8:49 AM
"One thing i have desired of the Lord,That i will seek:
That i may dwell in the house of the Lord
All the days of my life,
to behold the beauty of the Lord,
and to inquire in His temple.
For in the time of trouble
He shall hide me in His pavillion;
In the secret place of His tabernacle
He shall hide me;
He shall set me high upon a rock."
- Psalm 27:14. ;)
haha first time in dunno how many ages since i've last blogged huh.
probably gonna be the last in dunno how many ages till i blog again also haha.
cos school's starting to get mad.
and also cos monday is first day of easter week/life con 40 days prayer and fast!
i'm fasting msn/fb/blogger so hahhha not rly gonna touch my comp for 40 days baby.
so anyway!
i'll try to recall like the past 2 weeks or smth.
went by really fast super tiring.
oh on the tues before cny the art people we went to rj and hci to look at their A level stuff it was AMAZINGGG omg!!!
like the really good ones.
quite motivated i wanna be amazing too haha.
met joanne and val at rj yay! X)
VALERIE LOHH I MISS YOU AND TIFF CAN WE PLS MEET SOON MUST PASS YALL YOUR SUPER BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENTS ALSO WHY WE ALL SO BUSY :( :(
i miss many people like my entire 4P, cos caroline just uploaded on fb some retarded photos from sec4 and i totally started to miss the old stupid days of dumbness.
i miss rach too she's off in cebu in some prison now HAHA.
many people lah actually sigh =/
but anw basically that week it was kinda just mad cny performance rehearsing but it was really really fun and the performance turned out awesome so yay! :D
i prayed a lot the week and yay to God for helping me out :)
had lunch with larissa yay then i think i went home and ko hahaha.
AND. i learnt that hairspray totally doesnt work on my hair cos it's too heavy and thick and soft hahaha but yeah then i had cui hair into the next day man.
..WHICH WAS BADMINTON! XD
with che'rie, shaunald, nat and marcus.
bad hair day but the fun outweigh so overall good day hahahahah i love you guys.
then the wholeeeeee cny of going to a million houses and everything hahahaha tiring but fun but i had completely no time to do my hw.
which explained staying up the past few days from tues night onwards.
like wed got cca, thurs got tuition, all come back to late sigh.
i'm so glad i've this weekend after that pretty short week otherwise i'll just die.
gonna study already!! bt in like 2 weeks manz.
haha oh later me vivien and jasper gonna visit ms chan haha!
edit:
omg i realised i need to write this so i can remember!
totally slipped my mind.
cos last thurs, cny full dress rehearsal was supposed to end damn late, and if that happened i wouldnt be able to go for tuition, which means i would have to go sat class, which means i wont be able to play badminton!!
and i only realised on wed and i felt super shit like everything's ruined cos it was 90% chance cannot go.
but i prayed then thu morning i felt this peace like i wasnt worried at all strangely!!
so i thought like ok God i'm sure this peace is from You so i'll just put the day in your hands, can make it for tuition or not up to you.
and in the end rehearsal ended at 7 omg even the teacher say it's the earliest full dress ever ended its always 9!
so yeah so cool. God can make miracles happen isnt he amazing! ;)
anw ms chan's house was awesome just now haha and she baked banana bread for us!!
and she has the best food and and best weird but super yum cookies like champagne grape cookies, jap potato cookies that were purple and osmanthus lotus seed cookies HAHAHA she is so cool. her husband also.
the circle thing to walk through lol.
BUT ANYWAYZSZZ.
SEE YOU ALL IN 40 DAYS KIDS!!
nette posted it up.
Sunday, February 07, 2010 1:37 AM
be Thou my vision oh Lord of my heartnaught be all else to be save that Thou art
Thou my best thought by day or by night
Waking or sleeping thy presence my light.
i guess sometimes worship alone is the best cos i know for sure He hears me.
it's difficult but i'm just gonna keep my focus on you and you're gonna give me the strength.
i freaking dunno what i'm doing anymore everyday's a blur but i guess that's why i need to find my peace and joy in you, over and over, day by day.
cos regret looks back, worry looks around, but faith looks up.
i wanna look up and live for you and not for myself, not for my circumstances.
i wanna smile everyday, i wanna live my life so full everyday because i dont invest in the day itself but in what lasts forever.
ps,
thanks, for this week, thank you so much.
damn long year still to come and i dunno why i'm feeling scared.
buttt,
i'm good enough cos you say so and i believe you, every word you say, i'm gonna believe it for life. ok? i promise you, i wont ever let you go i love you.
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Tuesday, February 02, 2010 6:17 PM
thank you cheezels.
you have once again not let me down i am feeling better now.
ok this just made me think of that day i was down cos everyone was being down then i was on my way home and i decided to buy myself a kinderjoy to cheer myself up, but i bought it and when i ate it IT WAS FREAKIN LAOHONG!!! D: D:
so i v sad, like total fail self-cheer up. plus i also wanted to buy a mogu but the mama shop didnt have zzzz.
but if im not wrong i a bit happy from opening the surprise toy so, good enough lah i guess. super cheap thrill right, omg.
anw its been tiring,
i lazy to categorise,
i foresee tangent jumping.
forgiving is tough, but ive realised theres degrees of difficulty even within itself.it's hard to forgive your enemy,
but even harder to forgive your friends' enemies,
but the hardest to forgive, is probably yourself.
i am zomgttm addicted to the school's chayedan HAHA jasper ate 6 that day crazy guy hahahha.
i hate showing it if im sad when im around people.
if i tell you, i'll probably share you as a person like, 1 on 1 conversation.
i am so not gonna be a wet blanket i'll brace myself and smile cos i dont believe anyone deserves shit from me just cos im feeling like shit.
cos thats not fair the world doesnt revolve around the person with problems.
even if i share it with you, i'll definitely not vent it on you. it's not right.
i think it sucks most when people start taking you for granted.
or when they start doubting your intentions.
i dont know if i've been trying to lie to myself this whole time but i dno i think all i've been doing is probably just praying that this is still like it used to be, but im not sure now i dunno why it just isnt, on so many levels.
and it's like im trying and you're not.
but who am i to say that anw right wtv i'm just gonna continue praying i'm not giving up.
sigh it's been a crazy january, and it's only the first month of the year. =/
to see the strongest person youve ever known (or so you thought) cry for the first time since you've known her 7 years ago and feeling like she's weaker than you when you'd always looked up to her valor.
it hurts and it's scary, and i was so close to crying with you that day but i told myself cannotttt, because i really wanted to be, for once, what you'd always been for me.
and the least i could do was not cry.
but i'm really glad i prayed with you, because i know that He'll never be too weak ever, even if i do or you do.
then you see the happiest most fun loving person you know feel down, and it's so scary because that's not right.
to see bad things happen to good people.
and good things happen to bad people.
to see the good people not being able to get out of their bad situation and all you can do is sympathise and say shit which you're not even sure works.
and then people leaving without even say goodbye like, ?!?!?dfsmgdklsf?!??
but ah sigh i'm pretty much done i guess, i really badly need some quiet time right now goodbye. =/
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