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Wednesday, December 30, 2009 2:10 AM

"haha annette why do your clouds have tails?"

questionable questions.

i dont know sometimes but You never dont know.

but then again i'm dust and You're everlasting.

no one can measure the depths of His understanding.

a little boy who opened his arms to receive a hug,

maybe one day when he gets older

he'll open his heart to receive Jesus Christ. :)

many things we'll never know.

many things we can pray about.

a little girl who made sure she kept her promise to me.

running, it's so synonymised with urgency.

i dunno what you're rushing about but check its worth again cos if you win the rat race, you're still gonna be a rat.

just like the rat that decided to towards something better than the finishing line.

i'm sure the latter secretly won.

the piece of paper she gave me,

it's a little crumpled and not pasted down perfectly, kiamchye in a lot of ways haha, but

it moved me on the inside.

she ran for the prize that cant be seen.

i wanna do that too.

then the other little girl who was so serious painting, who did everything the right colour, when it was useless cos everyone else did it anyhow.

dramatic irony is always funny.

the kind of heh laughter, you know, when you laugh at what you used to be.

like in kindergarten when i made sure i coloured my pictures correctly and i'd scold my friend cos he coloured people blue.

why do we make ourselves miserable over other people's flaws, cos really, that's not how He sees me.

He see my imperfections but He doesnt focus on them.

He just enjoys me for who i am, living in His love, having fun in His love.

let's not take the fun out of doing what we love, i bet He loves the blue people and the rainbow-coloured mountain caps.

the fireworks!!! :D

set off 10m away from us.

outburst of fake stars.

many want to reach the top,

celebrate life with a bang,

to burn out bright with success

and for a moment they might seem a lot a lot brighter than the stars in the heavens,

but the man who loves his life will lose it,

and just when they think they've got it all, they just disappear into the dark blue sky, never to shine again.

some sparks fight to shine for longer before dying out, but what's the use for lasting that half a second longer really.

i'd rather be a real star that shines forever and ever in the palm of His hand.

i dont want a man-made life.

things to keep, things to touch and go.

i love how i bet you cant understand half of what im writing now. ;)

grinning and bearing it.

smiling and singing.

the last pillow of comfort He brought to me,

they dont have the mental capacity to say anything but i know they'll be saved as long as they're loved.

a lot more i can ask.

a lot more i dont know.

but then again like i said, no one can measure the depths of His understanding.

and if His brain's that big i'm sure so is His heart.

and i saw it right there and then, yearning so desperately for China.

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tuition in 7 hours.
i'm not tired and i'm dead.
think i slept too much today haha.

facebook.
mission trip photos.
the more i look at them i think i really wanna blog about it now.
i know it's at the oddest of times and the wee-est of hours but i'll sleep after this i promise!

haha i'm gonna squeeze everything it into one post. all He's shown me.
it better be beautiful. ;)

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Friday, December 25, 2009 9:03 PM

merry christmas guys. :)

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Thursday, December 24, 2009 8:18 PM

love's not a feeling.

you're lucky i am not that great with getting insanely angry. after she told me i just like came back and i was controlling my tears.
we were watching tv tgt and i was eating dessert halfway, i left to go to the toilet to cry cos i couldnt tank.

it takes me damn a lot to cry, and you just pissed me off that bad.

but then i started to pray and i felt better.

i know God will make things fine.
maybe it's a lesson learnt for her, but why do people always wanna learn the hard way?

i dont want that to ever happen to me, and i think of all the grace He's given me so far and whoa i feel so thankful now, knowing i've a shepherd who truly truly takes care of me no matter what it takes.
i know it wasnt coincidence but divine intervention, confirm.

let's just follow His rod and staff, His Word and love, and dont stray away ok, cos you know you're gonna hurt yourself.

i think if there's one thing you should keep intact even if you break every other bone in your body, it's your heart.
take care of it, dont anyhow give to people pleaseeee. you dont want them to return it to you broken.

and in the same way dont anyhow take random hearts too and break them like lightsticks.
even if you say you wont, make sure you're really ready cos it's not as easy as it looks to hold onto a heart thats more fragile than glass, yet more precious than gold.

cos if it's not gonna belong to you, it's gonna belong to someone else some day.

