and i'm really not gonna choose something because im obligated i just dont wanna be fake you know.

i think it's probably quite sad but, it's not like i caused it.

and i'll choose quality over quantity any day.

whatever i bet no one in this world's getting this, but i jsut really needed to spill that out into words.

tomorrow is the first day of school.

i wanna go but i'm kinda scared but i'm kinda excited but i kinda feel like i wanna die.

strength strength you can do this nette :D

deep breath big smile

and know He's there holding your hand.

2010-01-08T22:51:00.006+08:00

i am

tired

now.

:( :( :( :(

but i dunno why i decided to come here well im here so might as well talk.

i had a good week overall so i guess the tiredness now is quite worth it heh :)

last sunday after lunch i went to buy crocs with roys lionel and sam, then lionel left and the 3 of us went to k mah's, hahaha and i was happy cos my persuading powers PASSSS sneow didnt buy the rubber crocs, ugly x10 000 HAHAHHA andand, I MADE YOU GUYS BUY THE MUSHROOM HAHAHAH TOLD YOU IT WAS NICE! X)

but they cheat us didnt tell us no more chilli powder :(

but i had fun cos i hadnt talked to royston in sooo long!!!

FREE TEH SI BING HAHA THANKS ROYS.

then on monday reuben and i went to study.

sorry for being 45848 years lateeeeeeee hahaha.

then we went to sam cos i wanted to see the last floor of tactile, and some guy at the counter attitude me but haha oh well i dont care anymore.

anw they closed the last floor cos they were taking it down i was damnmnm sad D: D:, but thanks for following me anw friend! ;D

and WHOOHOOOOOO i finished my entire physical chem revision that day which was YAY so i was a very happy girl. XD

i just realised in my last post i forgot to mention the gym with poh and sneow HAHAHAHA cant believe i missed it out it was hilarious shit.

sneow:*after 10 mins of gyming* EH EH ANNETTE! I THINK MY MUSCLES REALLY GREW BIGGER LEH!

hahahahhahhaha cannot tank samuel you are the most shameless person i know.

then on tues the 3 of us plus aaron and isaac, went to tpy stadium to run, then dinner!

chomp chomp x10 lawllll.

AND OMGZ GUYS I JUST REALISED I PAID $1.50 TO EAT 3 FAMOUS AMOS COOKIES, 2 OF WHICH WERENT EVEN MY FLAVOUR!!! >: /

nice one, me.

but it was fun lepaking and watching video ;) hhahahah.

(HAHA I JUST READ MY PHONE, LAUGHSS. BD

too tired to reply now, but that's what tomorrows are for heh.)

wed i had lunch with larissa and the mentors!

yay hadnt seen them in so long. not all of them but, hha yay. X)

thanks the auntie from the church who treated us! X) HAHA.

then i went jedi's house to study then dinner at j8.

the rebonded hair poodle. ;)

thurs and today had tuitionnnnnn. D:

explains my tiredness i guess.

but i think the one reason why im so tired is dance like the entire week.

so tuition on top of that yesterday and today just made it worse.

but i really really thank You God for getting me through this entire week and telling me i'm strong even when my body tells me i need to die.

and im so thankful that ive actually had fun, even in dance and studying. :)

i'm gonna sleep now i've to wake up really really early tmr!

2010-01-05T16:56:00.002+08:00

but in your life you'll do things greater than dating the boy on the football team.

i dunno if you even read my blog but you did the right thing hon i'm proud of you. ;)

all the best for lue ps i miss you very much. :'(

2010-01-03T21:52:00.003+08:00

last night i dreamt

i had a spitz.

if you dunno what's that it's

a breed of dog.

it was really handsome and it was cream coloured.

and then after i played with it a while,

i went off to japan.

with some weird angmoh people i've never met in my life.

we all sat in some kitchen and put on scuba-diving suits then we boarded the plane in them.

the end.

2010-01-02T23:49:00.004+08:00

i think,

they should invent a new punctuation for like a question mark cum exclamation mark.

you know when you wanna ask someone one of those question/exclamations,

you know, questions but in an excited way.

but if you use a question mark it sounds too cui,

and if you use an exclamation mark it makes it not sound like a question anymore

and if you use both ?! it makes it sound super WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM.

if you still dont get me, EXAMPLE:

you going later?

you going later!

you going later?!

all failllllll, yknow? =/

oh well i am writing a lot of rubbish i am going to sleep now.

2010-01-01T14:07:00.009+08:00

the last days of my year have been a mega blur, but it ended awesomely so :)

haha on christmas after service we went to watch sherlock holmes OMGSDBFCJHBSC it's one of those idiot shows that end abruptly so they'll be sherlock holmes 2 and you will go and watch it and make them richer how idiot is that superrr.

but it was fun haha.

i was sick though then i couldnt eat all my cookies/ chocolates :( :( but it's the thought that counts, im so sorry i couldnt eat them guys!

then i wasnt allowed to go party had to rest.

but i went home to spend xmas with jesus so i wasnt so sad in the end. ;)

26th was fun!! HAHAHAH

AWIMOWEHHHHHHHH LAWL LAWL I LOVE YOU SNEOW HAHAHAHHAA.

samuel heather and i had an awesome time at our parents' cell xmas party hahaha. <3

the massage chair, pool with heather with every ball still on the table 10 mins into the game, and the guy flirting hahha omgomg damn funny. ;)

after church it was cell lunch at manhattan then starbucks with ravin! X)

monday was dance after a million gazaillion years and then i had lunch with lar and we went to buy foot thongs. damn ex feel so broke nowww D:

but hehe i love talking with you larissa!!!

on wed it was math tuition at jedi's I MISSED THE GIRL hahahah i laughed at the gummy snails for at least like one minute i swear hahahahha.

and then i went to ingrid's for post misison trip gathering!

i almost died cos i soo didnt wanna get wet i told everyone already that i didnt bring extra clothes then i hold my phone and my food forever as immunity objects but still,

faillllll.

omg but boat around the estate = <3!!!

and it was nice hanging with everyone again, all the rubbish kids and laughing with them haha.

jared and the mayo ice cream lawlll.

then thurs chem tuition with sam.

after it was over we both went to cine to meet k mah, nat and joel yu.

haha it was filling fast so we bought avatar tickets to the 615 show, and we had lunch then off to k mah's house to play first!!

YES I>YOU JOEL. sorry i accidentally knock you at the end of the bubble game. o_O

then the jaywalking HAHAHHAHAHA I LOVE YOU ALLLL ;)

AND AVATAR WAS AWESOME!!! :D

watchnight was great too except the countdown was a bit weird =/ but HAHA wtv.

it was a great great last day of the year so yay! :)

and feli came back!!!!! XD

but anywayy it's the start of the new year

so here i go againnnnnnnnnn,

.. but better. ;)

2009-12-30T02:10:00.003+08:00

"haha annette why do your clouds have tails?"

questionable questions.

i dont know sometimes but You never dont know.

but then again i'm dust and You're everlasting.

no one can measure the depths of His understanding.

a little boy who opened his arms to receive a hug,

maybe one day when he gets older

he'll open his heart to receive Jesus Christ. :)

many things we'll never know.

many things we can pray about.

a little girl who made sure she kept her promise to me.

running, it's so synonymised with urgency.

i dunno what you're rushing about but check its worth again cos if you win the rat race, you're still gonna be a rat.

just like the rat that decided to towards something better than the finishing line.

i'm sure the latter secretly won.

the piece of paper she gave me,

it's a little crumpled and not pasted down perfectly, kiamchye in a lot of ways haha, but

it moved me on the inside.

she ran for the prize that cant be seen.

i wanna do that too.

then the other little girl who was so serious painting, who did everything the right colour, when it was useless cos everyone else did it anyhow.

dramatic irony is always funny.

the kind of heh laughter, you know, when you laugh at what you used to be.

like in kindergarten when i made sure i coloured my pictures correctly and i'd scold my friend cos he coloured people blue.

why do we make ourselves miserable over other people's flaws, cos really, that's not how He sees me.

He see my imperfections but He doesnt focus on them.

He just enjoys me for who i am, living in His love, having fun in His love.

let's not take the fun out of doing what we love, i bet He loves the blue people and the rainbow-coloured mountain caps.

the fireworks!!! :D

set off 10m away from us.

outburst of fake stars.

many want to reach the top,

celebrate life with a bang,

to burn out bright with success

and for a moment they might seem a lot a lot brighter than the stars in the heavens,

but the man who loves his life will lose it,

and just when they think they've got it all, they just disappear into the dark blue sky, never to shine again.

some sparks fight to shine for longer before dying out, but what's the use for lasting that half a second longer really.

i'd rather be a real star that shines forever and ever in the palm of His hand.

i dont want a man-made life.

things to keep, things to touch and go.

i love how i bet you cant understand half of what im writing now. ;)

grinning and bearing it.

smiling and singing.

the last pillow of comfort He brought to me,

they dont have the mental capacity to say anything but i know they'll be saved as long as they're loved.

a lot more i can ask.

a lot more i dont know.

but then again like i said, no one can measure the depths of His understanding.

and if His brain's that big i'm sure so is His heart.

and i saw it right there and then, yearning so desperately for China.

2009-12-30T01:45:00.005+08:00

tuition in 7 hours.

i'm not tired and i'm dead.

think i slept too much today haha.

facebook.

mission trip photos.

the more i look at them i think i really wanna blog about it now.

i know it's at the oddest of times and the wee-est of hours but i'll sleep after this i promise!

haha i'm gonna squeeze everything it into one post. all He's shown me.

it better be beautiful. ;)

2009-12-25T21:03:00.003+08:00

merry christmas guys. :)

2009-12-24T20:18:00.006+08:00

love's not a feeling.

you're lucky i am not that great with getting insanely angry. after she told me i just like came back and i was controlling my tears.

we were watching tv tgt and i was eating dessert halfway, i left to go to the toilet to cry cos i couldnt tank.

it takes me damn a lot to cry, and you just pissed me off that bad.

but then i started to pray and i felt better.

i know God will make things fine.

maybe it's a lesson learnt for her, but why do people always wanna learn the hard way?

i dont want that to ever happen to me, and i think of all the grace He's given me so far and whoa i feel so thankful now, knowing i've a shepherd who truly truly takes care of me no matter what it takes.

i know it wasnt coincidence but divine intervention, confirm.

let's just follow His rod and staff, His Word and love, and dont stray away ok, cos you know you're gonna hurt yourself.

i think if there's one thing you should keep intact even if you break every other bone in your body, it's your heart.

take care of it, dont anyhow give to people pleaseeee. you dont want them to return it to you broken.

and in the same way dont anyhow take random hearts too and break them like lightsticks.

even if you say you wont, make sure you're really ready cos it's not as easy as it looks to hold onto a heart thats more fragile than glass, yet more precious than gold.

cos if it's not gonna belong to you, it's gonna belong to someone else some day.

