Go play in a microwave, Susie.

Thursday, July 30, 2009 3:10 AM

yoga.
painest thing in my life omg.
maybe after braces.
in terms of tolerance/slowly suffering kind of pain.
not the fall down knock ow kind.
aching like freeeeee.

coffee.
[haha, i get caffeine highs! ok i'm gonna try my best to talk perfectly sanely.]

no sleep tonight.
ok lah i slept a few hours from 10-1.
but i still think once in a while i really need nights like this where i can catch up on whatever i didnt do cos i accidentally fell asleep while doing my work the previous days.

the jesus habits. i believe people change.

love the lovable, love the unlovable.
dont tell me anymore who's 'not a nice person', who 'i shouldnt get close to', who you dont like.

well i dont like a lot of people too, no, didnt.
i decided to heck it.
love the sinner, hate the sin.
you know, i wonder if you know that i've been praying for you everyday.

sing.
i wanna sing.
but i've no energy to.
maybe i'll hear a song and pretend i am.
thats what i always do anyway, when i wanna sing guy songs but i cannot cos they have stupid ranges that are too low for me.
guy singers > girl singers i wish i was guy but, ok wait no. yah ok i dont want. haha.

no you didnt, dont lie, but you're awesome.
why would you wanna give away something so good when you can have it for yourself??!?!?!!
HAHAHA ok only wallykenally will understand this.

mangosteen.
omg dont you think it's so cool that it's freakin purple outside and nicely white inside?
like you'll expect it to be purple too like an orange but no it's white.
omg like grapefruits.
they're so cool, like oranges gone wrong.
and i know bananas are white inside also. but mangosteen is cooler still cos purple is just weirder than yellow.

~~why didnt God make any blue fruits?!!!?!?!?~~
thanks to rachel, i remember that blueberries existed. hahahaha.
i had like a lighter blue in my head lah,
but then again a light blue fruit will just be completely unappetizing if you think about it.

kkk.
i'll properly write a post about actual stuff that have happened, another day.

everlasting
everlasting
everlasting
everlastinggggg.
:D.

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Monday, July 27, 2009 8:35 PM

this one's for the friends. :)

[Edit: people have been asking me who this post referring to.

and it started with 'no one in particular, all my friends:)'

till it became 'all my friends lah you lah! why you all ask me, i wrote there what!'

hahaha but anw gg just told me it was cos he thought the the friends thing is like some codeword for a person, no lah! ahhahaha.

by friends i mean friends, yes i am not trying to play any kind of games. :)

and for a moment i thought all my friends were secretly my enemies or smth srsly.

then i a bit sad.

HAHA. a bit. ;)]

know what i really like?

one-on-one friendships.

i love knowing that i know you in a way that no one else does.

knowing that we've done and said things to each other that we havent to others.

and knowing the retarded things we've done together that made us laugh. (HAHA I SEE US IN THAT POLAROID!)

and knowing the things we share.

from common interests, to common experiences, to uncentralised zipai photos together.

and yes, between just us.

like, it's a 'you and me' thing, not a 'you, me, him, her and her' thing or what no, it's you and me, period.

it's like we created a world of our own. and if there was a secret key to it, it'll be like a kit-kat bar --

where you can only split it in two.

but i wonder if you've realised that,

i dont love the same anymore.

i mean ok i know i didnt like BAM and became awesome overnight,

but i just wanna let you know that i've been trying my best to give away this new love i've found, a love that's so great, i wanna do nothing but give it away.

and one day, i'm gonna be the best friend i could ever be to you.

the jesus kind of friend.

where i would lay down my life for you.

and i'm sorry if i once showed self-love in our friendship.

where i kept you as a friend because i wanted you to be my friend.

well, now, i wanna keep you as a friend because i wanna be your friend.

i wanna give and forget about receiving.

i'm sorry if it was once about me in the us,

because i've realised when it comes to Us, i'm meant to put U first.

and that's the only way it's meant to and will work. :)

i'm sorry if i've ever pissed off at you, or gotten angry or irritated at you over the littlest things

and honestly, i dont give a damn anymore if you've ever done something against me either, cos can i just say,

you're forgiven. :)

or even if we were once really close and we havent talked in really long, or lost contact, can i just say,

you're not forgotten either. :)

but anw yah, i just wanna thank you for the times you've listened to me.

but i'm sick of hearing my own voice already.

and i just wanna let you know that i'll be there to listen to you.

and i'll give you my time,

and i'll spend time to do things for you,

because i think you are worth it.

it's all about you remember?

and i know this is just the beginning of my best effort to building friendships with Godly love, but how much greater joy i've found already, from friendships managed this way. :)

Proverbs 18:24.