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omgomg.
i realise that when you're overseas, you take note of the dates not the days.
so you count each passing day by numbers not words, so you'll know when you're returning back.

i woke up this morning super lost to what day it is.
damn weird feeling. took me till now for thursday to sink in.

WHOOHOO MISSION TRIP WAS AWESUMZZ.
i have it journalled in my book i think i am too lazy to transfer here.
no time also.

oh well, sick. but a lot better than when i first fell sick on the 4th day or smth.
my voice is damn sexy now. ;) ;)

went doctor in the morning i really hope i'm alive and :D for tomorrow cos it's christmas!! X)

i really thank God for landing our butts safely in singapore yesterday, and i can look forward to christmas tmr.
so much drama and scares, but i saw God's loving hand over us as the trip progressed, :).

He gave me this verse to keep in mind before i left for the trip, cos i was going genesis qt.

"Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your very great reward." -Genesis 15:1.

He's shown me what that meant during the trip, and im really thankful. it's one of those things the bible tells you that you cant understand till you experience it. :)

i wanna go back there again.

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Tuesday, December 15, 2009 5:02 PM

me + cheezels + juice + blogger = <3

YESS i have slaved the entire day and i have finally finished packing! :)
so i decided to come here and write me a little farewell post. ;D

oh ya i am honestly kinda scared actually about how to rotate my clothes and wtv cos i srsly anyhow throw in clothes.
haha i srsly have no idea how how i planned so nicely last yr omg.
oh well bible says God will clothe me, no need to worryyy. ;)

and i forgot to take the sweater i borrowed from lingxiang zehzeh last year, when i went over her house last week to get the giant fur trenchcoat zz.
it was like my favourite sweater on the europe trip, mummy made we change and wear a different one halfway i refused but she force me so i change heh.

but nvm now i've charmaine's sweater!
it's thinner but its ok.
thanks char!

cant believe i'm going shanghai tmr alr the week passed by so fastttt.

on friday it was off to sentosa with karina, charmaine and shihan! :)
i almost died halfway HAHA omg i love all of you for saving my life and yay that i didnt die.
then we went to the flea at somerset, haha thanks charmaine you're awesome for helping me bargainnnn hahahaha.

and KARINA YU. guess imma miss you all over again now that you're gone, we still make each other laugh like mad everytime we meet, one day im so going over to melbourne manzz.

AUGH AUGH AUFHGHHGHGHHH I FINISH MY CHEEZELS WHAT THE HECK THAT WAS LIKE 5 MINUTES I SWEAR. D:

then at night i went for sample this and i thought it was awesummmmmm! XD
so proud of everyone who did it, and i'm sure He is too. :)

then saturday was budget lunch with shaunald and marcus!
at the vivo hawker centre hahaha, it was really fun and it's ok cos marcus forgives me. ;)

thanks guys for following me to uniqlo and getting stuck in mad heaps of people, and meeting another MZHing woman i think we are fated with them really.. =/
HAHA marcus i bet you were having fun reading all the japanese.
you guys have fun on your carolling in malaysia!! HAHAHAAHHAHA.

then yesterday i went back to school with theresa just to get the lit text LAWL the girl was damn pissed cos it's super waste time, tsk. ;)

the past 2 days = doing all the christmas shopping and packing and stuffs,
yay ive gotten my christmas dress, and all my christmas cards. feel so prepared YAYY :P
i should srsly start writing them now man, got super a lot.

i really need to go use my remaining time in singapore wisely man, gonna end this haha.

charlene was telling me it's gonna be a good time for me to grow and learn, hehe i think so too X)
so excited, it's my first mission trip. cant wait to spend the next 7 days waiting on Him. :)

ok i shall go nowwww
so long farewell auviderzein[omg i dunnno how to spell] goodbye! X)

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Thursday, December 10, 2009 12:24 PM

LITCHRELLYYYY HAHAHAHA, i think i'm the best surprise victim ever, why am i so dumb?