2009-12-24T13:05:00.002+08:00

omgomg.

i realise that when you're overseas, you take note of the dates not the days.

so you count each passing day by numbers not words, so you'll know when you're returning back.

i woke up this morning super lost to what day it is.

damn weird feeling. took me till now for thursday to sink in.

WHOOHOO MISSION TRIP WAS AWESUMZZ.

i have it journalled in my book i think i am too lazy to transfer here.

no time also.

oh well, sick. but a lot better than when i first fell sick on the 4th day or smth.

my voice is damn sexy now. ;) ;)

went doctor in the morning i really hope i'm alive and :D for tomorrow cos it's christmas!! X)

i really thank God for landing our butts safely in singapore yesterday, and i can look forward to christmas tmr.

so much drama and scares, but i saw God's loving hand over us as the trip progressed, :).

He gave me this verse to keep in mind before i left for the trip, cos i was going genesis qt.

"Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your very great reward." -Genesis 15:1.

He's shown me what that meant during the trip, and im really thankful. it's one of those things the bible tells you that you cant understand till you experience it. :)

i wanna go back there again.

2009-12-15T17:02:00.003+08:00

me + cheezels + juice + blogger = <3

YESS i have slaved the entire day and i have finally finished packing! :)

so i decided to come here and write me a little farewell post. ;D

oh ya i am honestly kinda scared actually about how to rotate my clothes and wtv cos i srsly anyhow throw in clothes.

haha i srsly have no idea how how i planned so nicely last yr omg.

oh well bible says God will clothe me, no need to worryyy. ;)

and i forgot to take the sweater i borrowed from lingxiang zehzeh last year, when i went over her house last week to get the giant fur trenchcoat zz.

it was like my favourite sweater on the europe trip, mummy made we change and wear a different one halfway i refused but she force me so i change heh.

but nvm now i've charmaine's sweater!

it's thinner but its ok.

thanks char!

cant believe i'm going shanghai tmr alr the week passed by so fastttt.

on friday it was off to sentosa with karina, charmaine and shihan! :)

i almost died halfway HAHA omg i love all of you for saving my life and yay that i didnt die.

then we went to the flea at somerset, haha thanks charmaine you're awesome for helping me bargainnnn hahahaha.

and KARINA YU. guess imma miss you all over again now that you're gone, we still make each other laugh like mad everytime we meet, one day im so going over to melbourne manzz.

AUGH AUGH AUFHGHHGHGHHH I FINISH MY CHEEZELS WHAT THE HECK THAT WAS LIKE 5 MINUTES I SWEAR. D:

then at night i went for sample this and i thought it was awesummmmmm! XD

so proud of everyone who did it, and i'm sure He is too. :)

then saturday was budget lunch with shaunald and marcus!

at the vivo hawker centre hahaha, it was really fun and it's ok cos marcus forgives me. ;)

thanks guys for following me to uniqlo and getting stuck in mad heaps of people, and meeting another MZHing woman i think we are fated with them really.. =/

HAHA marcus i bet you were having fun reading all the japanese.

you guys have fun on your carolling in malaysia!! HAHAHAAHHAHA.

then yesterday i went back to school with theresa just to get the lit text LAWL the girl was damn pissed cos it's super waste time, tsk. ;)

the past 2 days = doing all the christmas shopping and packing and stuffs,

yay ive gotten my christmas dress, and all my christmas cards. feel so prepared YAYY :P

i should srsly start writing them now man, got super a lot.

i really need to go use my remaining time in singapore wisely man, gonna end this haha.

charlene was telling me it's gonna be a good time for me to grow and learn, hehe i think so too X)

so excited, it's my first mission trip. cant wait to spend the next 7 days waiting on Him. :)

ok i shall go nowwww

so long farewell auviderzein[omg i dunnno how to spell] goodbye! X)

2009-12-10T12:24:00.007+08:00

LITCHRELLYYYY HAHAHAHA, i think i'm the best surprise victim ever, why am i so dumb?

and naive.
i trust my friends too much but it's a good lohh.
HAHA 2nd time alr, but i srsly didnt expect it ohkay. =/

ok cos yesterday, after going out with heather and the girls to get winter jackets from uncle paul's office [which was fail x10000 but HAHA thanks for orange tea heather love you heh X)], i went to meet charmaine for dinner.

the day before i couldnt decide where to go so she said go to the coffeeshop opposite zhonghua which i thought was kinda weird, but i just decided nvm maybe cos she spasm and wanted to reminisce her secondary school days of eating there so i didnt suspect anything.

then on my way there she said she'll be really late, but i said i had stuff to do anw, so i went there first and bought drink and started writing my chinese testimony for mission trip cos i was half done.

then suddenly i heard "netteee" and i looked up it was char, then someone behind me squeezed my shoulders and i was totally o.O

THEN I TURNED AROUND AND IT WAS KARINA!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHA.
i think everyone stared when i went crazy and screamed.
i think karina laughed most, at my face.
i dont even know what it looked like, but i could feel like was like D=

apparently when i was being super engrossed writing, they had time to like just freakin walk around me stuff and 'nono stand behind her' blah and i didnt even realise. -.-

hahahaha yay then we ate and i bought char a mr greedy cos she'd been looking for one forever and i felt lucky haha.

then we played at the playground. charmaine + the swing = entertainment hahahaha scared of heights.
karina gave me the awesomest present ever, and i've been looking for speakers.
ah, lurveee.
marmite, wear the ugly winter jacket thing to the beach, "she's cute" hahahaa anddd *in a really good australian accent!*LITCHRELLY. X)

i think we all felt like lucky kids, but i kinda knew it was Him up there who was blessing our meeting ttm. :)
hadnt seen the girl in like over a year.
omg yay friday. X)

2009-12-08T23:42:00.005+08:00

sacrifices.

i've realised, if it can be taken away, it's probably not that important. ;)

i've got the good stuff locked up in the safest wallet ever,

and it's called my heart.

2009-12-08T14:59:00.007+08:00

sing like someone's listening.

just had lunch downstairs with zehzeh and sam, i'm (yay) all alone in the house now,

my songs are on,

i'm gonna spend some time here and then go and do my homeworkk hehe.

first i need to talk about the weirdestttt dream i ever had last night it was mad weird i almost died.

but it was really vivid and i hardly get vivid dreams so this is a gem plus i rmb really a lot heh.

yah so somehow there was dance prac, and i dunno why there was even school but there just was ok.

then we were in our dance shirts and tights and we were stretching OUTSIDE the dance studio.

hahahaha i dunno why we never go in.

like the pathetic underground corridor and we were all squished like squids.

then somehow my cedar art people were all in dance, and they were with me.

yes so jedi, chan and cheryl were with me.

i somehow only realised jedi wasnt actually from sa.

and it was all really weird but then somehow we all went to my mama's house.

i asked jedi why she never go her school today.

she said cos she is sick.

i said ohh. (like everything that's happening is damn normal or smth omg)

then we sat on my mama's sofa and i looked ahead and realised her dining room has been converted into a restaurant (!??!?!???) with like many many tables and the room was x10 the size.

maybe this has got to do with me feeling like her food tastes very restauranty everytime i eat.

the tables had napkins on them that looked like spectacle cloths.

some had bowls.

the ceiling was super high like a period drama palace or something.

which is impossible since she lives in a condo 3rd floor.

then jedi's school friends came over to surprise her.

and she was all excited *many screams*

they brought her a cake and present which was weird cos it wasnt even her birthday.

what the heck jedi why do you have friends who go all the way to yishun to a house they dont even know exist to bring you cake and present just cos you were sick for one day and didnt go to school!?!!!!?

then later i had to leave cos larissa msged me to go for practice, like it just started already i needed to be there NOWW.

i panicked like crazy.

then somehow chan and cheryl disappeared, and jedi's not going cos she's sick.

then some weird dude in the house who i dont even know told me i can walk to sa from my mama's house.

i must walk past this back gate thing and like past this giant fountain and everything, and i'll be there alr, very fast.

i said ok and took the lift downstairs and started walking, and the next thing i knew i was lost forever.

i walked around like in a million circles past a million blocks of flats and stuff but i couldnt find the school.

freaking scary D:

WOKE UP.

wanted to immediately get up off my bed and 'continue' walking to school. =/

but yeah that's pretty much it.

haha.

so!

last thurs-sat was mission trip boot camp!

it was really good.

i like retreats.

like you can just take a step back from all the rubbish of the world and focus on God completely.

so yeah, i learnt a lot.

not that comfortable spilling everything, but basically i think everyday God teaches us something to refine us.

we're like really really huge pieces of gold you need a lifetime to polish.

ohoh newfound love for a new found verseeee!!!

"Friendship is reserved for those who fear Him.

With them he shares the secrets of His covenant."

- Psalm 25:14.

pretty no?

thanks to auntie mary hehe.

I AM GOING TO SHARE FLUENTLY IN CHINESE I WILL PRACTISE I WILL.

HAHA on saturday i got home and died for 12 hours it was awesomeeee.

cos the previous night we all slept only 3 hours cos we were making glenn tell us all his ex-gangster stories, interesting like crazy. :D

then yesterday i went out with thad, isaac, reuben and poh to watch couple retreat!

haha i met larissa at cathay. XD

everyone go to cathay basement and buy the scallop on promotion, it is damn good, and super cheap.

after that i ran to raylia's church camp.

it was the first day haha but i only went for dinner and the sermon.

ian was there and so was siying!! hadnt seen her in forever.

HAHAHHA AND ISABEL HAN OMG WE STARTED LAUGHING AT EACH OTHER THE MINUTE WE SAW EACH OTHER. <3

sermon wasnt bad, just that it's kinda what i already know it's what God wants and i believe in it.

haha raylia never tell me the camp was about relationships, but yeah not really applying to me at the moment. =/

but raylia and isabel walked us out when it was over i'll miss you guys i'll go over again another time X)

then i realised how many things i need to buy and how little $ i have.

quite sad.

oh well hha i'll find a way to work it out, like i always do! ;)

2009-12-07T23:37:00.003+08:00

i was gonna blog, but i am damn hungry nowww.

i am going to sleep.

there is something seriously wrong with me i get hungry every hour after eating.

like i could eat till im full then one hour later i am starving like mad.

it's like puberty part 2 after few years interval =/

maybe cos i exercise more now that it's holidays. oh welll i am going to sleep i come back tomorrow and write. X)

2009-12-02T22:28:00.003+08:00

omgogmogmogmo cannot get into moodle and msn wanna dieee.

i dont even know why i cant get into moodle cos i bet no one else is studying now!! >8/

[Edit: HAHARRR i just realised out of that first word i wrote, only the first 3 letters make sense.]

and ok!

they told me amsn has a bug, and that i should press the report button.

there was an empty box there for me to describe the problem, but i lazy so i just press, but when i did, they said i should describe it.