P.S. i love you. :)

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Sunday, July 26, 2009 9:01 PM

SUAY I DONT WANNA WATCH ALREADY!!!!!

i just missed every single one of the 4 goals that liverpool just scored, cos each time i walked away from the tv to do smth.

goal 1: we just got back i had to prepare dinner

goal 2: i had to go run to the room to wake mummy to eat .

goal 3: papa ask me to get him coke. plus cup. plus ice.

goal 4: papa ask me to get mangosteen.

my dad decided to be nice for the last one and yell me back so i could watch the replay at least[torres goalll XD], but whatever, i am like damn sian to watch alr cos i am beyond suay.

i just have a feeling there's gonna be one more i will just miss.

and niceeee one daddddd you sit there on your smelly butt the entire game.

haha but i still love my dad.

ok i go and do work!!

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Thursday, July 23, 2009 10:47 PM

cos awesome people are always there to remind me why my life doesnt suck.

and i've mastered the art of photo control.

so anywayyy.

last wed i met che'rie and charmaine for dinner at cine xingwang.

BOLOPAOOOO.

i love. :D

i cannot draw heart shapes anymore like the lesser than 3 ones. i realised they screw the html.

sad face!! LESSER THAN SLASH 3!!!

they made me go pierce my ears AHAH super random i tell you, like they realised i didnt have piercings so they were like go and pierce!

and im like 'now??'

and they went YAH

so hahha i did.

yay i grew braver, last year i still rmb ravin made me pierce i was screaming the entire plaza sing down even before they shot my ear. hahahah.

i was a wimp lah. thumbs down sign nette.

haha anw che'rie and i were supposed to meet during the holidays and i told her i was gonna bring a mystery person and i wouldnt tell her and she couldnt guess.

cos she doesnt know i know charmaine.

and i wanted to surprise her cos they hadnt sen each other in over half a year haha.

but anw then we keep postponing cos last min always have stuff until last week charmaine told che'rie on msn 'YOU HAVENT REPLIED ANNETTE ON WHEN YOU CAN MEET US!'

haha and like she totally blew it.

then not fun already haha but never mindddd.

then on some other day i met qian for dinner at the jay chou shop YAY and hhahaha she is free entertainment once again.

i swear her family is hilarious.

then on sunday was dr joel's birthday!

feli bought him ikea daim cake!!

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY! :)

after that gwen and i had kovan beef noodle lunch with roys, ben, jeremy and daryl.

after lunch royston followed me to get stuff and walk to the bus stop and like we managed to talk after so long.

like i shared a lot of shit with him which was cool stuff yayy.

cos we've both been super busy.

WE'LL HAVE SMALL KIDS OUTING SOON AGAIN OK WHEN WE'RE FREE WHICH IS HIGHLY NOT ANYTIME SOON. :(

all i do now is freakin go home and do work and sleep. but whateverrr also good.

mondayy.

isaac's surprise birthday dinner!

HAPPY 17TH YOU GANGSTER. ;D

haha he is damn lucky that the next day was service learning no need to wake up early, so i could make it!

we got him zinc bag and gangster earrings HAHAHA super funny.

btw i think sneow is hilarious hahaha.

ok anyway after service learning i watched sunshine cleaning.

evan says it's beats harry potter.

HAHA i might believe.

i really wanted to watch it when it came out until everyone who didnt read the book hated it and said how it had no storyline and all.

which i didnt read the book.

stopped at 5th.

so haha i scared to watch and waste money.

anw i think maybe after As i'll read the entire harry potter all at once! XD

like have my own harry potter marathon.

cant read anymore now cos of freakin school.

but anyway!

it's been a good week. XD

gonna finish up my work now.

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Sunday, July 19, 2009 7:37 PM

a prayer from rachel koh, a two-word impression, then a confirmation.

great things.

i didnt wanna write that here at first cos i scared i screw up, but i realised what's there to be afraid of cos He's never saying things for fun.

and thats quite cool beans cos then i realised it linked to today's sermon, about God calling Gideon.

exactly what pastor reuben said about how God doesnt say things for fun.

He couldnt have told Noah to build the ark then when he build finish just laugh in his face and 'omg you really go and build HAHA i was kidding lah.'

and for when i am weak, i am strong, cant believe freakin took me till this year to realise that.
no pretty much quite late actually, haha last week.
for the full complete realisation.
i mega stronggalzz now, i cannot even tank myself i think haha. He's taught me to be independent, focussed, and put him as not first priority,
but only priority. :D

relient k sang the end of the first half of my year for me:

When I got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, "I miss you son. Come home"
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love you felt for me was more than
The love I'd wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told so's
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you.

basically it was
went jc,
ran away from God,
life started messing up,
He put me through major trial on top of that,
life messed up ttm,

and then

He told me to go back home, and He

completely changed my life. :)

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen. Not only because I see it, but because by it i see everything else." - C.S. Lewis.

i believe in God because i've experienced Him period, and since He is love, i pretty much now know love, and know i wanna do things right, and do things not for myself, but for Him.

dunno why i spasmed to write this but i guess cos church was awesome today, augh. XD
cant wait for life.