and naive.
i trust my friends too much but it's a good lohh.
HAHA 2nd time alr, but i srsly didnt expect it ohkay. =/

ok cos yesterday, after going out with heather and the girls to get winter jackets from uncle paul's office [which was fail x10000 but HAHA thanks for orange tea heather love you heh X)], i went to meet charmaine for dinner.

the day before i couldnt decide where to go so she said go to the coffeeshop opposite zhonghua which i thought was kinda weird, but i just decided nvm maybe cos she spasm and wanted to reminisce her secondary school days of eating there so i didnt suspect anything.

then on my way there she said she'll be really late, but i said i had stuff to do anw, so i went there first and bought drink and started writing my chinese testimony for mission trip cos i was half done.

then suddenly i heard "netteee" and i looked up it was char, then someone behind me squeezed my shoulders and i was totally o.O

THEN I TURNED AROUND AND IT WAS KARINA!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHA.
i think everyone stared when i went crazy and screamed.
i think karina laughed most, at my face.
i dont even know what it looked like, but i could feel like was like D=

apparently when i was being super engrossed writing, they had time to like just freakin walk around me stuff and 'nono stand behind her' blah and i didnt even realise. -.-

hahahaha yay then we ate and i bought char a mr greedy cos she'd been looking for one forever and i felt lucky haha.

then we played at the playground. charmaine + the swing = entertainment hahahaha scared of heights.
karina gave me the awesomest present ever, and i've been looking for speakers.
ah, lurveee.
marmite, wear the ugly winter jacket thing to the beach, "she's cute" hahahaa anddd *in a really good australian accent!*LITCHRELLY. X)

i think we all felt like lucky kids, but i kinda knew it was Him up there who was blessing our meeting ttm. :)
hadnt seen the girl in like over a year.
omg yay friday. X)

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Tuesday, December 08, 2009 11:42 PM

sacrifices.

i've realised, if it can be taken away, it's probably not that important. ;)
i've got the good stuff locked up in the safest wallet ever,
and it's called my heart.

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sing like someone's listening.

just had lunch downstairs with zehzeh and sam, i'm (yay) all alone in the house now,
my songs are on,
i'm gonna spend some time here and then go and do my homeworkk hehe.

first i need to talk about the weirdestttt dream i ever had last night it was mad weird i almost died.
but it was really vivid and i hardly get vivid dreams so this is a gem plus i rmb really a lot heh.

yah so somehow there was dance prac, and i dunno why there was even school but there just was ok.
then we were in our dance shirts and tights and we were stretching OUTSIDE the dance studio.
hahahaha i dunno why we never go in.
like the pathetic underground corridor and we were all squished like squids.

then somehow my cedar art people were all in dance, and they were with me.
yes so jedi, chan and cheryl were with me.
i somehow only realised jedi wasnt actually from sa.

and it was all really weird but then somehow we all went to my mama's house.

i asked jedi why she never go her school today.
she said cos she is sick.
i said ohh. (like everything that's happening is damn normal or smth omg)

then we sat on my mama's sofa and i looked ahead and realised her dining room has been converted into a restaurant (!??!?!???) with like many many tables and the room was x10 the size.

maybe this has got to do with me feeling like her food tastes very restauranty everytime i eat.

the tables had napkins on them that looked like spectacle cloths.
some had bowls.

the ceiling was super high like a period drama palace or something.
which is impossible since she lives in a condo 3rd floor.

then jedi's school friends came over to surprise her.
and she was all excited *many screams*

they brought her a cake and present which was weird cos it wasnt even her birthday.
what the heck jedi why do you have friends who go all the way to yishun to a house they dont even know exist to bring you cake and present just cos you were sick for one day and didnt go to school!?!!!!?

then later i had to leave cos larissa msged me to go for practice, like it just started already i needed to be there NOWW.
i panicked like crazy.

then somehow chan and cheryl disappeared, and jedi's not going cos she's sick.

then some weird dude in the house who i dont even know told me i can walk to sa from my mama's house.
i must walk past this back gate thing and like past this giant fountain and everything, and i'll be there alr, very fast.

i said ok and took the lift downstairs and started walking, and the next thing i knew i was lost forever.

i walked around like in a million circles past a million blocks of flats and stuff but i couldnt find the school.

freaking scary D:

WOKE UP.
wanted to immediately get up off my bed and 'continue' walking to school. =/

but yeah that's pretty much it.
haha.

so!
last thurs-sat was mission trip boot camp!
it was really good.

i like retreats.
like you can just take a step back from all the rubbish of the world and focus on God completely.

so yeah, i learnt a lot.
not that comfortable spilling everything, but basically i think everyday God teaches us something to refine us.
we're like really really huge pieces of gold you need a lifetime to polish.

ohoh newfound love for a new found verseeee!!!