-.-

so i wrote "CANNOT LOG INNN"

i wonder who actually reads all these, they sure get a lot of vulgarities from people who are forced to describe the problems. =/

ok imma redownload microsoft messenger.

i hope they have a better version by now.

e-buddy for the mo.

but anywaysss! :D shall just blog then. since i cannot check answers.

i'll check another day.

hurhhhmmmz the week.

haha oh on monday, i diarrhoea-ed like v badly so it was unproductive day again, but yay yesterday i got better! X)

but i still had to eat weak people food the whole day. haha, porridgeeee.

but christmas came early for me yesterday whoohoo!!!!!!

HAHA, or a really late birthday, you can put it either wayyyyy lawl lawl. ;D

shaunald neo you are like the best brother from another mother ever yozsxzxzzzzz HAHAHHA.

thanks you and cassandra! X)

then today, i went to eat birthday lunch with jowell, and zehzeh.

we went to ministry of steak at gardens.

apparently some guy who got fired from astons went to open it, just next to astons.

haha he steal all the secret recipess.

"but people will go there over astons cos got aircon" - lynnette lee.

then i cut hair!

my ponytail is puny now.

not that small but compared to my old ponytail it's quite small haha.

boot camp tmr till sat!

dont miss me too much friends.

i should go pack, really. =/

2009-11-29T21:23:00.007+08:00

so!
this year. :)

honestly, i think it's been the worst and best year of my life.
the worst things happened, but so did the best.

i've met some of the best people ever this year, friends i'll keep till we're old and wrinkly like raisins. :D

i've learnt a lot this year too.
i dunno why i'm even trying to write this out cos it's kinda too much to even put into words actually.

but basically i've learnt a lot about life, and i've seen a lot of things i'd never imagined.

some good, some bad,

some ugly, some pretty.

but if i were to focus on just the good, i'm really all smiles, cos this year i've learnt love, joy and peace. :)

i've learnt that life's a lot like taking out trays of freshly baked cookies from an oven.

you carry one out of the oven, and it's piping hot and a whole lot of people are there to eat it with you.

you sit at around a coffee table, drowning your cookies and laughter in sweet cold milk. :)

but i've learnt the thing is, that's not what matters at all.

life's not all about the laughter, the fun and games and fair weather.

it's about the times when you carry out the cookies and you trip and spill them on the floor.

who stays to pick them up with you and has a hand on your shoulder as you reluctantly throw them away.

that matters. :)

it's when you make a mistake when baking and your cookies come out tasting like shit,

who eats them with you anyway, and accepts that you're not a perfect baker.

that matters. :)

it's when they've a choice of much prettier, tastier cookies,

who stays to eat your mediocre ones.

that matters. :)

and then to love still, those who werent there. :)

but anyway, i think the best thing that's happened to me this year has got to be the personal, permanent relationship with God i've gained this year.

He's taught me a lot, and i just wanna keep walking with Him forever and ever. :)

the quiet moments i spend alone with You everyday are so precious to me really, thanks for filling me everyday. :)

so yarpppp this holiday!

i'm not gonna treat it like one, i'm gonna work hard at everything i do.

"work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people."

- colossians 3:23.

and i know i can be focussed enough to do what i want to..

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline."

- 2 timothy 1:7

anddd

"For i can do all things through Christ, who gives me strength."

- philippians 4:13

it took me quite long, like till the end of the year, to realise i can control my future and all the devil wants to do is make us dwell on the past, but all we gotta do is let go, let God, and live life the way He meant it to be.

"No, dear brothers and sisters, i have not achieved it, but i focus on this one thing: forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, i press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us."

- philippians 3: 13-14.

we've a good God, all we gotta do is give Him a chance to show it. :)

2009-11-29T21:06:00.003+08:00

not the best way to kickstart the holzzzzz.

went for a flu jab in the morning before church and i dunno maybe cos i didnt eat or what, i headache all the way till i vomited a while after lunch.

i think it's not really the jab actually, just that i waited 2 hours to get to the doctor so i didnt eat for 6 hours straight and i get nauseous when i dont eat for too long.

irritating stomach again zz. :(

which also meant i couldnt go for that anglican thingy at suntec, i really wanted to go. =/

but yeah then i just stayed home and slept till forever.

i woke up with a headache still but a bit better i guess.

the first weekend of my holidays and i dont feel well on sat and sun haha i am so suayyy.

but never mindd, i guess exactly cos it's started so suckily, the only way rest of my holidays can go is upppppp! :D

2009-11-28T20:37:00.004+08:00

i hate my stomachzszz. :(

today after chem tuition in the morning, sneow and i went to thomson plaza to eat lunch.

and then it was free gelato day at haato so we just went to take haha, how lahkee of us! X)

but anyway today i learnt that i cannot take a nap on a super duper full stomach, i will wake up feeling like pangsai.

so yeah i was mad tired when i got home so i took a nap and i woke up with my stomach really funky. =/

the only times i sleep on a full stomach are during the times when i'm sick,

cos when i am, all i do is:

eat, sleep, wake up and die and eat and sleep again,

so when i feel uncomfortable in my stomach after waking up from a nap after eating super full, i kinda just group it with the overall suckiness of my entire being so it's pretty insignificant.

i blog a lot of rubbish.

anyway im quite sad, i have a very cui stomach.

i remember in secondary school i'd anyhow get gastric in class then i cry then i go home.

very stupid now that i think about it.

anw i took medicine but still uncomfortable, i laid in bed for the entire day when i wanted to study.

but oh well since i cant really study i think it's a good time for me to blog.

like talk about the year since school just ended and i didnt really reflect on the year. :)

ok yesterday first.

yesterday the 17-yr-olds from church went to botanic gardens for a picnic!!

yay it was really fun and HAHA hilarious stuff ttm

pasta and no utensils, scoop with plate, poh's sausage and everything AHAHA AUGHH I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! XD

but anyway i was really happy cos i went home and i planned out my entireee holiday! :D

what day do what subject. :D

so excited for the holidays.

[edit: *highlight, cut* i shall separate the year post into a new one, nicer. :)]

2009-11-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

I WENT TO TACTILE TODAY WITH VIVIEN AND JASPER OMG FUN STUFF TTM!!!!!!!!! XD XD XD

so anw school ended today and i really didnt have a 'last day of school' feeling at all but wtv, after school i was supposed to go to tactile then tuition,

but i change tuition to saturday cos i didnt know tactile would end so late! :O

ushering is the boringest thing you could ever do in your life.

i'll rather get cip for running around getting tired than stand stationary at a door for a million years getting bored.

and yah still tired also.

but haha we managed to view the exhibits after ushering though, omg THE NARNIA CUPBOARDDD <3!!!!!

and trying really hard to stare at the lines thing to get it 3D.

and the paper cut fantasy city!!

many many many moreeee.

miss chan has been and still is awesome. X)

i was almost dying at the start of tactile but at the end of it i didnt regret going at all, i'm so excited i wanna start on art coursework!

does anyone know where in singapore i can go to see nice big bright shiny stars??

stupid light pollution. >:/

anw heres a real quick update on the week.

on sunday, elaina, aaron, jasmine and i went to k mah's house to hang HAHA AUNTIE AARON IS 52 YEARS OLD ACCORDING TO WIIFIT AGE.

i swear the wii is the best invention ever.

on tues jasmine crash school hhahaha i love you.

then yesterday, larissa and i went to chomp chomp to eat omg i hadnt been there in so long i was so happy!!!!

we srsly ate like pigs,

hao dan, sugarcane, satay beehoon, bbq chicken wings, lala, fishball soup, almond milkcurd.

hahahaha aughhhh but all good stuff.

i think chomp chomp cheers people up HAHA i hope you're feeling better girl! X)

oh today, kelvin says he's gonna write a song about a koala bear for me HAHAHHAHA.

anw im off to sleep!

2009-11-21T14:27:00.004+08:00

omg boory longg.

i forgot how to blog. O.o

last saturday!

went out with zehzeh, shaunald and yijia.

it was a quite fail euro outing cos many people couldnt come last min :(

but it was still fun! : P

we watched coraline in 3D then we had waraku pasta.

pocky manager, eat durian with fork and knife many laughs againnn! X)

yaynesssss i met val for astons lunch on tues! <3

missed the girl like crazy.

hehe we're gonna eat cake on our next outing! : D

oh thanks val i learnt how to cut corn cobs, EVERYBODY I WILL CUT FOR YOU NEXT TIME!!!

on thurs i didnt go to school haha.

but quite stupid anw, school was 8am-9am. i'm sure it was totally worth going.

so i waited till afternoon then i met ravin, dionne and athirah at pp, then to ecp to meet charlotte and peishi!

outing fail again cos of rain. haha but fun still.

the rain was madness i dont like rain really, but omg coffee bean's hot chocolate = LOVE.

then yeah my life was basically dance like the entire week, till today.

i just came back from practice an hr or so ago.

i thank God i am alive today, somehow i was so tired yesterday.

after dance i came home and immediately we left to have dinner at mama's house.

i was sleeping in the car on the way back and when i came home i decided to shower and die.

