Go play in a microwave, Susie.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010 8:53 PM

is it a really that much of crime to just simply change your mind?

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Saturday, April 17, 2010 8:27 PM

thanks everyone who tried to make me feel better haha you know who you are i love you X)

i opened my eyes, and it was all the same.
this world.
and it's not still moving along so i need to hurry and catch up and ask them to 'wait for me!!!' hahaha harvinnnn. ;)

i cant make the world spin backward,
or make the sun rise slower.
but that's the God part, and He's showing me He's faithful, and He never changes.

but i can choose.
to have faith or not.
and that's the human part.
it's a bit more difficult, even though it makes so much sense, but how about i am going to show i can.

did i make the earth or the sun or every star in the sky?
if not then why should i say the sun's not gonna rise tomorrow, if it has been, since the beginning of time?

i have been so ridiculous, and the sun is totally gonna rise tomorrow friends. ;D

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where's your treasure, where's your hope, if you get the world and lose your soul?

i know You can't stop the rain.
ok maybe You can and will sometimes but if it happens everytime, i'm gonna take You for granted. and i dont want that either.

he's been telling me a lot of stupid things, and it's damn irritating cos i want my best to guard my heart, and it's difficult shutting it all off.

i dont want him to ask me, if i were to say that i give my You the glory, does that mean Your glory worth a pathetic C?

i dont want him to tell me that i shouldnt have come here.

i dont want him to make me angry at my principal. (but after what i heard, i'm srsly disappointed and i've like lost all respect for her. sue me for this, wtv. freakin no integrity.)

i dont want him to tell me that effort is useless, and if i put my best effort like say into art, and totally expect an A, i will still end up with a C and there's no more point in effort.

i dont want him to ask me how come You can make others succeed but not me?

i dont want him to tell me that fell in the rain, all alone without an umbrella, without a jacket, without anyone.

in jesus name, make him go away?

because i know You are holding me through the storm.
and it hurts You as much, to see me sad.
and You can see every tear even though they fade behind the raindrops.

and because You are holding me, i think,
i should start walking.
like pick myself up, even though i've fallen down in the stupid rain, and

just

continue

walking.

cos as long as i move, i'll have a chance of reaching shelter.

You dont want me to stay on the ground and feel sorry for myself, thinking i didnt deserve this.
because that way, there is ZERO chance i'll get out of the rain.

whether i ever reach shelter or not, whether you stop the rain before i get out of it, however long i end up walking in the rain, more importantly, You just want me to get up and start walking right?

His hand is there nette please take it,
get up,

and

start
walking.
He'll be there by your side.

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Tuesday, April 13, 2010 7:59 PM

i wish i was a giraffe.

apart from the fact that i have always felt they are super cute,
i just found out today that giraffes sleep an avg of 1.9 hours a day.
usually 10mins-2hrs within a 24-hour period.

and because sleep is such a waste of time.......

omg, if i was a giraffe, i probably wouldve finished jc by the time i was like 5 yrs old pls.
cos of all the extra time.
and i wont ever embarrassingly fall asleep in art theory class!! D:
hahaahhaa.

but then i guess,
it's not about whether i need a lot of sleep or really little sleep.

what matters is that i have a God who neverrrr sleeps.
and He's there watching over me day and night. X)

"He will not let you stumble; the One who watches over you will not slumber."
- Psalm 121:3

so yes everybody.
gna spam art now.
psalm 121:1-2.
LET'S DO THIS THINGGG!!!

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Saturday, April 10, 2010 7:51 PM

littering my shore.

i guess all we want, is to be happy.

and to have the strength to live out everyday to the maximummmm.

and to radiate sunflowers and rainbows and glitter.

i dunno if my metaphors are like apt enough cos sunflowers and rainbows fade away, but glitter doesnt stop shining right???

aiya dont care, i am keeping it there, i like glitter. :P
ok actually i dont think i like glitter that much, but i like like, the WORD glitter.
it sounds very very pretty.
whoever came up with that word is a genius. (Y)
it has to be coined right, cos i dont think think there was glitter when God first created stuff.

but YAH ANYWAYY, let's say it does.

but you know what, i believe on days when we lose our sparkle, we can still pick ourselves up, if we start with a smile.

cos smiling releases endorphins, i am not bluffing you go and check internet!
so yah we dont have to be happy to smile, we can smile to be happy :D

and a prayer.

quite straightforward i guess, the power of prayer's often underestimated.
and i guess we all need inner strength, and there's no other source of it. X)

and like, some love.

and cos joy's all about giving love, not about receiving it.
instead of waiting for someone to make you smile, go make someone smile and i am pretty sure you get a smile too.

so yah.
smile, pray, love.
tadah instant recipe for hope for the day. XD

everyday's a spiritual battle..
and I decide who wins.

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Sunday, April 04, 2010 7:20 AM

it's like 7am or smth now. haha.
i accidentally fell asleep ard 8pm yesterday, woke up super early.

anyway it's been such a long time now!!!

looking back, the past 40 days have been a fight, a maze, a test...
BUT it's was also a victory, and an experience of His faithfulness to me, because of a 101% surrender. :)

so many things, he put in place.
little things/ big things that i felt were impossible the next day, he made possible.
only because i let tomorrow worry for itself.
if God can put the stars in place in the sky,
he can put my life in place.

and whatever i have, i know He's given me, and all that i've given Him, i'm only giving back.
life concert was about Jesus.
so's good friday and easter. :)

i am sooo gonna miss the entire band tooooo D:
and everyone who's made the journey amazing for me srsly hahhahahah we never fail to have fun in the midst of the work.
i'm so proud of all you guys i cant believe we made it through!! X)
but i guess it was all with strength from our Father whom with we have pleased :)
Neh 8:10 "...for the joy of the Lord is your strength."

and no i think i cannot fully describe how amazing it's all been, what i've said so far like, totally doesnt do my God enough justice man!! ahahaha.
but i guess i could go on forever also, and you wont be able to fully understand it also cos it's not you.
so i shall just keep it an awesome secret between me and Him.

oh btw, if you think you've secrets no one knows, He does.
and if you think no one understands, He does, ;)

but yeah, life concert was like whoa until cannot already i think.
i was a bit doubtful and scared of alter call, but He's really proved to us how powerful He is.

I've a God who can move mountains, and a God who can move hearts.

i dont think they decided to believe cos of our work, but because of God's work in us.
and i dont think they saw God cos they saw us, but because they saw God in us.

and yay cos so many people told me how the presence of God was so strong i know He was there, winning hearts over and nehnehnipoopoo-ing the devil.
HAHA i got no other word, i would feel like that.

but anw!
let's all pray for everyone who gave their lives to jesus during extended chapel and life concert. they're in for good stuff haha.

so yeah it's been an awesome easter week and yay for easter service later, i didnt go church last week cos of full-dress rehearsal. haha.

oh and i dunno how i got through BTs but i did, so whatever grades i'm just gonna be thankful cos i worked my butt off.

but for now!
it's back to the books, the art room, and the studio.
i'm gonna do my best at all i'm doing. :)
so, i probably wont be here for a long time again hahaha see you allllzzzzz! X)

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