"Friendship is reserved for those who fear Him.
With them he shares the secrets of His covenant."
- Psalm 25:14.

pretty no?
thanks to auntie mary hehe.

I AM GOING TO SHARE FLUENTLY IN CHINESE I WILL PRACTISE I WILL.

HAHA on saturday i got home and died for 12 hours it was awesomeeee.
cos the previous night we all slept only 3 hours cos we were making glenn tell us all his ex-gangster stories, interesting like crazy. :D

then yesterday i went out with thad, isaac, reuben and poh to watch couple retreat!
haha i met larissa at cathay. XD

everyone go to cathay basement and buy the scallop on promotion, it is damn good, and super cheap.

after that i ran to raylia's church camp.
it was the first day haha but i only went for dinner and the sermon.
ian was there and so was siying!! hadnt seen her in forever.
HAHAHHA AND ISABEL HAN OMG WE STARTED LAUGHING AT EACH OTHER THE MINUTE WE SAW EACH OTHER. <3

sermon wasnt bad, just that it's kinda what i already know it's what God wants and i believe in it.
haha raylia never tell me the camp was about relationships, but yeah not really applying to me at the moment. =/
but raylia and isabel walked us out when it was over i'll miss you guys i'll go over again another time X)

then i realised how many things i need to buy and how little $ i have.
quite sad.

oh well hha i'll find a way to work it out, like i always do! ;)

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Monday, December 07, 2009 11:37 PM

i was gonna blog, but i am damn hungry nowww.
i am going to sleep.

there is something seriously wrong with me i get hungry every hour after eating.
like i could eat till im full then one hour later i am starving like mad.
it's like puberty part 2 after few years interval =/

maybe cos i exercise more now that it's holidays. oh welll i am going to sleep i come back tomorrow and write. X)

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Wednesday, December 02, 2009 10:28 PM

omgogmogmogmo cannot get into moodle and msn wanna dieee.
i dont even know why i cant get into moodle cos i bet no one else is studying now!! >8/

[Edit: HAHARRR i just realised out of that first word i wrote, only the first 3 letters make sense.]

and ok!
they told me amsn has a bug, and that i should press the report button.
there was an empty box there for me to describe the problem, but i lazy so i just press, but when i did, they said i should describe it.
-.-
so i wrote "CANNOT LOG INNN"

i wonder who actually reads all these, they sure get a lot of vulgarities from people who are forced to describe the problems. =/

ok imma redownload microsoft messenger.
i hope they have a better version by now.
e-buddy for the mo.

but anywaysss! :D shall just blog then. since i cannot check answers.
i'll check another day.

hurhhhmmmz the week.
haha oh on monday, i diarrhoea-ed like v badly so it was unproductive day again, but yay yesterday i got better! X)
but i still had to eat weak people food the whole day. haha, porridgeeee.

but christmas came early for me yesterday whoohoo!!!!!!
HAHA, or a really late birthday, you can put it either wayyyyy lawl lawl. ;D
shaunald neo you are like the best brother from another mother ever yozsxzxzzzzz HAHAHHA.
thanks you and cassandra! X)

then today, i went to eat birthday lunch with jowell, and zehzeh.
we went to ministry of steak at gardens.
apparently some guy who got fired from astons went to open it, just next to astons.
haha he steal all the secret recipess.
"but people will go there over astons cos got aircon" - lynnette lee.

then i cut hair!
my ponytail is puny now.
not that small but compared to my old ponytail it's quite small haha.

boot camp tmr till sat!
dont miss me too much friends.

i should go pack, really. =/

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