YOU KNOW I WENT INTO THE TOILET AND SAW IN THE MIRROR THAT I HAD 3 EYELASHES ON MY FACE, BUT I WAS TOO TIRED TO MAKE WISHES!! D:

3 some moreee not 1!

wasteddddd zz.

oh you know the coolest thing happened just now,

ok cos i meet ian ho like once in 6 mths or smth srsly then i was thinking like theres no way i'm getting back my 10 bucks till next yr then suddenly just now i was on my way home i bumped into him on the escalator up to serangoon and he freakin doesnt even live there and YES MONEHH!!

haha how cool is that.

maybe singapore is just v small. divine appointment. freak coincidence.

either way cool.

i'm here now because the aircon men are at my house,

i just had lunch and i cant even shower when i am so smelly cos they are using my showers to wash the aircons stuff.

and they are so noisy!! >: /

drilling and hammering and what nots.

i wanna go and shower at the neighbour's house, but i dunno them!! D:

i know their dogs.. :/

whatever i am going to shit. :(

2009-11-14T10:43:00.004+08:00

IT'S OVER IT'S OVER IT'S OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHVER

OMGOMGOMG I AM SOOOOO RELIEVED YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

^ i wrote that on wed btw, dunno how come i didnt post it haha.

op was that stupid scab on my arm that was halfway coming off for one whole week including the weekend that got in the way of everything cos i cannot peel off cos will be pain but then it will not stick back on my skin also so it was constantly bugging me at the back of my head really horribly cos i need to be conscious of it and it finally came off on wednesday yessssssss.

ok i need to think of less gross analogies. =/

anw i was like this happy butterfly on wednesday haha.

and i wanna thank aly for teaching me how to piquey really nicely, however you spell it. X)

haha then i met ian ho for dinner.

i have no idea how im gonna get my $10 back D: hahaha.

i had chem tuition on thursday which was spoilerz much since i just ended op.

but wtv, it is good for me. :)

i think im like srsly super horrible at dance.

i'm so gonna get better at it, i dont care. hardworking hardworking lets be hardworkinggg.

yesterday after dance prac vera and i went to bugis yay.

i bought red shorts like finallyyy i was sooo happy somehow i can never find no matter how hard i try manz haha.

my old red shorts were my fav shorts till i killed it by sitting on jedi's palette HAHA AUGH.

but yah i finally found so yessssss X)

every morning i've been waking up half an hr later than i set my alarm.

as in i wanna wake up at 730 so i set my alarm to 715 so i can snooze till 730 but i end up snoozing till 8.

it might not seem like a problem but i really need neeeeed to train myself for school days, esp next yr. D:

wtv i am gonna shower then do the art essay or smth.

i wanna tick more than one thing off my todo list today! :D

then i can go hang with the europe trip peeps with a peace of mindd :)

psst ohkayy heres the deal i see you tomorrow morning early wake me pleaseeee D:

and remind me that you're waiting i dont wanna be late cos then everyone else will be up and it'll be really noisy and i'll regret it like today.

and if i promise you a certain time i dont wanna break it cos you'll be sad which will make me feel badddd.

2009-11-10T19:38:00.004+08:00

i have no more aircon for a whole weekkkkkkkkkk they removed it the top of my walls have just wires and stuff. D:
but it's okay lah, cos i can survive without aircon, zehzeh's dying though.
she is whining now haha. she say she wanna go to macs.

just now i farted during dinner then she screamed. =/

laughter's the best medicine. HAHAHAHA omg shaunald you're the best. ;D
can we faster go on marks and spencer outing start savin uppp.

augh everyone should eat marks and spencer.
i love marks and spencer gingerbread men, currant puffs, almond cookies, and basically everything from there.
you see how i wrote a 7 word sentence into a 16 word one.

are marks and spencer people?
marks is a weird name..

i have OP tomorrow and i am so sick of talking to myself i really am.
everytime i open my mouth i just feel like puking.

let's be hardworking people! :D
i like hardworking people.

i think people shouldnt do things with wrong intentions.
it's really bad. =/

2009-11-09T22:18:00.002+08:00

one day i will clone choco, just you all wait.

maybe i'm secretly a secret genius freak scientist just that i never told you before.

maybe i invented something but you dont know either cos i didnt tell you.

maybe i invented the lightbulb.

one day i'm gonna learn to fly, just you all wait.

maybe i can already but i'm just waiting for the right moment to reveal that i can.

like when someone's trying to jump off a cliff i can save the person.

or when my aeroplane spoil next time.

maybe i own an aeroplane.

one day i'm gonna make everyone love like Jesus did.

but i really dunno how man...

... OR MAYBE I DO.

2009-11-08T18:56:00.007+08:00

nothing like a long weekend spent with best friends. <3

i just feel like saying this to you guys because i really thank God a lot for you all.

haha and i always just speak of the fun we have together

so i think i'll do things a bit differently this time and show my appreciation,

and thank you guys for well,

just being who you are. :)

jedidah tan.

let me see your backpack when it's done ok i cant wait to see it!

im glad you liked the present : D

hahhah but i dunno how it works omg did i take out the price tag i hope i did.

dont kill yourself in touch rug, HAHA row push ups, tsk.

and you retain in cj lawlll. XD

ravinnn.

crazy woman running towards me, thanks for bringing me to the secret serangoon swing, i dont like the people who keep tearing down swings!! >: /

the girl's face AHHAHAHAHAH omg.

study hard for O levels and come to sa k!

and take the lift!!

shaunald neo jing kai.

thanks for being the best guy friend ever, even though you've been gay and your jokes have been rubbish. : P

and even though i had to wake up at 7am on saturday i had tons of fun.

yay i like orhkueh. :)

natnatttt.

thanks for letting me invade your house just for choco, and HAHA for tomyam maggi mee and for washing our dishes.

ive known you both for barely a year but i feel like you've been my brothers since i was small or smth, hehee. : D

you guys have been like the brothers ive never had, thanks for always taking care of me. X)

you are both very handsome okayyy?

AHHAHA. hope you guys didnt die today next year i run with you.

gwen seah.

hehe we were kinda the first people we knew from cell cos of

confident cow HAHHAA lawll.

you've been awesome and dont stress ok He'll make things fine for you remember you're doing what you love! :)

lalala i love you all very much. :)

yay i am half finished with memorising op, it's been fun talking to myself.

2009-11-05T23:44:00.014+08:00

hi blog.

today im here to tell you that you will be changing.

i dont really like controlling things, or people. not even inanimate objects like you cos i believe we should all never let others rule over us, but i realise i gotta do this, cos otherwise you'll rule overme instead, and that's not good either.

so anw heres the deallll.

1) i probably wont be touching you that much soon till like, As? yeahh.

2) i wont be putting up event photos anymore.

wastes too much time.

sorraye.

not even a few like the cap i've given myself since the start of the year because i realise i go to a lot of weird gatherings and whatnots and inevitably take photos.

haha i might put up china photos after the trip though i dunno.

like how i spammmmmed hundred over after europe trip last year HAHA.

but see first. o.O facebok is a friend now. for photos. : D i'll prob still put up occasionally, if a picture or 2 really means something and needs to be up here haha.

3) i probably wont talk about every event either like how i've been doing. actually now also never but, 90% at least. so now it's gonna be 10%, because it's gonna be only if i happen to say or have the time to,

~~or if i'm excited enough about it. : P~~

Edit: OMG I CANNOT DO THIS. *CAVES BADLY* i think i am just excited about everything.

but yeah so!

as a last actually-talk-about-everything-that-i-attend-or-happens-to-me post, here goes everything under the sunnnnnnnnnn.

friday was jasmine tan's birthday bbq!!

hahaha i love you.

cant believe we didnt plan for rain! k mah you are a good friend i am v proud of you. : D

anw hope you had a great one jas i wish i couldve stayed longer.

haha one day you me and E will go for high tea like you said hahha augh thats so gay but i bet it'll be fun.

then on sunday i had jap lunch with the ever awesome old cell girls i missed like crazyyyy.

shar, cheryl seah, gwen and i went to ion to eat at i dunno what the name of the restaurant was but the food was sooo goodddd. X)

then monday after chinese i went to dhoby to look for the syfc/pod people and we celebrated tricia and yveena's birthday.

ailing baked a cake which died!!!! ;D ;D hahahaahha

lactic acid is not a friendddddd. D:

aching all over, after dance yesterday liying, ian, aly and i stayed and talked cock for one and a half hours, so longg haha but it was really fun. liying says we should go have talking session again we'll go outtttt. XD

then she me and aly had dinner tgt and talked longer HAHA went home super late and dying.

today i went for chem tuition for the first time at mrs tan's house. zehzeh's old tuition teacher.

and i realised, CHERYL SEAH IS IN ITTTT!!!

HAHAHA i was so happy when she walked in srsly.

we did electrode potential today and i was dying cos SA hasnt even touched it yet.

mrs tan uses a chalk board!!! so cute, yay. :)

but yeah i'm gonna work really hard esp chem, which explains my decision to blog less.

actually it's not a decision, i just decided to say it out here cos i see it coming. sure one, inevitably.

cos i think about 2010 and i really cant imagine how i'm gonna handle it.

next yr is like a future mother-in-law i am apprehensive.. yet excited to meet. : D

i've been going to read/do op work with rachel in the music caf over the past week while she studies.

but samuel stephens will be there = no one can concentrate cos he'll be making me laugh, then he'll use me to amuse himself a bit and laugh also and then so will everyone, so we all laugh then never do workkk.

but it's been fun. :)

except i am not a koala bear!!! >:/

HAHAHA i bluff sammy i am lesbian hhahahahah.

haha so good week overall i am really thankful.

i guess God really does stop rainstorms. :)

and he gives me people with pretty extra umbrellas and raincoats to offer me it's really heartwarming.

ok tireddd zzzzzzzzzzzZZzzZZZzzzZZZzzzzzzzzzZZzzzzz.

2009-11-03T21:30:00.001+08:00

i like good people.

2009-11-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

华文是完了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

2009-10-31T18:37:00.014+08:00

fake flowers last forever.

real ones die.

so why do you all keep buying the real ones?

you're all idiots!!

just buy the fake ones.

a fake flower is better, right?

i mean, because when they're making it,

they can do whatever they want with it.

they can make every petal a different colour.

they can make a rainbow rose.

they can even have heart-shapes on the petals.

or polka dots.

they can make it flawless.

maybe a real flower might have one droopy petal.

one that's a little torn, one that's a little smaller than the other petals.

or maybe all the petals are of different sizes.

but you see, when they're making a fake one, they can make the flower perfectly symmetrical.

and yeah then when they're done with all that,

they add on the plastic dew.

honestly i dont know what they use to make it.

maybe it's like some melted plastic glue thing.

but then again i dont know, really.

and honestly i dont know why they want to even have dew on a fake flower anyway.

maybe it's to hide that they're fake, to try their best to make it appear real.

but why? that's so insecure.

but then again i dont know, really.

but either way, they're done with their flower.

they give it to you.

they tell you it's pretty

they tell you it's lovely.

they tell you it will never fade, so neither will its beauty.

but they dont tell you many things.

they dont tell you that it doesnt have the sweet smell of a real flower, or the smooth soft texture of real petals no synthetic cloth can imitate.

they dont tell you it was made in a factory with hundred others all at once. they dont tell you it's not special. that there are a million ones exactly like it.

they dont tell you that that one flower didnt work for its beauty, like how a real one fights to

grow up and bloom.

they dont tell you that when it's not actual water droplets on the petals, the flower doesnt know what it's like to wake up in the morning.

they dont tell you that because it lasts forever, you wont cherish its existence like how you would for a real one.

they dont tell you that it lasts forever not because it lives eternally, but because it's eternally dead.

they dont tell you many things.

i dont like fake flowers. i dont, i really dont.

:'(

2009-10-29T23:02:00.002+08:00

no no you cant have both,

you gotta choose ONEE.

