thank you cheezels.
you have once again not let me down i am feeling better now.
ok this just made me think of that day i was down cos everyone was being down then i was on my way home and i decided to buy myself a kinderjoy to cheer myself up, but i bought it and when i ate it IT WAS FREAKIN LAOHONG!!! D: D:
so i v sad, like total fail self-cheer up. plus i also wanted to buy a mogu but the mama shop didnt have zzzz.
but if im not wrong i a bit happy from opening the surprise toy so, good enough lah i guess. super cheap thrill right, omg.
i foresee tangent jumping.
it's hard to forgive your enemy,
but even harder to forgive your friends' enemies,
but the hardest to forgive, is probably yourself.
i am zomgttm addicted to the school's chayedan HAHA jasper ate 6 that day crazy guy hahahha.
i hate showing it if im sad when im around people.
if i tell you, i'll probably share you as a person like, 1 on 1 conversation.
i am so not gonna be a wet blanket i'll brace myself and smile cos i dont believe anyone deserves shit from me just cos im feeling like shit.
cos thats not fair the world doesnt revolve around the person with problems.
even if i share it with you, i'll definitely not vent it on you. it's not right.
i think it sucks most when people start taking you for granted.
or when they start doubting your intentions.
i dont know if i've been trying to lie to myself this whole time but i dno i think all i've been doing is probably just praying that this is still like it used to be, but im not sure now i dunno why it just isnt, on so many levels.
and it's like im trying and you're not.
but who am i to say that anw right wtv i'm just gonna continue praying i'm not giving up.
sigh it's been a crazy january, and it's only the first month of the year. =/
to see the strongest person youve ever known (or so you thought) cry for the first time since you've known her 7 years ago and feeling like she's weaker than you when you'd always looked up to her valor.
it hurts and it's scary, and i was so close to crying with you that day but i told myself cannotttt, because i really wanted to be, for once, what you'd always been for me.
and the least i could do was not cry.
but i'm really glad i prayed with you, because i know that He'll never be too weak ever, even if i do or you do.
then you see the happiest most fun loving person you know feel down, and it's so scary because that's not right.
to see bad things happen to good people.
and good things happen to bad people.
to see the good people not being able to get out of their bad situation and all you can do is sympathise and say shit which you're not even sure works.
and then people leaving without even say goodbye like, ?!?!?dfsmgdklsf?!??
but ah sigh i'm pretty much done i guess, i really badly need some quiet time right now goodbye. =/
