Friday, September 21, 2007 5:17 PM
ok here's a belated WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA to myself.
HAHA.
no wait got some more.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
have you ever been on a bus, ALONE, and then suddenly you think of or see something completely hilarious, but you cannot laugh??
simply because you cannot, simply because you are by yourself on a public transport, simply because there are other people around you????
that happens to me ALL the time can.
saw smth freaking funny from the bus on the road today!
i tell you ah!
i bet all those people in the bus who saw also want to laugh can!
see their faces can tell.
but for the same reasons as me, they also stifled their laughs.
why like that!
i wished we all never got embarrassed and had a culture where it was normal to talk to strangers. then me and all those people in the bus who saw, can just laugh together!
and then we would all suddenly be good friends and every once in a while have gatherings at the serangoon mrt sidewalk to laugh at random stupid people together.
BUT NOOO..
instead, we all live in a society where everything is embarrassing and if i laughed on that bus, everyone would give me a 'you are a dufus' face.
and plus if i laughed i would be totally breaking the endless silence in that bus.
i think the world needs a perspective makeover.
oh and yesterday, mrs serene ng died.
i quite stupid though when ouyang announced i was like 'who in the world is that?'
but i really really really pity her kids can.
BUT because i had no direct nor indirect connections with her, when we went back to class i just had this inability to feel grief, much less the pity i did a few minutes before during the announcement.
and plus the whole of 3p i think i everyone dunno her one, so the atmosphere in class was different. it wasnt sad at all. just silence and poker faces.
then.
hannah ravin and i started to like talk and laugh.
after a while i went toilet and i asked charlotte joey and pei, 'is it bad to laugh cos mrs ng died? like damn insensitive of me hannah and ravin?'
and they said no anw whole class dunno her.
then i thought actually, yah hor!
i feel bad for what!
i dont even have any contact with her, spoken to her in my life, and plus the people i'm laughing in front of are my never-talk-to-her-before counterparts!
i mean of course i wouldnt laugh in front of like, 3S.
so i thought about it. and realised.
if i wanna feel sad hor.
it would have to be someone i know personally who died.
like my ahgong or my favourite bolster.
not someone i dont even have any idea what she looks like.
maybe you would say, i very bad, maybe you would say, oh we're both from the same school, so i need to be more sensitive and feel sad.
OH, so everyone lives on the same earth, everyday confirm someone die so i must grieve and mourn everyday lah!
wahlao i sound so mean.
but seriously, i dont know her, so my life goes on.
agree? it doesnt matter whether she's from my school or living in my block or something, dont know means dont know fullstop.
like how if i'm eating in the canteen or eating in the toilet, i'm still eating there's no difference!
yesterday, an ant died in some remote corner of my house.
i didnt know it personally but it lives in the same house as me.
therefore i should go moan and grieve for it now.
so bye. annette is off to cry hysterically and build an ant tomb .
nono maybe about 23896469.
because that is the estimated number of ants that have died in my 9-year-old house.
nette posted it up.