2009-10-29T21:33:00.005+08:00

cant believe i missed out on chinese = life on the previous post.

so yah im just gonne be chinese + op till nov 2 and nov 11, respectively.

hehe laoshi crashed us the 10 passages during chinese today.

strangely it was quite useful, but i'm gna study all properly now i'm serious.

maybe i will actually aim for an A.

oh well see how i study over the weekend, if i feel smart enough i will set higher goals.

haha and.

the everyone-eat-macs plan failedddddddd.

hhahaahahahaa. cos kelvin sold me out.

cos it was his girlfriend's birthday.

then he ended damn early.

never minddd hahahah i had macs dinner with jem.

it was really fun so yay. :D

i still didnt get sentosa cove, i very sad.

i keep sneezing today i dunno why :(

i wonder what i would do with $50 000 cash. o.O

oh i was telling jem how we can fake people.

we can open the sticker and "OMG SENTOSA CO-"

until everyone staring at me then like JUST KIDDING!

i was saying we could pretend we really did get it, and try and hide when people saw,

but then no cannot bad idea we would be robbed on our way out, confirm.

anyway i am here cos i came home and i was gonna shower but papa beat me to it.

he came back like 5 seconds before me, so he said he was gonna go first.

but anyway, he is done already.

so fast right he is crazy.

i think i shower very long.

ok quite.

but that was 2 minutes seriously my dad secretly didnt shower i bet.

but then again he has no hair.

i just realised something today.

you know how like if you want something really badly,

as in something that's not God-focussed,

then you try super hard to chase after it,

you usually fail like mad?

like the harder you try, the more you wont get it?

but when you decide to place your focus on Him,

and you chase nothing but Him,

like tell Him you dont want that whatever thing you kinda want but give it up to make Him your only desire,

He kinda just slowly, but eventually gives that thing you wanted to you, and you didnt even have to do anything to try and get it.

cool stuff right, but then i realised also that someone beat me to this realisation already and it's found in luke 12:31. HAHA.

but i tell you it workssss. hehe ok shower. :)

2009-10-27T21:44:00.006+08:00

today we handed in wrrrr.

finally.

im so thankful for gajen as group leader, he's like, too nice. HAHA.

but yay.

and OP = my life nowwww.

till 11 nov.

and i feel like my day was super slack srsly. =/

passed by really leisurely.

oh i was reading!

rach lent me this book on genesis, cos i was starting on gen qt and whee it's good good goooooood :) :)

oh and i love nurul haha she helped me buy the victorias secret pefume thing thats like freakin nice whoo hoooo thanks nurul! XD

anyway i'm quite tired now, i kinda danced in the afternoon and realised gekiang-ing is really called fake-smart for a reasonnnn. :(

the doctor gave me a 2-week mc so i should just follow it. yes.

but anyway basically i thought i'd be able to dance tmr but then after li ying taught me the new technique steps [which is extra dificult this time. i think it's just me], i said hello to pain againn.

there's super a lot of floor stuff, and when i've to get up,

i pretty much cant. hahaha.

bet people dont even realise when you get up from the floor,

you dont use your legs for support,

you use your lower spine.

which mine = hurt like crazy when i tried :( :(

but never mind, i msged sophie i'll sit in dance with her tmr, i was telling her how i was a old woman for a week,

and she said she was "an old woman on crutches for a month. ^^"

HAHA cute girl what a way to make me feel better but anyway i feel better knowing i've company at the back of the studio already so, :)!

then after school i was supposed to go picnic with the class but cannot cos dance, then worship workshop.

jolene digging coupon from the dustbin and all lawllllllll BUT ANYWAY POINT IS,

ON THURSDAY, KELVIN AND I ARE GONNA MAKE EVERYONE ORDER MACS FOR DINNER.

yesyesyeyes omg i cant wait.

like there will 15 people or smth right,

so 15 x 4 = 60 coupons we can steal!!!!! XD

aughh cant wait.

2009-10-25T19:02:00.006+08:00

i didnt go for dance yesterdayyy. :(

cos on friday i tried dancing and it was still a little painful.

i asked li ying if i should go and she said better to recover fully first.

hehe but she was so sweet she said she'll teach me next week so yay. :)

and although i was kinda zz about that, it's ok because outing with shuanald natnat and marcus more than made up for it! : D

we went to marche and many retarded pieces of rubbish ensued.

strangers,

carol [lawl ttmmmm],

and

*MZHH*.

HAHAHA.

and the million trillion more laughs.

augh, i love you all, thanks for making my saturday! <3

and HAHA shaunald i think we can make like a whole glossary of inside jokes we share already srsly, counting from elmo to MZH. hahahaha.

i'm gonna go play piano!

2009-10-20T18:26:00.004+08:00

yay thanks everyone for the prayers! :)

my back almost doesnt hurt anymore.

im gonna go dance on saturday. yeahh.

and if you didnt know i kinda fell cycling on friday night.

i'll tell you how if you ask me.

im so horribly accident-prone.

but oh well im pretty.

..much ok alr.

AHHA omg that was such a horrible joke too yucks annette lee.

but yah i felt like an old woman for the weekend srsly. D:

took 5 seconds to sit down and get upp.

oh i have another bruise on my cheek near my ear also actually,

but nvm that one i can just tell everybody jedi punched me.

oh wells who cares about injuries it was fun!

but i have 2 ulcers in my mouth now though. :(

very pain.

today after lunch i went to read newspaper and then, HAHAHA

i saw shawn ling in it.

got recognised for his charitable deeds yo.

i was doing qt today, and realised my bible is spoilttttt D':

the binded part totally detached from the spine it's so horribly ugly, but i shall glue it back later.

why do i keep using horrible today something is horribly wrong with me!!! o.O

but anw,

i felt something in me smile cos, if i think about it, it's actually a good thing! :D

means i have actually been opening the thing and flipping through its pages everyday, so much that that it can become worn out.

if this was last year, my bible would be just rusty* dusty and intact.

*my bible is made of metal :D

ohya then on the night cycling day, we went EH for a while to play games and watch a video of the sermon louie giglio did on chris tomlin's indescribable tour.

i think everybody should see this.

AWESOME OR WHATTTTTTT.

and i swear after watching it i was like, i dunno stars in my eyes and everything.

*__*

\_/

^that was meant to be a face. like a smiley face with star eyes.

ok i think fail, whatever.

but yeah i was sooo in awe,

ive liked the idea of an infinite universe from the start,

and knowing there are cool stuff out there,

but now that i actually saw so many pretty stuff,

it's like :) :) :) :) :) !!!

and not only was it about seeing pretty stuff, it was about knowing how small we are,

YET

He still loves us.

so cool.

i feel like i'm God's pet ant or smth, and he takes care of me and feeds me everyday.

and he just stares at me carry grains of sand around everywhere everyday with a smile on his face.

well, except i have 2 legs, and i dont have antennae, and i dont have relatives who got squashed to death, etc.. =/

..and i have the ability to love Him back. :)

HAHA joel told me in primary school he drew red ants and black ants for art, then his art teacher scold him, say that red and black ants dont live together.

so yah yesterday was pretty fun i met joel for macs breakfast then, then we went to brighton ave to eat awfully chocolate ice cream. yumsss.

the shop look like toilet.

i didnt say that, jinming did.

ok this is pretty cool stuff i just realised the whole time i was writing that astronomy thing, indescribable was playing on my itunes, it's on shuffle.

anyway, i am slowly eliminating the screamo songs off my itunes, k mah's thumbdrive has a few, i'm too lazy to sort them out so i am doing it the lazy man's way shuffle everytime im using the comp, then when i happen to hear a screamo, off to the trash it goes.

will take me forever but well, saves me searching time.

i shudder and die at screamo songs srsly, the ultimate angsty kind,

somehow i'm quite ok with switchfoot screamo.

ah, different. you must hear.

but yeah i think it's just because of my phobia of yelling.

i have a yelling phobia i think some people know.

i dont yell, i hate it when people yell at me, yell at me too much i will cry, when i grow up and have kids i will never yell at them.

you think i say only but really i wont have to even control, cos i can never bring myself to yell, no matter how angry i am.

but HAHA whoops i super digressed.

but yeah i think the sermon really showed me that no one should ever think they are so great and important because really, we are so freakin puny compared to Him.

but at the same time, we should never think we're too small either, because the biggest thing ever ever is living in us. :)

ah, fuzzy.

i feel so comforted by myself.

ohkay i am off to take panadol.

layter kids.

2009-10-18T21:11:00.008+08:00

ok since i am here at my comp waiting for the op ppt to be sent to me to be editted,

i am gonna finish up the post-exam fun post first.

haha.

i only put up that many photos in that post cos nurul wanted those from my cam HAHA i am sooo never gna waste my time putting up that many anymore, haha that's gna be the last post with that many pictures for just one event.

but i have like 3 sets of photos now so i think it'll be not that little still.

but yarp!

after promos it was chinese lectures like crazy,

and the first one sara and tessa didnt come so i was the only girl, and the guys were all drawing musclemen AHHAHAHA i have no idea why!?!??

i show you nelson's drawing he should totally take art, hilarious ttm.

HAHAHAHAHAHHA I LAUGH LIKE CRAZYYYY.

look at john's pathetic taped shoe, i feel so sad for it. :(

oh but he wore new shoes the next week v nice! :)

then with my awesome drawing skills i drew ben weiyang and nelson!

the 3 on the left.

the other 2 were drawn by nelson. and that is not me. >:/

then like 2 fridays ago or smth, guo guang had b&j's voucher so he said he'll treat me and who would say no to free ice cream!! :D

haha thanks gg you're the best!

except that you're a total smartass, i cannot take it.

and after that i went to E's house for her og bbq, zz had to leave early though.

i think ian and mq are so cute haha.

:) :)

omg E i owe you your obs shirt haha!!

on friday we went night cycling!

it was freakin fun, apart from the fact that i got injured which i will come to that later.

so yeap after getting back results i went home to sleep and then i met jedi but we were both late.

anw then to make things worse the smart girl decided kemangan was the station to stop if you wanna go east coast. HAHA. wronggg.

but yah the control station woman scold meeeee :(

i was waiting for jedi so i went to ask her how to get there by bus she was like 'why didnt you stop at bedok to take the bus??'

ohkay like chillax i was just asking.

and i dunno how to answer rhetorical questions. :(

HAHAHA but anywaysss it was pretty good catching up with jed the loser with cool new hair.

we are still going to get our backpacks soon pleasee. after pw! :)

OLYMPIC RINGS!

sara's holding us!

and HAHAHHAH this one. jedi and i were forcinggg lydia to stand in the middle i was like 'NO I DONT WANNA STAND WITH JEDI!!!'

and she kinda knew we were gna do smth stupid to her so she tried escaping haahha but anw... we managed to get her in the middle and her hunch was right.

this is so small but the bigger version you can totally see mickey mouse.

and i am done. yay just nice i just received my op.

