God really spoke to me like, just.
i remember how he used to hang out with me a lot cos my sis had primary school but i came home v early after kindergarten.
like he'll teach me weird hokkien songs like there was one about a bang4, like mosquito.
damn cute one then like i sing to my relatives and they all laugh at me (but i had some decent applause too k i think ahahha).
and he'll take the top/bottom of the loaf of the bread everytime (cos my mum'll throw them away anw), and let me throw it down 10 storeys from the window, and then we'll watch as the birds eat it.
so cool pls, i think killer litter was invented about like a few years after that so we cannot do it now, people will complain.
and then he always had some rattan fan which he'd rather use than the electric one.
and when we go out he'll wear some v cute tomhat.
HAHA and he always bought youtiao + kopi-o from the market back home, and my ahma will scold him cos it's damn unhealthy (socute pls).
and there was once i wanted to try so he let me, and i was about 6.
then my ahma scolded him again he let me drink coffee at the age of 6 hahahahaha.
and he got like foc massages from me cos he'll lie on his back and make me run around on his back. cant believe i rmbed that.
and he will go out with my ahma and they will buy pyjamas for meeeeeee.
he was the first person i'd ever lost.
i cried like mad, and i was just 8. and i never knew what dying was cos i hadnt lived for very long anyway.
but basically i learnt that the death of someone was never seeing him forever.
which is a pretty damn long time, if you think about it.
i dunno why i suddenly thought of all that, but then i started crying, cos,
i didnt know if he's in heaven or not.
and chances are, he's not. :(
i dont really know about my plans for the future right now, (haha actually it's quite screwed just talked to jasper about it)
but i do know i wanna be part of allowing a kid grow up knowing their dead granddad's spending eternity with God.
;D