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Friday, July 17, 2009 8:06 PM

like just about a few days ago, i died into the shit again cos more crap happened.

but only for a short while, like one day. HAHA.

Prayers do work thank all you wonderful people that day. :)

yah it's the last spasm.

confirm plus chop this time. :)

HAHA.

let me tell you all a secret.

it's quite stupid and you must promise not to laugh, but anyway.

i got back my chem and maths that day and after it i started to think about how i've screwed up this entire year.

and.

i started to plan.

MY RETAINMENT.

HAHAHAHAHA.

like srsly. cos i really decided i messed up this year too much.

then i even started thinking how maybe i'd drop out of school like about now, then i can go and retake my Os privately maybe like my both maths only, and a combined science one?

then make sure i get A1s, then i can get 7, minus 2.

then i can go AC and dream school myself, who cares if i'm a year older than everyone else.

and at least i'll have all the AC friends like che'rie, shawn, all the church people.

then i was thinking how i'd like just study damn hard so even though i'm like a retainee i'll be straight A-ing and all the promoted AC friends would be wishing they retained AHAHAHA.

and i will be happy kid number 1.

i even wrote down a small list of possible subject combis which i will choose next year, like maybe h2 lit?

and go there and start a new life and hope everyone at sa magically forgets me.

cos srsly my life just looked damn shit.

but yah anyway right now, just 2 days later, i can say that God is good and just solved it all once again for me in just one day, and showed me what He can do, and how faithful He is.

awesome can?

so i am not gonna go through with that perfect fantasy plan i made up haha, because what i was really trying to do, was find a way to basically,

give up.

which like hello, i am so not gonna give up.

who says it's too late?

and unless God first says so, or first gives up on me, i will never

ever

give up

on myself.

i am gonna C and above my promotional grades.

and get an A for art.

dont tell me it's impossible, cos i know that with God, all things are possible. :)

WHOOOOO.

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Sunday, July 12, 2009 8:05 PM

wahlao, i cry on my birthday.

[Edit: writing this made me wanna cry too. :'(]

you guys put the sweet in my sweet seventeen.

i love surprises, and you all just put in like a million for me.

on thursday i met mervyn for dinner and he treated me like $1.80 of the $3.80 mango ice as a birthday gift HAHA retarded but yayy.

thanks i know i'm your favourite og kid!

haha ok lah you're my favourite ogl also except i dont really have much choice since you're the only one.

then at night i celebrated with my family.

my sis got me slippers hha i like chose myself though

i love accessorise!!

anddd.

I LOVE MY DAD.

he got me a macbook for my birthday.

which came with a free ipod touch.

which is double awesome.

i am so gonna make sure i own esmond at taptap one day manzz.

then on 10th july.

before mw started, ard 650, i went to the caf to find elaina.

and there she was on a table with a cute circle chocolate cake in front of her, with a candle stuck into it.

she sang me a birthday song and gave me a card and an elmo balloon i was like : DDD

augh i love you E! XD

class-best-friend-not-from-my-class HAHA. <3

she got a cake for mq also!

anyway, i was so happy you know.

like that if my day stopped there, it wouldve been enough.

but nope it didnt! i went mw and aaron passed me his present after it, which elaina and i totally laughed when he told me the price HAHAHA srsly i wouldve just pretended it cost a bomb.

but thanks love ya church buddy from sch!!! XD XD

then i went to class and pradeep and i got sung a birthday song, and got like the class present.

then eychelle called me and yelled happy birthday HAHA, and shawneeeee and tessa wished me on the phone also.

ah, basically many many people wished me and all the many birthday hugsss augh THANK YOU I LOVE YOU ALL XD.

so yeah i was happygalz123lalala by the end of the day, where i sat down and decided to study oral.

i was talking to shawn then he was saying later oral when i give my ez-link i must say "lao shi jin tian wo de sheng ri" then got proof some more HAHHA.

"when there is hurt till it can hurt no more, there is no hurt, only more love."

anyway, so while i was sitting at the caf table, sam and meiqi came and brought me over to the old class, and i like whattt

and there was affy with a cake and candle and the whole class sang happy birthday to me.

HAHA AND I

FREAKIN

STARTED CRYINGGG.