2009-10-15T00:01:00.002+08:00

JOOOOY IN MY HEART. :)

OMG I AM SO HAPPY TODAY!!!!!!!!!

i was kinda gonna sleep but i decided i really needed to come write here. cos it's not everyday you have this many reasons to be happy.

there are just too many reasons why i should be smiling and am smiling now. so here they are! XD

[warning: there might be many exclamation marks i think. like a catherine linton speech [lit book joke, very inside sorry go and read wuthering heights.]

1) I'M ALLOWED TO GO FOR THE SYFC NIGHT CYCLE ON FRIDAY!!!!! XD XD XD

my dad say i must wear helmet but never mind i am so gonna have fun!!!

AUGHHHH HAHAHHAHA, and jedi's going too yayyyy!!

2) i love my class we are so cool we are going to have self-pe tomorrow even though our teacher wont be in school!

3) THE JASPER VIDEOS ON FB OMGOMG LAWL LAWL LAWL LAWLLLLLL.

4) larissa pressed my front split down till i touched the ground!!!!!!

freakin painful but i dont care!

and i think i have a weird funny bone that's located at the top of my thigh. that it is like, itchy when it hurts.

lar was saying how when she was pressing down for her juniorlast time, she was tearing.

AND I WAS THERE LAUGHING LIKE SHIT.

i am gonna practise and then finish the split in 1 more mth, and then counting the previous mth i stretched, i will be the fastest person i know to have ever learnt a split HAHA 2 mths!!

5) lar said i am a hardworking girl. :)

meant so muchh and like li ying said she can see that i've improved.

and everyone like affy for properly teaching me the syf on monday when i was a clueless goldfish.

6) I CAN DOUBLE PIROUETTE OR HOWEVER YOU SPELL IT. i really cannot believe all this shit i can do, it's really not me it cant be my own strength. so scary yet so cool yet it shows that with God, nothing's impossible.

7) MY FINAL YR ART PROJECT IS NOT GNA BE EXHIBITED WITH THE J2 WORKS ANYMORE AHHAHA YES!!!!!! I AM NOT GONNA EMBARRASS MYSELF ANYMOREE.

omg when mrs kee was saying in the art room about how some of us who are working on gce not good to exhibit cos later like ruin next year's surprise, i was sooo happy.

srsly it was like, imminent embarrassment just died for life.

8) it's jedi's birthday tmr and i got her the best thing ever! but i cannot pass to her anytime soon i am so not bringing to night cycle unless we got locker haha heavy.

just now we msging then she said how she's excited for tmr, she end last paper. 11am.

then i said:

HAHA i excited for tmr also. my friend's birthday. she is quite uncool but i got her a cool present. i dunno how to pass to her though, i cannot bring to the night cycle.

then she reply:

Eh your friend's birthday same day as mine! :D

AHHAHAHHAHA what a disgusting girl!!

9) last week, i had some tailbone muscle shitz thing that hurt like hell, and i swear i couldnt dance and i was so scared and everything. but now i am ok and today, i danced everyything unhurtingly at alll.

prayers so work please?!?? :) :)

10) i just had the best night ever. after i made everyone pray that i can go for night cycle HAHA, i promised i'd spend the rest of the night with God if mummy falls prey to my persuading powers. AHAHA.

but yeah 2 hours with the best company ever.

OFF TO SLEEP I LOVE EVERYBODY YOU.

2009-10-13T22:07:00.006+08:00

lets talk post-exam fun. :)

the day after promos, mervyn brought me to eat waraku at iluma haha it was like the best thing ever cos i think i somehow boycotted good expensive [good in a restaurant way, expensive in a seafood way] food during promo period.

like not intentionally but you know, study everyday = tapao food go home and study + eat in hole.

but it was good catching up stuffz with the favourite ogl so yay :)

then the following day we had class outing! XD

THE SUN = GOOD TTMMM!!

sitting on,

no mats.

HAHA we all forgot.

i brought for everyone! :)

then andrew made four letters on ben's body with sand while they suntannedd.

see if you can read it no loss either way haha.

when ben was walking back from the sea i was like HJKJJJLJHBAUGHH!?! ttm srsly HAHA.

we played captain's ball i put this^ pic up just cos i think fahimah looks super funny and zorteng at the side there HAHAHA.

slurpees are friends, and food!

I LOVE 09S05!!!!!!

ps nadia has nice arm muscles i wanttt.

then last sunday jasmine came over for service! :)

and then we met elaina after that.

we watched fame.

haha it was ok, i wanna watch jennifer's body! and 500 days of summer.

ok i have more pictures for more stuff but honestly, i am damn sianz alr.

HAHA. imma stop here i'll continue next time dont wanna event blog anymore. it's very brainless.

maybe after i post this i'll do a normal shitz post. see first. ;) ;)

2009-10-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

snapple mango is a total lie i swear it tastes like peach.

2009-10-11T20:26:00.008+08:00

huh? HEY!
my jellyfish friends are helping me fly!
WITHOUT PANTS!
i guess it just goes to show,

*you dont need a plane to fly.
plastic wings may make you cry.
kites are made for windy days.
lawn chairs with balloons,
fly awaaaaaaay.
inflatable paaaaaants
you may as well skiiiip
if you want to fly, all you need...*

is friendship. ;)
yeah,

[HAHAHAHHAHA. i burst out laughing at that part cos it's suddenly speech. omgomg.]

goodbye jellies! you taught me a valuable lesson. although i'm not quite sure what it is. o.O

[if you're confused, spongebob just sang for me in nickelodeon and i wrote down everything he *sang*/said.]

2009-10-10T19:24:00.009+08:00

sometimes the hardest thing to do can be the easiest thing to do.

"morning by morning he wakens me, and opens my understanding to his will." - isaiah 50:4.
what a pretty verse dont you think it was given to me by a girl called rachel who's just as pretty. :)

so if i dont wake up in the morning to spend time with you, then

please, please,

wake me.

if i try to sleep in and forget what i'll be missing, then

please, please,

remind me.

the sun came up and kissed the sky,

a message from my king,

"please wake up darling,"

birds sang through my window saying,

"good morning, would you spend time with your maker?"

ohkayy.

lets start with weekends.

WHEN I WAKE UP.

not afternoon not night, the START of the day.

not sometimes, but WITHOUT FAIL.

and because while i'm sleeping, you rejoice over me. :)

2009-10-10T14:41:00.001+08:00

i dunno i really dunno.
=/ =/ =/

2009-10-06T19:51:00.003+08:00

and then there are those times where you know there's nothing you can do but pray.
:(

2009-10-06T14:24:00.003+08:00

zzzZZzzZZZZzZZZZzZZZZzZZzzzzzzzzz.
i just finished my part for wr first draft and i have nothing to do nowww.
and i cant even go home like everyone who's gone back cos they're done.

cos i have dance later.
cant even sleep cos after lunch i came back and slept for an hour so i'm not tired.

anyway, i was just telling jebi how i am really thankful that our class is in comp lab! :)
it's like almost 40 classes and only 4 get the comp labs so yay.

but yah back to the point i am stuck here in school where everyone who is still here has work to do so i have only myself for entertainment.
i think i am gonna go read ymiblogging.

Edit: I KNOW!! CHINESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-03T12:54:00.000+08:00

2cm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-02T18:08:00.005+08:00

how. =/

i accidentally killed a bag full of pigs,

all of them named percy.

but not my fault it's cos i forgot then i didnt eat them zzz >:/

SHAUNALD NEO THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!

sian, i feel v bad throwing away the whole bag so i'll probably leave it to rot more, or see if it flies to the dustbin itself.

i think one day i will go to a pig farm and feed the pigs percy pigs.

HAHAHAHHA omg it's so cute yet so morbid can you imagine eating gummy humans.

henry humans.. =/

2009-10-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

okok cannot.

2 and a half days of hardcore playing = enough.

back to boycotting and

hardcoring art and pw.

chinese can, mediumcore.

see you all soonzzz!

2009-09-29T20:40:00.007+08:00

realise i havent photoblogged in a million yrs so.... i shall try do it now,

and attempt to talk about many things that have happened over the past few months that i was too busy being a hermit mugger to have the time to blog about.

i was supposed to do art omg but i didnt cos i was doing i&r and who knew it would be so hardddd :(

plus i woke up late today, had one of those i-dreamt-i-woke-up-and-even-to-the-toilet-and-did-all-my-shitz-then-suddenly-i-realise-i'm-still-in-bed-and-i-didnt-actually-wake-up dreams again.

i've only used my new coloured pencils once, i wanna use them more more!

haha i just remembered i forgot to mention that day i bought coloured pencils with jedi, i went to the library to borrow colour pencil books too yay!! :D

i am such an art geek but i dont really care.

and we went to eat at the food court and we sat there for half an hr eating and talking,

then when our food was cleared,

we continued sitting there to talk for another hour. HAHA. <3

i think i will draw tomorrowzzz.

i try.

ah whatever on the bright side i am done wih I&R draft 2 so goodbye to individual pw for life!!

and i know i am so late but,

I LIKE JASON MRAZ!!!

i remember how when i'm yours came out i hated it

and i almost died when people listened to it and everywhere they played it.

i felt it was damn coconut.

like i dunno the song just gave me a very coconut feeling.

i called him coconut boy.

but now,

OMG I AM IN LOVE WITH HIS SONGS!

and i swear no one's done a better cover of the rainbow connection in the history of singers and rainbow connectors and jasons and mrazzes.

so yeah back to the point of talking about some of the shizz that happened over the past few mths.

honestly i am quite sian already so i'll just talk the photo ones haha.

TEACHERS/ACES DAY!!!

danceee :)

HAHAHAAHHA THEN.

ok cos i was supposed to go back to cedar with dionne but she like died in some classroom or smth so i couldnt get her so i thought she pon sch haha but yeah i just left first.

but anw so i was with shawn and tessa.

and.

