like just about a few days ago, i died into the shit again cos more crap happened.
yah it's the last spasm.
confirm plus chop this time. :)
HAHA.
let me tell you all a secret.
it's quite stupid and you must promise not to laugh, but anyway.
i got back my chem and maths that day and after it i started to think about how i've screwed up this entire year.
and.
i started to plan.
MY RETAINMENT.
HAHAHAHAHA.
like srsly. cos i really decided i messed up this year too much.
then i even started thinking how maybe i'd drop out of school like about now, then i can go and retake my Os privately maybe like my both maths only, and a combined science one?
then make sure i get A1s, then i can get 7, minus 2.
then i can go AC and dream school myself, who cares if i'm a year older than everyone else.
and at least i'll have all the AC friends like che'rie, shawn, all the church people.
then i was thinking how i'd like just study damn hard so even though i'm like a retainee i'll be straight A-ing and all the promoted AC friends would be wishing they retained AHAHAHA.
and i will be happy kid number 1.
i even wrote down a small list of possible subject combis which i will choose next year, like maybe h2 lit?
and go there and start a new life and hope everyone at sa magically forgets me.
cos srsly my life just looked damn shit.
but yah anyway right now, just 2 days later, i can say that God is good and just solved it all once again for me in just one day, and showed me what He can do, and how faithful He is.
awesome can?
so i am not gonna go through with that perfect fantasy plan i made up haha, because what i was really trying to do, was find a way to basically,
give up.
which like hello, i am so not gonna give up.
who says it's too late?
on myself.