HAAHHHA GG EMBARRASSING X10000.

ah, sweet kids ttmmm, i loveeee. :)

i'll never forget every single moment i spent with every single one of you guys, yall better not also srsly.

i miss doing the stupidest siao-est things with you guys and laughing like mad. :'(

anw they made me sit there and eat the cake without hands.

ahha but then affy got me a fork.

i was super full but i forced myself to finish everything manzzz.

then elaina walked over and was like: you cry cos you're touched or you miss them?

me: both..

then she said:

just now i also give you cake but you never cry...

HAHAAHHAHAAHAHAAAA<3.

then amanda gave me a letter thanks i love you! :)

you're like this super nice big sister i never had you're awesome, yay to friday breaks with you. <3

anw then the s5 girls gave me candy HAHA aw.

then ben and i went to practise oral HAHA HAOZHAO!!!!

and it was super funny, cos we went to like rehearse each other and test hahaha.

anw when i did oral i passed the teacher my ez-link and she laughed.

i think cos she saw the birthday.

the 10-JUL-1992.

..either that or she was laughing at my ugly p6 maid face.

then after oral it kinda sucked, but i ran down to j8 anyway after it, to meet the tiff and val, the best neighbours ever, and they gave me a...

...dog.

ahhaha ok not real one, balloon one.

I LOVE YOU GUYS. <33333

i so miss going school with you guys everyday. :(

i miss leaving a little late sometimes and reaching tiff's house when her car's like out of the driveway already, then i'll have to run into the car and apologise ttm.

or if i have my art then my file will be there blocking everyone's way.

or with all of us sleeping in the car.

freak, i go school alone now. :'(

but anw we went to sakae.

i was so full like srsly, the s27 slice of cake was so huge HAHA but i just ate anyway and i think my buffet price wasnt that worth it haha.

and they got me a cake toooo. <333.>

which yah i srsly was too full to eat i could die so i brought home.

then!

i went dhoby to get cheryl and chan's belated bday cards while waiting for jedi.

HAHA and, the cards were all so 'i dunno which to choose' so i thought it would be damn funny to HAHA get like, a wrong card.

i got chan a 'YOU'RE NINE YOU SHINE!' and cheryl a 'it's your 4th birthday!' or smth hahahahaha i'm hilarious.

anddd, when i was paying, i opened my wallet and noticed this blue posti-it i didnt see earlier.

it said:

"happy birthday! to my fellow my-life-doesnt-suck-that-bad"

HAHAHA no wonder when i was talking to shawn he asked me to lend him my wallet.

but that was sweet, made me laugh thanks shawn ahahhaahaaa.

if you scroll back to like last year dec i think, haha i have a photo like this but it's a mirrored version, at the cathay also. 4 of us.

manszxz!!!

who's gonna be there for me to scream and complain to when i draw until i cannot draw anymore?

when i colour until i wanna die?

when my colour pencil gets lost?

when my photoshop crashes after 3 hours of work which gets deleted?

when i think my drawing sucks?

when we just all get too stressed and wanna commit suicide!??????!?!??!?!!!!

anyway, i thank God for you guys so bad, for us to have this same stupid, time-consuming, stressing love called art, that brought us so close together. missesssss :'(

then we went to SAM for night fest, which jedi and i left first cos she had match next day and i had cip the next morning.

and guess whatttt.

we were halfway to ps when it was like BAHHHH behind us and we both got mega shocks and went like 'OMGG HAHAHHHAHA' then we turned around and saw...

...fireworks!!!!!!!! XD

jedi: why so random suddenly got fireworks?

me: i dunno, cos my birthday.

jedi: whatever.

anyway it was like sooo beautiful.

and i was so glad i was watching it with jedi, had one of those 'best friends forever' moments. HAHA.

okok sounds like some lesbo moment hor HAHA, but no srsly, she's like the closest friend i've ever had since sec4, and i wouldnt trade the world for this awesome friendship.

art, crying, dying, midnight smses about dying, project serve, appealing, tuition, art again, we've been through hell a lot together and like just ah, <3

then the next day after cip i was supposed to meet joel yu for birthday lunch cos he was :( cos he thought he was gonna spend his birthday at home watching tv.

but then at the last min he cancelled on me cos he had guard duty, which made him pisser cos that wouldve been even worse than tv.

HAHA but thennnnn

on sunday he told me it was a surprise actually, and he played at sentosa.

hope you had an awesome birthdayyyy. :)

but i was quite happy though cos i could go home and koooo.

OHOH hhahahahah then when i was sleeping halfway, isaac called.

and wished me happy birthday, and he like started explaining how he came back super late the night before and he couldnt check his fb what HAHA i was like it's okayyy thanks.

and on sunday thaddeus was telling me how on saturday he was like 'i'm an asshole i didnt wish her should i call her?' and all, HAHAHAHHAHA srsly, i have damn funny but awesomely sweet friends.

then on sunday after lunch, amanda, faith and jodie suddenly disappeared behind, so i went back to church with the rest first.

then we were waiting in the room for them to come back so we can start cell then suddenly the room door opened after we waited super long and i was like FINALLYYYY and!

they brought in a cake with candles in the shape of an A HAHA. awww yay i love you guys whoo.

haha i'll put up the photos when i get it.