SHAWN TAKES VERY HORRIBLE PHOTOSS. >:/

HAHAHHAHAH THIS LOOKS SO FUNNY DONT YOU THINKK.

it looks like some scene from a murder mystery thriller or smth and tessa is trying to blackmail me now.

anyway shawn is a psk.

yah cos i had to go back to cedar alone i went mrt with shawn and his hoarddd of cat high guys and i made him walk at the back with me but then later i pangseh, then he pangseh, then we decided to be quits so we became friends again yay i love you shawn!

going back to cedar was fun shizzz man ahahaha i missed mr kang!!

i swear he is partly the reason why i even decided taking h2 chem.

i love him he tried to act cool and collected when i HI MR KANG!!!!! as if he just saw me the day before.

i bet he was secretly happy.

a bit. :D

mrs woo wasnt there :(

i met ms teh though whee she brought me to see the O level works haha.

i am so glad she taught me art i'll never forget everything she did for me and helped me with and, ah love her ttmmmm.

i want her to come to sa and take over ms chan omgg.

haha.

and i saw all the awesum juniors again again whoooo.

then peishi, ravin, dionne, hannah and i went out!

and then it was like holidays the next week i think. yeah.

i STUDIED.

yessss.

i kinda played fri though after consultation with ms lim i went to meet ravin and athirah for lunch, then i hung the rest of the day with ravin haha we went her house and watched the hills, it is so bimboticcc hha omg lucky i dont have mtv.

and the next day, i went to mama's house to bake, then it was off to botanical gardens for aarons surprise 17thh.

HAPPY 17TH CHURCH BUD FROM SCH.

dont be an auntie anymore!!!

i love cheryl very much.

she looks pretty here and her shirt is very nice.

HAHA OMG I THINK SNEOW IS HILARIOUS.

i swear he never fails to make me laugh i wanna die.

ok heres what happened cos i was at mama's house so i came late.

sneow: eh so annette where did you come from?

annette: I CAME, FROM OUTER SPACE! :D

sneow: *straight face + nods* oh.. same here.

I DUNNO WHAT IS THE READ-OFF EFFECT MAYBE I NEED TO TELL YOU FACE-TO-FACE BUT I SWEAR I JUST BURST OUT LAUGHING.

ahahahahha.

anyway!

the jesus habits book was talking about this marshmallow test which like, they experimented with kids,

put them in a room with a marshmallow,

and the woman who brought them in will go out,

and they can either eat the one marshmallow, or wait till she gets back,

and they'll get ONE MORE. :)

and they were saying smth like they checked up on those kids again 10 yrs later and those who ate the marshmallow cos they couldnt wait, they like ended up more screwed in their teens. HAHA.

quite sad.

but anw then i searched the video..

.. and it was hilarioussss omg laugh like crazy!!!!!

HAHA WATCH!!

gosh i love kids.

2009-09-29T17:28:00.000+08:00

why is pw so difficult?!????

2009-09-28T20:58:00.016+08:00

ok i am going to try and use similes.

i realise they are quite fun.

lets see how many i can put in one post.

so.

lets speak in similes!!! :D

like a.. [is there a simile for speaking in similes???]

so anw, whee.

i just had nice macaroni for dinner.

so i'm full and happy.

like a balloon.

[yes balloons are happy thank you.]

my house downstairs macaroni is nice you should eat it.

and i learnt smth new today cos i bothered to read the chinese on the menu board!

bet you never knew what macaroni was in chinese wellzz.. i found out today!!

it is tong1 xin1 fen3.

so cute right!

sounds,

like heart-shaped powder!!

and powder cant be heart-shaped but you get my point!!

sounds quite pink also.

anw i had dinner late cos i slept away my nice afternoon.

like a hibernating polar bear.

i am happy now though cos i love k mah HAHA he lent me a whole thumbdrive full of songs and he has so many!! like, chris tomlin and jay chou i was like YESS!!

and oh thanks to jasper and jowell for lending me some songs too haha!

oh speaking of the YESS i need to stop doing that in math. =/

like you know how sometimes you can spend damnmnmn long on a math qsn,

then when after superrzsxzx long, like a giraffe,

you actually find the answer and you feel so accomplished??

well yeah usually when that happens, i cannot help but end off my math qsn [ok e.g. answer is 56] with:

= 56// YESS

= 56// :D

and the thing is, sometimes, maybe careless or i miss out smth right,

then,

.. i can still get the qsn wrong!!

so it makes me look like a mega retard cos when i get back my paper,

IT WILL END UP LOOKING LIKE THIS:

= 56// YESS X

= 56// :D X

HHAHAHHAHA OMG I AM SO EMBARRASSING!!! D:

but yah.

that links to today's math paper anw, basically i did that to one qsn, which i think i still got wrong.

and so since today marks my last promo paper, i should talk about it.

honestly ah when it ended i wasnt super happy like mad relieved all's over.

haha couldnt go out either cos the rest of the class ends tmr but we've class outing on ~~thurs~~[Edit: omgomg it's not thursday it's tmr! as in wed. i am so dumb. i was still wondering how we could be meeting at 11am.] so yay!

but anw i was more of, kinda,

ambivalent. =/

like a hideous pair of split skinny jeans.

yet like a yummy cup of grass jelly soyabean milk.

i dunno why, cos i was happy it was over, but then i was a bit =/ cos my A for math has flown away!!!!

like a butterfly, like an aeroplane, like superman, like all things flyable!!

basically i revised all the way till differentiation then no time

but i thought like never mind cos it's the last topic we did and it should still be fresh in my memory but nooooo in the end everything i revised, all the previous topics, they just like PUSHEDD all the differentiation i knew out of my brain.

like how you are in a lift and the alarm goes off cos you exceed the weight limit so the fattest guy must go out.

HAHAHAHHA omg i swear similes are so fun so fun right see i told you.

anwanw, so yah

they asked like, 15m worth of differentiation qsns i didnt know how to do i minus! all!! D:

then yah i counted those i never do/ sure do wrong/ did wrong, it's like, 24 marks.

if by some miracle my other mistakes are like worth only 6 marks i will still get my A.

otherwise i really really reallyyyy hope i get a B which currently is highly what i'll be getting.

omg if i get lower than B for math i can go and die.

but yeah hope so lah. :)

and, oh ya i was also happy when i came home today cos, i decided to download amsn!

i googled like, the best msn for mac cos the one i used previously had sucked,

like many many vacuums.

a lot of features missing plus i'd have to use my mum's windows comp to check offline msgs. anw i thought i was happy but i was wrong cos it still sucks a bit NOTHING BEATS WINDOWS LIVE MESSENGER!! :(

but yeah,

the scrolling is lag,

i cant turn off the sound alert,

and,

it is very pretentious!

hahaaha heres why.

i was on the phone with merv then i asked him to type me smth so he can hear the alert tone which is super irritating and rings twice,

so he nudged me and i was like 'what is this..' when i read,

cos it didnt say 'mervyn has sent you a nudge.' like how normal msn does.

it said:

mervyn requests your attention!

like with the exclamation mark somemore also!!

and request.

HAHA omg i hate that word it is so trying to be atas.

i think words with q inside are all a bit fake sophistication.

but haha still it was funny though, i laughed like mad.

and i should be thankful cos it's still overally betterrr! :)

so in the same way, i should be thankful for promos too i guess!

He saw me through it and He's in control so i'll be fine cos i know i'm in good hands. :)

no the best hands ever actually.

yup, i love You so much. X)

so anw i think i am not gonna slack off tmr.

i will draw! :D

and do my I&R.

yay cant wait.

so getting an A for art.

PS MY HOUSE IS INFESTED WITH LIZARDS AUGHHH it is breeding lizards

like a jungle

or something

i just went out to throw rubbish and there was one that slithered away from the kitchen light as soon as i approached it,

then when i went to the sink there was another one!!!! D: D: D:

lizards are so disgusting.

like solidified puke that can move. :(

2009-09-25T21:06:00.010+08:00

yesterday

after the storm,

i looked for the perfect spot,

the one where i could get

the best view of the rainbow.

when i found it,

i took out my pocket knife,

and cut the rainbow out nicely from the sky.

then very carefully,

i stored it in my heart. :D

i'm still figuring out how to duplicate rainbows though. O.o

but when i do,

i promise you you'll get one okay!

cos i see you're in a storm now,

but everyone goes through storms,

and i can't stop the rain,

but i can share my umbrella with you, even if it means soaking a shoulder.

and when it does stop,

i'll give you your rainbow, fresh out of my heart.

where i stored in brightener. :D

so it's extra radiant.

and no you wont keep it in your pocket, or in your wallet where no one can see it,
no way manzzz.

i'll flip it over to a U-shape, and you'll wear it,

right on your lips.

where everyone can see and be so amazed. :)

and if the next storm washes that rainbow away, dont worry ok, cos i'll have plenty more where that came from by then! ;)

so dont be afraid,

but rather,

hang in every storm alright?

lift your head up high, and fight the raindrops that are oh so trying to bring you down.

and have faith,

that i'll surely give you a rainbow of hope when it stops.

2009-09-18T22:35:00.007+08:00

Live for Jesus, and you'll live for eternity.

Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later.
- Romans 8:18.

It seems there are two kinds of people in this world: those who have an eternal perspective
and those who are preoccupied with the present.

haha yay. i am a comforted girl.

i was just thinking about how studies shouldnt take priority over God during exam periods cos He's the reason why we are even alive and sitting for exams then i was wondering why i'm studying, why some people study, and lalala i got this from devotion ZZzzZZz. :D

Soooo! who are you studying for today?
yourself? your parents? your friends? your gf/bf/someone you like? your teacher? your favourite singer???!?!!

no actually who are you living for today??

wellzzzzzzz. :D
if im not wrong i cant be here on earth to live for myself, cos if everyone thought life was about themselves we'll all die of heartlessness.
then if life was an emoticon spam we'll see many sad faces and many angry faces and no smiley faces!!! D:

:( >:( ~~:) :D~~

boohoo, ugly.

and if i'm living for other people, well,
people disappoint.
they're not perfect. we're not perfect i'm not perfect.
btw i hope you've never abandoned a friend in your life thats not nice!

and ok even if im living for you, a human, and you for me, another human, and we promise with a secret handshake and a 5-page contract and a pinky promise that we'll never disappoint one another ever EVERZZZXSZSX,
why do you wanna live for someone who's just plain human just like you, you deserve to live for so much more, so much better, for the greatest thing on earth gosh dont you want that??

sometimes i feel so cool knowing that i'm living for the greatest greatest humongousest giganticest biggest largest epicest megaestttttt thing i could possibly be living for. :D
[and you can too, except i dunno how to make you make that choice. ?(]

oh well study hard people!

2009-09-16T18:31:00.004+08:00

btw.
my email is what the caifan auntie in cedar called me when she tried to read my nametag.
i laughed like crazy.

