this one's for the friends. :)
[Edit: people have been asking me who this post referring to.
and it started with 'no one in particular, all my friends:)'
till it became 'all my friends lah you lah! why you all ask me, i wrote there what!'
hahaha but anw gg just told me it was cos he thought the the friends thing is like some codeword for a person, no lah! ahhahaha.
by friends i mean friends, yes i am not trying to play any kind of games. :)
and for a moment i thought all my friends were secretly my enemies or smth srsly.
then i a bit sad.
HAHA. a bit. ;)]
know what i really like?
one-on-one friendships.
i love knowing that i know you in a way that no one else does.
knowing that we've done and said things to each other that we havent to others.
and knowing the retarded things we've done together that made us laugh. (HAHA I SEE US IN THAT POLAROID!)
and knowing the things we share.
from common interests, to common experiences, to uncentralised zipai photos together.
and yes, between just us.
like, it's a 'you and me' thing, not a 'you, me, him, her and her' thing or what no, it's you and me, period.
it's like we created a world of our own. and if there was a secret key to it, it'll be like a kit-kat bar --
where you can only split it in two.
but i wonder if you've realised that,
i dont love the same anymore.
i mean ok i know i didnt like BAM and became awesome overnight,
but i just wanna let you know that i've been trying my best to give away this new love i've found, a love that's so great, i wanna do nothing but give it away.
and one day, i'm gonna be the best friend i could ever be to you.
the jesus kind of friend.
where i would lay down my life for you.
and i'm sorry if i once showed self-love in our friendship.
where i kept you as a friend because i wanted you to be my friend.
well, now, i wanna keep you as a friend because i wanna be your friend.
i wanna give and forget about receiving.
i'm sorry if it was once about me in the us,
because i've realised when it comes to Us, i'm meant to put U first.
and that's the only way it's meant to and will work. :)
i'm sorry if i've ever pissed off at you, or gotten angry or irritated at you over the littlest things
and honestly, i dont give a damn anymore if you've ever done something against me either, cos can i just say,
you're forgiven. :)
or even if we were once really close and we havent talked in really long, or lost contact, can i just say,
you're not forgotten either. :)
but anw yah, i just wanna thank you for the times you've listened to me.
but i'm sick of hearing my own voice already.
and i just wanna let you know that i'll be there to listen to you.
and i'll give you my time,
and i'll spend time to do things for you,
because i think you are worth it.
it's all about you remember?
and i know this is just the beginning of my best effort to building friendships with Godly love, but how much greater joy i've found already, from friendships managed this way. :)
Proverbs 18:24.
P.S. i love you. :)