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Thursday, July 09, 2009 12:04 AM

oh oh and have i ever mentioned?
i think i have the sweetest friends in the world. :D
<3 <3 <3

thanks every single one of you for the prayers, hugs, smiles, jokes, and 'you ok?'s.
HAHA.
I LOVE YOU ALL.

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Wednesday, July 08, 2009 7:02 PM

you hear a story,
you laugh it off,
and wonder how the protagonist couldve been so stupid to not have seen it.

then the author of your life puts you in that situation.

and then.
you dont see it yourself.

someone should be laughing at you.

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on monday 6th july, i woke up on top of the world, cos i'd just defeated satan in a mega battle!
nothing couldve tasted better than sweet victoryyy. XD

and i was certain i'd won, not because of every one of those stupid excuses i'd been giving myself to escape, to psycho myself that i did.
none of that.
but rather, because i finally see you again, here with me as i walk this path of life.
and nope, i'm never gonna fall or lose my way,
because you're behind me to guard me,
above me to watch over me,
in front of me to lead me,
and beside me so i'll know i'm never alone.

right now, i look behind me.
i see one pair of footprints on the ground of a 3-month walk.
my eyes brighten, and i smile. :)

i still remember the day i was walking happily with you, and the path split in two.
you asked me to walk the narrower one, the one less smooth.
i thought you were quite mad, and i wouldnt do it.
but you said, "just trust me."
so i obeyed.

but to my horror, immediately when i'd stepped on that path,
i looked behind me and noticed that the two sets of footprints we'd been leaving behind, had suddenly turned into only

one.

satan whispered to me, and said you had left me alone.
he said you decided to be v sadistic and play some loser joke on me just cos you were bored.
make me do something difficult, then run away, giggling.

"omg you freakin dumbass," he said, "why'd you listen to him? when you couldve taken the path that looked so right. i mean, it was right. but now, you're on your own, and your life sucks. like ttm. and it was cos you listened to him. WHO ASK YOU."

Being quite idiot, i believed him.

i asked you why you'd left me.
why you'd left me so weak, vulnerable, and with nothing.
fine, i thought. since you decided to leave me alone, i'm not gonna care about you either. i'll trust my gut. i'll do things my way, the way i want, for myself.
and so i did.

but,
all i did was get more confused, and my spirit just grew weaker.
and the weaker it grew, the more satan attacked.
and the hurt did nothing,
but increase.
and increase.

and every,
single,
freaking,
time i turned around,
there were still,
STILLL,
just one,
one.
one.
stupid pair of footprints.

i really hated you then.
i really did.
like ttm.
i thought you'd left me there to rot for life.
sucked that you werent a person cos i really wanted you to piss off and die.

but still.
no matter how much i hated you, i still cried out to you anyway.
because whatever my heart was telling me to do,
wasnt working out.
i had nothing to lose to try you out as a possible way out.

but when satan saw this, he panicked.
"shit," he said, and tried even harder than he did before, to mess around in the playground of my mind.
i had freakin started a spiritual warfare within myself.

it was a tough fight.
BUT.
i told myself satan cannottt win.
he couldnt, he just couldnt.
cos if he wins, i lose.
and the worse i felt, the better he did.

but because the harder i fought, the harder he fought back, at no point i felt like i'd won.
i was just fighting, fighting, and fighting.
non-stop but not giving up.
not losing but not winning either.

i was running out of energy.
until one day i was just sooo completely exhausted, i admitted defeat.
i gave up.
i let him win.
i just couldnt do it anymore.
i'd been fighting, but it was so damn tiring and it wasnt going anywhere.

but then i realised, it was cos i was fighting it wrong.
i was still doing it my way, still without you.
i had the right intentions of wanting to fight him, but i couldnt do it by myself.
the only way i could do it, was let YOU come in.

i'd wasted my time fighting, when i couldve let you fight for me.

exodus 14:14.

it was just,
that,
simple.

so!
i made the decision to let you, and you like duh, obviously won. :P
and with him defeated, you said to me, "the reason why there was only one pair of footprints,
was because i was carrying you."

now, we're back to leaving behind two sets of footprints.
but at least if i ever turn around and see them turn into only one pair again,

i'll know why this time.
:)

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I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say that I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won't look very far
Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again

“The human heart is the most deceitful of all things..."
- Jeremiah 17 : 9.