2009-09-10T16:17:00.005+08:00

I HAVE,
A BAD HABIT.

i am careless shitz.
i leave things around like freeee.
omgomg i swear it's totally by the grace of God everytime i manage to find it back.
like 95% of the time i lose things i find back.

and really i think i literally mean 95 cos i think i have left things behind at least a 100 times before.

the most valuable thing to me i'd ever lost for good was a pencil case in like sec 3.
yah i'll remember that for life.
i'd really rather not talk about it cos it was srsly filled with 340598 things i treasured.
yah then the rest of the few other things i'd lost are quite useless stuff.

i think it's crazy how i've never lost a wallet or a phone before.
i leave them around sometimes [more my phone than my wallet, so i leave behind my phone more often], but every single time i happen to remember where i'd left it, or someone returned to me.

i dunno how i can lose until so many times and still not be more careful.

i think i should like properly lose a phone or wallet for good one day then i'll learn a lesson.

ok i totally didnt mean that duh. :D
but i think the times where i find back by grace should be good enough warnings already i dunno why i am still so careless goshshshhshhzsxzxzxsxxxsszzzzzz.

so yeah i i am herre to write this cos i just realised i left my math at jedi's house.
HAHA you know last time like during hols or what i always go her house then i remember everytime i leave she will "you sure leave smth behind one you better check!!"
and most of the time i really do, and when she forgets to say, sometimes i'll realise only when i get home.

haha but nowadays i better already loh.
but thats cos i usually only go for tuition. and i only put my stuff on her table.
so got like 1m square radius only, close enough to see.

but yeah, nice to have friends because sometimes when i leave things behind at school i have friends to pick up my wallet for me at the canteen table and say "you dont want alr ah!!"

yay.
so dont hate people.
they help you find things.

but anyway,
i think i am just like naturally careless, no matter how hard i try sometimes.
and i think it's because my brain has too much rubbish. -.^
like no no bad connotations here but just that i drift into retard mode at the most spasmic of times and i like daydream in my own little world.

like srsly, cos it's either that or my possessions secretly can fly and they dont tell me. :0

how ah,
i think i should like, tattoo a checklist on my hand or smth.

2009-09-09T20:39:00.004+08:00

ok i just had to come here and write this down cos i was listening to delirious?'s history maker and martin smith said like some of the coolest stuff ever.

i last heard this song like super long ago and i never really concentrated during the talking part i think,
i might have even skipped song when it came to the talking,
but anyway somehow this time i listened and it made me smile omg he is so cool beans!! :D

"And you know what, i've realised,
and i'm still realising over the years,

to be a history maker,
you know it's very little about doing this.

you know it's everything,
about what's going on inside here.

in psalm 24 it says,
he who has clean hands and a pure heart,
he will ascend into the hill of the Lord.

you know being a history maker,
is all about the choices you make,
not about the songs you sing,

it's about staying married to the person you promised to be with,

it's about honouring your friends before yourself,

and it's about walking humbly,
before the king of kings."

2009-09-06T00:54:00.002+08:00

i like the nlt version, cos it adds in one more adverb.

"work hard and cheerfully at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people." - colossians 3:23.

this is crazy, i cant believe everything's passing by so fast, but i really gotta suck it all up and focusssss for the next [OMG ONLY] 2+ weeks.

i finally just finished my art hw here so no touching you mr mac, till october!

where i will blog properly.

and go to E's birthday party! :)

and today i am happy cos i went out with jedi!

to get studio coloured pencils.

damn ex. i am gonna protect them with my life i swear.

i remember how there was this time i bought breadtalk porkfloss bun for jedi and me for dinner, while waiting for her at city hall.

we were going cedar funfair dance prac i think. yah anw we were both damn hungry never eat dinner.

so anw i went to the toilet and i hung the bread plastic bag first on the hook and i was gonna hang my handbag over it but then the plastic bag slipped off,

SO I DROPPED MY HANDBAG TO SAVE THE BREAD.

ON THE TOILET FLOOR.

so if i were to analogise,

this new box of coloured pencils is the new porkfloss bun of my life.

see you guys after promos!

2009-08-30T00:25:00.003+08:00

don't awaken love,
till it desires a gift from God when it comes.
patience till it does,
but in the meantime,
God's more than enough.

:)

2009-08-28T20:07:00.006+08:00

i just got home, i was gonna shower but mummy cut mango for me so i shall eat first.
and blog.

it's been a crazy week, and i slept like super little i dunno how i survived. :(
missed out some stuff i wanted to say like, 2 posts ago. haha.
like how i watched up with jediiiiii <3
HAHA i love russell and doug.
and i hid under your porch because i love you.

and one of the weeks we bought joel transformers watch for his birthday, HAHA. it was super funny.
and omg sooper long ago but thanks for buying me lunch for my birthday!!!!! hahaha. come church soon please. :(

and i dunno what else i missed out man, OH YA.

HAHAHHA.

kk normally i dont really talk about doing well cos my results fluctuate but i wanna say this cos it's chineseeee haha!!
laoshi gave me a highlighter for getting highest in class for chinese CTs.
she forgot to take out the price tag then tessa saw it was $0.90!!!
and she laughed like crazy but never mind i am proud of it!
it is damn ugly also but never mind!!

so yeah, this week is just like retarded i feel like i had no time everyday srsly.
but it's ok i'm spending this long weekend studying like mad.

on a lighter note!
i am excited to start on art!! XD
vivien and i are gonna go get stuff from art friend and get books from nat library on tues yay. :)

here's what inspired me by the way! XD

i'll show you my sketchbook if i like! XD
depends on your face.
and my mood.

and oh you must be cool enough. :D

maybe if i feel like it i'll talk about this week like tmr or smth, dont feel like it now, gonna shower bye.

2009-08-25T21:03:00.006+08:00

wahlao, they should seriously stop putting homework online, lectures online everything.

it's eating into my computer boycotting plan and i dont like it!*arms akimbo and frowns*

oh well but at least i am not going online, i have enough self-control to not stretch the limit that is internet.

so that is good at least cos msn wastes the most of my time when i play on the comp anyway. blogging not really, unless got photos, though it really shouldnt be an excuse for me to even be here anw omg why am i here oh right cos i am dying reading the lit moodle assignment.

because i kind of dont understand since i stopped reading at book 2. die i need to reread my wuthering heightsss. :(

ok but anw i should go back to it, go on nette dont be irritating.

p.s. on the brighter side of thingssss, at least i am a shaker fries thursday!! :D

2009-08-22T21:36:00.008+08:00

I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!

BEAMSSSS.

XDDDD

i successfully boycotted computer for the entire week. except wednesday, when i used the comp to study art.

other than that, i never touched it since monday.

and anyway if you didnt know i basically decided to start a new computer boycotting plan on sunday.

i told myself not to use from now on and i can only use on weekends.

i think i might change it to saturday only actually. :o

so yeah i've got a million and one things to talk about cos i havent eventblogged in dunno how many weeks.

this can go and be like the previous 2-mths-worth-of-stuff post.

ok i am just gonna anyhow do this whatever i am not going in order again.

and lesser photos. HAHA. yes.

ohh service learning photoss haha!

on our way to alife.

hahaha look at fahimah with her hair down so cute.

OMG HAHAHA HOW ABOUT MR RAJA IS EVEN CUTER HAHA!!!

HE WEAR SUNGLASSES ACT COOL HAHAHA.

OP TALK!

hahahha it was super fun omg laugh like mad. XD

and ohya that was the day ms chan officially left also.

A MILLION,

SAD FACES.

then she gave us all each a book, and she must have spent a lot.

but! it was really cool stuff, though i didnt really believe in some of the self-belief concepts but other than that i thought it was definitely the best farewell present she couldve given us, awesummmm book.

took photos but havent gotten yet.

ANYWAY.

WHY DO THE GOOD TEACHERS ALWAYS LEAVE???????? :( :(

then one sunday after lunch, gwen, joel lee and i went to shar's house and i studied a bit of chem.

yes. as you can see.

totally studying please.

completely not using the phone at all.

this is gertrude making me dance the hannah montana dance with her.

i love you girlsssss :)

shaunald's guitar concert!

us! :)

regina, cassandra, marcus, me, shaunald, nat.

i am angry with nat.

he tell shaunald's mum i pon school.

traitor ttm.

uncle ben took this haha nice right!

then after the concert we went up to the bridge to see starssss and take photossss :)

nat you have no biceps cos you are a traitor.

omg why i jump.

shaunald you look like a flying penguin or smth v gay HAHA but okok still love ya friend. ;D

then cos i drank marcus' sprite on an empty stomach before i ate, i died after the concert freakin gastricked ttm but everyone was being super sweet, like shaunald and cassandra's parents damn nice they drove to petrol station to make shau and marcus buy yogurt milk for me, thanks you guys like :) :) :)

and!

haha.

jowell took a polaroid of me and he captioned it and put on fb, it's super cool i show you!

"You are so young, so feel alive

And one day you will live on your own;"

so thinking man right? i likeeee. XD

though i think the lyrics are from a song talking about a girl who takes drugs whose life is super screwed but i shall pretend i dont know anything.

so anyway i shall end off soon.

friday!! XD

extended chapel for cmw was awesome the dance was WHOAHOAAAAA I LOVE MEITING SHE IS CRAZILY AWESOME.

and i think she's doing an awesome job being one of the best testimonies for God i've ever seen so, :).

then learning fest 09s05 taught sushi making!! XD

super fun pleaseee hahaa.

then after that doyong was my best friend and we went to the ice cream making thing HAHAHA OMG IT WAS SUPER FREAKIN FUN!!!

spamming salt and shaking ziplocs till our fingers hurt from freezing is fun and frozen milk tastes funky.

then we went to the guitar workshop to play songs for fun till he had to leave for pw meeting.

and cos it was gg's class, and i am a very good friend, i helped gg count money later cos he is learning fest rep!!

yah then i went to find larissa and we went cathay with some of her friends to eat so we could go back for collge day tgt. haha college day was beyond boring wanted to die.

but yay i left early for joseph chean's workshop!

yay it was yesterday and today.

i went with rachel gosh it was awesumzzz!!! XD

so yeapp im hairpee, see you all next saturday yozszxx. XD XD

2009-08-13T01:37:00.002+08:00

HAHA zehzeh is damn funny.

im studying the rubber tree chapter for chinese now and she say, she and her classmates last time never do their chinese homework ever.

and this is what they say to their teacher:

"lao shi! wo men bu ke yi zuo hua wen gong ke, yin wei,

wo men you PW!

ni yao ming bai lao shi!"

2009-08-11T21:02:00.002+08:00

omgomg! haha!!

okok i have like 23454kg of work to complete now but i really really need to come here and exclaim because i just made the discovery of my life!

..i finally figured out how to enlarge windows on my mac!!!!!!

: D!!!

HAHAAHHA AUGH i am so amused YES omg finally, no more super tiny words on my word docs.

ok bye.

2009-08-08T18:58:00.002+08:00

it's not how hard you fall, even if you think no one's fallen as hard as you before.

it's whether you pick yourself up.