"Above all else, guard your heart..."
-Proverbs 4:23

in a world that tells me to make self-centred decisions, to "follow your heart", and "trust your feelings ",
think i'd rather make christ-centred ones, and go with what God has to say to me.
:D

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Monday, July 06, 2009 7:21 PM

WAHHHH CANNOT TANK!!!!!!!!
here i am back mr blogger, cos i couldnt bear to leave you behind.

ah, feels more like home here. :)
ah i guess i just pretty suck at changes. thumbs down sign.
ohoh and i thought it was cool that you could post xanga updates onto facebook but then at the last min i realised i cannotttt cos.....
...i got my parents on fb and i dont want them to read!! HAHAHAHAH.
yah my parents have fb, they are quite hip and happening. yo.

but yah anywayyyy here's a post of everything that's happened over the past 2 months, which is mega mega a lott. and ah i didnt post for so long cos i thought i could give up on blogging to save time but haha i miss it.

so yah once again photo limit is avg 5 per event ahhaha.
it's gonna be pretty long. but i will highly miss out on a lot. and be too sian to write too much anw haha.

HOLD YOUR BREATH. :)

X-MEN THEME FOR CELLLLL.

clockwise: cyclops, kitty, mystique, catwoman, storm, rogue, and gambit. hahaha.

caption by sneow himself: wait till you guys see my gambit stick!
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HAHAHAHAHA.

storm.

HAHAHHA best.

cos we were sposed to watch x men after that but in the end we didnt. :(

HAHAHA I LOVE JASPER OMG.

many laughssss.

look at che'rie and her new naked teeth!!

and meet junhe's ez-link.
che'rie and i took this HAHAHAHA i spent like, 5 mins laughing at this.

then some random friday, i went acsi to visit shaunald after school. cos i ended earlier than his.
and EAT THE PRATA BOMB WHOOOO.
da bestt.

and some other random

lazy sunday afternoonnn.

then the following friday, i met joel for dinner at bishan and to get gertrude's birthday present.
HAHA then, the next day i was supposed to meet him earlier so we could play badminton before the party.

so heres what stupidly happened HAHAHA.

ok party starts at 7.

we were sposed to meet at 530 at hougang.
i oversleep and leave my house at 530 and when im leaving mum says 'you come back for dinner ah!' and i say 'AUGH. mum i told you already i eating at sharmaine's house cos it's gertrude's birthday. :(' mum says 'oh i cook already. you come back by dinner.'

means i'd to leave at 7.

i reach hougang at 6.

we take bus and reach shar's house at 615.

joel keeps going like 'no need to play already srsly ahhaha.'
gertrude and her mum is there, shar is studying upstairs and gertrude calls her and asks her to bring down racket and shar says when she's done studying.

joel and i sit down. shar doesnt come down. we talk cock, like about the other bbq going on. the 21 year old party.
HAHA like the people dunno how to bbq they just spam charcoal and like their pit was in flames and they just panick and spam more charcoal HAHAHHAA i was like 'eh joel go and tell them throwing more charcoal's making it worse' and he was like 'no you tell them. if i tell, the woman will just strangle me with her black hands.'
hahahahhaha.

until 645.
not funny alr.

shar stilll doesnt come down.

I SIT THERE AND DIE AND REALISE I JUST CAME FOR NOTHING COS EVEN IF SHAR COMES DOWN AT THAT SEC WE PLAY 15 MINS ONLYYYY.
which is retarded man!!
i complain. i say my mother waste my money on the present HAHA.

650. gertrude calls shar again and demands her to come down with the rackets cos annette has to leave at 7.

7. i say happy birthday to gertrude and later on shar like msged me she thought gertrude was using some stupid trick to make her come down like she was kidding. HAHAH she totally thought why would i LEAVE exactly at the START of the party hahahaha ahhh i dunno sometimes i just find myself doing the stupidest things!!!

SO WE'RE GONNA PLAY BADMINTON ANOTHERRR DAY.

haha ok then the following friday was ms chye's farewell!!

HAHAHAH which was mega retarded stuff cos in the end she was so touched by the farewell, she decided not to leave after all!!
jiarong told me that last week, she not going pl already haha. i love ms chye.

I MISSED ALL MY JUNIORS LIKE CRAZYYYYYYYY.
SO HAPPY TO SEE THEM MAN!
like all of them. liyana, azilah, yoojin, stephanie, etccccccc. <333

ok most of the photos are on fb.

look at lena.
still looks like a yunho.
a pretty girl version.

HAHAH OKOK THE NEXT ONE PRETTIER TTMMMM.
i like, secret-cam shot jiarong while she was eating the cake.
ready?

it's really super pretty.
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HAWT STUFF HHAHAHAHAHAHA.

OK SHE ANGRY.

but deep down jiarong still secretly lovessss me.

HAHA I HAD FUNFUN doing the mirotic dance thing with her she's awesome stuff ttmmmm.
and omgomg she like scolded me in this korean speech she made me laugh till like i sat on the floor super super funny hahahahhaa.
i tried to learn it but i spasmed and burst into laughter by the like 4th word or smth HAHA.

oh am gee i miss you jiarong i must still meet you some day.

haha qian and i were spamming eclairs cos they were so nice, then there was this remainder last box no one ate i was like OMG CAN I KEEP IT? then they just let me hahahaha i was so happy.

then qian and i went to aston's for dinner whooooo XD
then i think it was the next saturday, playmax training.
i think.
haha pardon me my chronology wonky ttmmm alr.
i was sposed to meet gen to go tgt, but then last min i had constipationnn. haha. so i told her to go firstt.

i saw jolene, krystel, mingting, shaunald, cassandra, nat ghui, sherill, daryl and darren and haha many people. XDXD
haha oh ya shaunald you and nat sposed to show me the korean video thing still havent show me!! hahaha.

AC CHOIR CONCERTTT.

HAHA THADDEUS AND HIS TUX.

samuel x2.

ISAAC AND HIS LONG JOHNS HAHAHAHHA.

and HAHA OKOK look at isaac.
in the next 3 photos.

the different angles of a gangster face.

thaddeus wanted to give isaac a kiss.

then!
it was k mah's 17th birthdayyyy XDXD
nico aaron and i got him like the awesomest present ever hahah.

my hair's eating my head.

we look like angels HAHA the light.

JASMINEEEE I HADNT SEEN HER IN FOREVER XDDDD I WAS LIKE YAYYYY HAHHA.

with adnaan and elaina.
new friends are always XDXD.

HAHA look how k mah changes alter egos.

emo boy.

happy boy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU. :)

THEY ARE V CUTE HOR HAHA.

and okok hahahahah poh.
can hold.
his liquor.
as well.
as.
a.
haha i dunno. i am not in the mood now of thinking up clever similes.

but yah anw basically k mah's dad gave us cocktail again, and poh drank like 2 glasses or smth, and he became...
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...mega drunk.

HAHA and i have this video of him spazzing it's super funny but i am not gonna waste time uploading it'll take forever manzxsz hahahahahha gwen was super scared lah.

and HAHA ok this one.
i srsly forgot the date or what.
i just know that vivien, jasper, esmond and i went to SAM to review exhibitions haha.
esmond left early though.

the awesome chicken rice.
and a suck camera.
haha.
still, i <3!

I TOOK THIS PICTURE OF VIVIEN SHE LOOKS SUPER PRO RIGHT???? HAHAHA.
sexy arm muscles uhh hahaha.

her cam is super cool stufffffff.

HAHA the pro photo she was taking, was of the trees.
which she just like piahed tgt with a photo of my unsuspecting drinking-from-a-straw face so it's like total ugly x2.

but anw SAM was WHEEEEE XD

jonah fest!!!
joel lee took this very auntie picture of me.

anw i game mastered with the wonderful k mah HAHA amanda chua was the only one who did our station right omggg hilarious stuff hahahah.

then last week of school was gp and chinese paper.
haha i freakin puked after the chinese paper, i think cos i hardly had breakfast.
HAHA ah wtv.
and it sucked cos i had this mega shit headache throughout the entire paper but somehow i just did finish the paper.

and lijie, kailin, and yuhong brought me down after <3<3>
HAHA OMGOMG. and thanks to jt, E and aaron for the msges also hahhaha ah so embarrassing but yeah really nice. XD XD

then merv came he dropped by for a really short while haha!

then! on the first week of holidays, E and i went to look for ms lee to take photo cos she was gonna leave and we v saddd.
we made her a card!
we're gonna mail it to her together with a photo frame of most likely this pic, when elaina prints it XD

I'M GONNA MISS HER SHE IS ONE HECK OF A GP TEACHER.
OK NO LIKE THE BEST.
EVERRRRR.

pradeep's birthday HAHA LOOK AT THE MISERABLE MUFFIN/CANDLE E BOUGHT. haha ok lah but it's cute.
happy birthday bro yozxzsxx!!! XD

then there was dance camp.
WHICH WAS DA BOMB.
we won first for amazing race.
OUR GROUP WAS DA BOMB.
$20 ben and jerry's ice cream voucher. yeahh.
it was funfunfunfun whooooo. XD

on the last night! it was nigel's birthday.
this was the night before haha i took photo of the msn list!

haha v sweet.

HHA apart from tinaes' eye this photo is v cute right.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIGEL!! XD

hahaha the greatest day of your life hor nigel.

then after that sunday we had cell in the morning then it was off to christians united camp which was really really great. :)

worship workshop!

me, jeannette, celine,victor, mr [OMG I FORGOT.]

haha ok i can't remember i think i was teaching meiting dance steps.

then after the camp i had to go back to school to paintttt hahahaa suckedddd cos i happen to HATE painting.
but anw jasper's hilarious.
after he was done with his painting he put like chairs in front of it and when i wanted to take a closer look i walked in front of the chairs he was like NOO!! and i was like HAHA WHAT?? and he said the chairs was like some ugly barrier or what if you look at the painting must look from the distance marked by the chairs, any nearer will look v ugly.
i'm like HAHAHAHAH what rubbish???

then came playmax!!

i grouphosted qian. she is technically not a group but yah.

then we were eating after that and then she said: I THINK, VERY CUTE WHEN OLD PEOPLE EAT ICE CREAM.

and i turned around and i saw this old man eating ice cream AND OMG IT WAS SRSLY SUPER CUTE THEN I STARTED LAUGHING LIKE MAD ALSO HAHHAHAAA OMG then i tried to anyhow take a picture.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA CUTE RIGHT.
HAHA srsly i wish i took him with the spoon in his mouth totally funnier.

AND OKOK HERE'S THE AWESOMEST PICTURE EVER!!!

haha whooo.

anyway i thought the testimonies they shared were like awesomeeee. :)
they might look like they're so big and strong and can crush little kids, but in truth i bet they love little kids and they love God above it all.

then i was v sad cos i had to leave early to go back to paint i could hardly play much!! :( :(
omg i wanted to play the stand on the spring thing and you whack the person off!!!
me and qian were laughing like crazy at the people doing we were like srsly, it woud be so hilariously fun.

BUT THEN NO TIME.

forgot chronology again.
then on saturday watched hannah montana with daphne and marietta.
i studied once with nicole at esplanade whoo. :)

then another day i studied with aaron, poh and isaac at nlb HAHA wahlao we totally sneaked in like cos you cant bring into the research part like notes and stuff, you can only bring blank fullscap and writing materials.
so we put our notes in our back pockets with out shirts over and we got past the guard.
then when we were walking out the guys just like blatantly held their notes in their hands im like 'you siao ah later he seee??'
and then aaron said, 'aiya see also what can he do? chase us out meh? ok lah chase us out lah we're like on our way out alr.'

HAHAHAHHAA makes sense right.

then we watched i love you man, superrr funny hahhahaha.

then to jedi's house on friday to study art and talk HAHA omg, i had the most bimbo moment ever i sat on her oil palette ahahahahah and my red pants had to be thrown awayyy.
and i borrowed hers.

then at night we surprised doyong for his birthday!
happy birthday ex-girlfriend. :)

then captains ball omg we lost like everything kill me please HAHA but i had some good laughs cant remember over what but just HHA.

<3
haha random but, i think mark's mum is cute.

whoo hoooo. :D

okok the next picture like, view at your own risk, and if you're a guy you need to like be completely sure of your gender right now cos...
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...THIS PHOTO HAS THE POWER TO STUN GIRLS AND TURN BOYS GAY.

hahaha gosh justin tan you are quite gross.

then haha ok like i said, chronology is wonked up so yah on some other weird day peishi, hannah, charlotte, haoyee, joey, aishah and i went minds cafe.

and we had tons and tons of fun whoo!! XD
haha we mainly played taboo which was the love lah srsly.
laughed like mad.

i took this i think if i contrasted it and stuff it wouldve looked super arty farty loh.

love ya girls :)

then on some other day also i went to study lit with theresa claire kwok.
for superrr short.
that girl is becoming v scandalous uhh. :P :P

then CTssss. HAHA there was a day where i walked out with sean and aisyah HAHA we stupidly walked like to jacob ballas, then it was locked, so we walked out the main gate then.
we realsied we couldve walked out the side gate.

hahaha.
anw aisyah was epic she said this: 'where's east coast ah? is it in the east?'
HAHA.

then on thurs i think, i went back to cedar to get my giraffe from ms teh and she gave me extra raw wool too! means i can make more stuff to give peopleeee. :D :D
i love giraffes, kinda made the giraffe thing for myself, but think i'll give to someone, gna let God tell me who. :)

hahahha but yah so anyway sat i baked chocolate banana brownies at nicole's house then on sunday i had lunch with haha many people then poh, sneow and i went to watch transformers!
super good.
but they cheated our time. they say 2 and a half hours only 1 hr 45. manxzsxzxs.
then monday was lunch with lydia and then playmax thanksgiving which was cool stuff with free donuts and nice talking. :)
and then dinner with ian.
[yeah it's kinda tuesday now already as i am updating. :)]

then today was back at first day of school!
i brought the brownies to school!
HAHA i still find this super funny i need to write, like aneesha said she told her sister that michael jackson died of swine flu and she actually believed AHHAHA.
but ohkayyyy gotta skitter bye!

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